And I fall for her Like snow from the sky Gracefully land in her arms I melted away

I can't believe it. I mean I'm probably the most easily forgotten person in the world and yeat she said she'd never forget me. She's making this difficult. I thought I could just not tell anyone and just live what's left of my life and be happy, but she had to come along and complicate everything.

I know it might sound wrong and kind of cruel but I really want to talk to Emileigh. I know in the end it will hurt her, she'll cry, she'll ask the world why it was so cruel to her. But maybe just maybe I can make her think its a gift, cause meeting her was gift to me maybe it was to get me to make myself want to live. I want to live for her. If for nothing else I want to live for her.

I just realized my thoughts are starting to sound weird and stalkerish. I just meet her I'm not supposed to feel like this.I just her she followed me home. I'm supposed to think she's creepy and weird, but I don't. I actually think I'm starting to like her. Why Why Oh Why do I have to like her now when my time is so limited.