Aim High, Never Rest

Sitting in the high chair, I stared at my reflection while the hairstylist ran the flat iron though my hair. I was in deep thought about what happened earlier today. I sighed and looked down at my hands that were placed in my lap.

"Something wrong?" The hairstylist, Jack, said. I lifted my eyes back to the mirror and looked at Jack. "I know something is on your mind because you always get that look on your face when something is bothering you." He pushed the comb through the curls that he put in my hair. Jack had been my therapist this past week since I've been on set of South Air. He let my talk about my problems to him and he always listened and give any advice he might think I need.

I sighed once again before I opened my mouth to speak. "Jordan left the Palm Woods today." I simply put it.

"And your all depressed looking because of that?" He asked looking at me like I was crazy. "Isn't dating that one girl.?" I should have known that Jack would've been caught up with the latest gossip magazines. But he wasn't too involved since he couldn't remember Maxine's name.

"They are or at least they did." As soon as the words left my mouth, Jack gasped dramatically. "Yeah but the thing is that is that he told me he was leaving before he told her and I'm pretty sure she's beyond pissed."

"Wait, so you're sad for her but I thought you two didn't get along?"

"We don't but that still doesn't mean that I don't feel sorry for her." I let out a frustrated huff that I didn't even know I was holding in.

I actually did feel sorry for Maxine. I self-consciously rolled my eyes thinking of what Maxine would say or do if she knew that I was feeling sorry towards her. Don't get me wrong, I still wouldn't considered her my friend but my hate for her lessened. I knew I couldn't go on without telling her that Kendall basically told me to go after Jordan.

"So what about that James boy?" Jack asked spraying some kind of chemical in my hair.

I let out another frustrated sigh once he had reminded me about James. It's been a week since James had that little argument in my apartment. He wouldn't even look at me when I saw him I saw him at the Palm Woods or in school. I didn't want to believe he was still pissed about me "flirting' with Jordan. It was ridiculous, Jordan was leaving anyways.

'I don't know what's his problem. But I can't worry about it now." I say as Jack put the finishing touches on my hair. I twas flat ironed straight with few curls here and there at the top. It was a nice hairstyle for the character I play in South Air. I'm the recurring stuck bitch who has a dark past or something like that.

"You're all done!" He said, clapping his hands as I get out the high chair. I hugged and thanked him when the director called the cast to set. Today was a little bittersweet since today was gonna be my last day on set for awhile. I couldn't wait to relax, I actually missed being by the pool.

I slowly walked though the double doors and into the Palm Woods. The one and only thing on my mind was changing into my bathing suit and go bath in the sun. Walking towards an open elevator, I seen Collin walking into it first. He held it open so by time I got there it wouldn't close. "Thanks for holding it." I say as I push the button to the third floor.

"No problem." He said putting his hands in his pants pockets. There was this somewhat an awkward silence or maybe it was just me. "Did Kendall really tell you to go after Jordan?" He blurted out. I glanced at him from the corner of my eye and sighed. I seemed to be doing that a lot.

"I did but-"

"Why?" He cut me off with his own words. I could have sworn that he had a hint of anger in his tone of voice.

"I mean it's not like I intended to hurt-" I tried to defend myself but was cut off again by Collin speaking.

"Well you did Carley, I thought you were better than that." The elevator stopped and the doors opened on his floor. Before he walked out he stopped and looked at me. "Get over yourself." With that he let the doors close without another word. I was left there dumbfounded in the elevator. That was until the dinging of the elevator brought me to my floor. I stepped out.

Why did Collin flip out at me like that? That was the question that repeated itself in my head. That and what did I do that was so wrong?What did he want me to do, keep it a secret that Kendall gave me my motive?I had nothing to lose with telling her. So I had absolutely no reason to feel upset. But I couldn't shake this nagging feeling that was in my stomach.

"Hey Carley," A voice pulled me out of my thoughts. I turned from walking to my apartment to see Camille coming to me. "Wanna hang today?"

"Um," I thought about it. It is what I planned to do but I wasn't in the mood anymore at the moment. "No, maybe later." I told her and went into my apartment.

Well, the rest of my day was ruined.