My Diary (if You Really Care to Know)

I will never forget today. Today, my sister opened up to me for the first time ever. She told me how she felt, and I realized that she feels just like me. We feel the same way. She is down on herself just like me; she thinks she is a horrible person, just like I do. She feels so bad about her mistakes, and she won’t forgive herself, like I used to be and still kind of am. The point is, we may each handle these things differently but in reality, we are a lot more alike than what a lot of people may think.

At the same time as I was trying to get over the things that she had said to me in the past, she was tearing herself apart about them. I called her a lot of mean things too, and I felt like whenever I talked about my feelings she was always making fun of me, but that is so far from the truth. There is something I can say though, no matter how many bad things we said to each other in the past, I love her and she loves me.

Today she was going through a tough period, and I feel like I may have helped her with it. I told her how I felt as well, and she was being so down, and it literally hurt to see her talk about herself that way, but I know that in my head I am the exact same way, and I think it cleared a lot of ground between us.

So today, other than my sister crying and feeling bad, was good because I finally got insight into how she really feels. She’s my big sister, and I will love her until the end of the world, no matter what we say to each other in those angry moments.