One Way or Another

“He what?!”

I covered my mouth with my hand in an attempt to avoid shrieking.

“Mikey raped me” I repeated with my still covered mouth, on the edge of breaking into tears.

I heard him curse out loud as he stood up from the bed to leave. But before heading towards the door he came to my side of the bed, planting a big messy kiss on my lips.

“I’m gonna fix this, don’t worry. I’ll take care of him”

I instantly broke into tears as I tried to grab onto his arms and keep him from going.

“No, please….don’t hurt him!”

I honestly can’t explain my reaction. I can’t explain how I still feel sympathy for him. How I still defend him. I can’t seem to understand. But now I know it’s not right at all to defend him like this, the look Gerard was giving me was more than enough to set my feelings straight.

“I’ll be back. If you need anything Frank’s downstairs”

I watched him go, disappear down the dark hall. I curled myself up in a ball, holding on tightly to my knees, and crying my heart out.
Was it the right thing to do? Tell him?

I mean, I hadn’t told him about him not using protection, and neither about my huge doubt about the baby being his.
But it couldn’t be Mikey’s. I mean, it’s science. Pure biology.
Right?

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Mikey’s POV

I stirred my coffee a bit more, waiting for it to cool down to a reasonable temperature. I had been rather alone these days. Nicole obviously didn’t want anything to do with me. And I don’t blame her. I would have done the exact same thing if I were in her place. It wasn’t my intention at all to….rape her. I just, I don’t know. I got carried away. Seeing her with my brother after all this time, just seeing them together made me loose it.

I swear, if I could take it back, I would. Take EVERYTHING back. Take back, the Hailey incident. Take back getting pissed off at her when I found her with my brother back then. Take back raping her as well.
I just don’t know what’s with me lately. I was perfectly fine before….before the pills.

I stared at the blue colored pill on the table next to my cup. Was it really the pills?
No, it can’t be that. I mean, I had started taking them cause of my emotional problems before. After finding about Nicole and Gee’s relationship. And I had been just fine after starting to take them. Hadn’t I?

I heard heavy knocks on the door. And I have to admit they kind of scared the shit out of me. I mean, it’s 4:20am for crying out loud!!

I got off the stool in the kitchen and tiptoed to the door. The wooden floor was known thanks to it’s echoing effect. I went to pull the door open, but it was lock.
I should have known.

“Open the fucking door Mikey!!”

I froze. It was Gee. What the hell did he want at this hour of the morning??
I pulled a drawer of a nearby desk open revealing the key. I put it into the lock, a bit scare might I add.

As soon as I turned the key, allowing the door to function properly, he pushed it open barging right in.

“You! Consider yourself dead!” he pointed at me, before grabbing me by the neck of my shirt and pushing me onto the now closed door.

I could barely breath as his fingers tighten around my neck, practically choking me.

“Ge..let…g..”

Ok, he WAS choking me.

I closed my eyes as it became harder to breathe. My mind drifting off to her.
It had all started because of her. Because of that one day, that one year we met.
But I don’t regret it.
Meeting her, I mean.

Being her friend.
All the rest, I do regret.