Faded
The End of Me
Panicking, and stepping out of the shower before bothering to finish washing myself, I grab my towel and run to my room. I plunk down on the ground and put my paperclip to my wet skin. Drag down. Hard. Blood mixes with water droplets, turning a translucent red. It doesn't help.
What do I do? My last resort is gone. I don't feel anything. No rush, no nothing. Tears mix with water and I bite my lips and I rock back and forth and what do I do?
What if not eating doesn't help anymore either? What if my runs don't calm me? It'll be the end. There's no way to make it past without my escapes. Music is fading into the background, the melodies hardly registering and not helping at all. The cuts on my leg hurt like a bitch, and... And I find that I don't want to cut. This hurts too much.
"DADDY!" I scream, unthinkingly.
What do I do? My last resort is gone. I don't feel anything. No rush, no nothing. Tears mix with water and I bite my lips and I rock back and forth and what do I do?
What if not eating doesn't help anymore either? What if my runs don't calm me? It'll be the end. There's no way to make it past without my escapes. Music is fading into the background, the melodies hardly registering and not helping at all. The cuts on my leg hurt like a bitch, and... And I find that I don't want to cut. This hurts too much.
"DADDY!" I scream, unthinkingly.
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mmm all will be resolved, no matter what happens ;)I haven't quite decided on the ending yet.