Status: In progress
Hopelessly Impossible, A Forever or Never Love Story
Hopelessly Impossible: A Forever or Never Gay Love Story
Here I am again waiting. I don't understand why I keep doing this. Why do I keep waiting for a boy who's so far away from me? What makes him so intriguing, so irresistable? I suppose it's the fact that he's so shy and sweet and compassionate towards me. I've never known anyone to treat me like a person, like a human being, not a monster or some unnecessary that could just be tossed aside before. Well besides my sister, but she's another story. xD
She's sweet, kinda, extremely caring and gentle, yet insane, bossy, and she won't back down from a fight either. ^^' She's just uhm let's just go with a very unique character.
As I sigh waiting for him I get distracted reading something that really catches my attention. Something about gay marriage and well you know I always wanted to get married when suddenly I have the living shit scared out of me as someone buzzes me on YIM. I flew out of my chair in fright completely forgetting how loud I'd had my volume while listening to my mix playlist, but I paused it for some reason I can't remember anymore. It was Shunsuke. I had a huge grin just spread across my face as HE started talking to me.
Fruitloops (aka Shunsuke): What's up?
FinalDownfall: Nm you?
Fruitloops: Listening to music and talking to you. lol
That made me feel really special when he said he was only talking to me. He was on invisible to avoid people. I knew that little habit of his. It made me heart flutter and race. I don't understand how he can have this effect on me. I used to hate people. I know Sis changed me a bit, but still this feeling was so different from anything I'd felt before to the point it scared me, yet oddly enough exited me and I don't mean in the sexual way to all of you perverts out there. :P
FinalDownfall: How are you today?
Fruitloops: Blah Tired. You?
FinalDownfall: Im well enough lol
Fruitloops: lol
FinalDownfall: Hey Shunsuke I have a question for you.
Fruitloops: ok
FinalDownfall: Well I was wondering what kind of person you like? I mean dating wise.
I felt so stupid for asking that suddenly and really wish I could have taken that and wanted to give my curiosity a swift kick in the ass.
Fruitloops: Idk. Someone who loves me for me. lol
FinalDownfall: Ah I see
I noticed overtime he uses lol excessively and that was usually extremely irritating to me, but no matter how often he did use lol it never really bugged me all that much. I'd just ask him if he could speak then. xD
FinalDownfall: Shunsuke when's your bday?
Fruitlooops: March 25th lol
FinalDownfall: Oh so only a few weeks from now and you'll be 16 then right?
Fruitloops: Yup
His responses were always simple as can be, but for some odd reason that attracted me. I loved talking to him despite him seeing antisocial. I often asked him if I was annoying him and he'd always reply with "No lol"
Fruitloops: I got to go now. School tomorrow sorry. ttyl nite
FinalDownfall: Oh ok ttyl and tc night
Then he signed off. I was hoping to talk to him alot more than that, but just knowing he got on just to talk to me, me of all people, for that short while put a huge smile on my face. It made me feel so special and so loved. I was in absolute heaven over something so simple.
My sis walked into the room and asked what I was grinning so goofily about and I told her that I'd talked to him again and she just laughed and said I should try asking him out. I was stunned at her words. Was she really trying to encourage me to date someone again? She knew of my past experiences with relationships, but she also knew Shunsuke on a pretty personal level and the next words that came out of her mouth surprised me even more. "I think you and Shunsuke would be good for each other. You've both been through very similar experiences and I think you'd be very good rehabilitation for each other." After those words I told her that I'd try asking him out on his birthday. I was determined to try. Her words always made me feel so much better no matter what they were and she always made me feel so confident. On March 25th I was going to ask him out no matter how scared I would become leading up to that day what his answer would be to my question.
She's sweet, kinda, extremely caring and gentle, yet insane, bossy, and she won't back down from a fight either. ^^' She's just uhm let's just go with a very unique character.
As I sigh waiting for him I get distracted reading something that really catches my attention. Something about gay marriage and well you know I always wanted to get married when suddenly I have the living shit scared out of me as someone buzzes me on YIM. I flew out of my chair in fright completely forgetting how loud I'd had my volume while listening to my mix playlist, but I paused it for some reason I can't remember anymore. It was Shunsuke. I had a huge grin just spread across my face as HE started talking to me.
Fruitloops (aka Shunsuke): What's up?
FinalDownfall: Nm you?
Fruitloops: Listening to music and talking to you. lol
That made me feel really special when he said he was only talking to me. He was on invisible to avoid people. I knew that little habit of his. It made me heart flutter and race. I don't understand how he can have this effect on me. I used to hate people. I know Sis changed me a bit, but still this feeling was so different from anything I'd felt before to the point it scared me, yet oddly enough exited me and I don't mean in the sexual way to all of you perverts out there. :P
FinalDownfall: How are you today?
Fruitloops: Blah Tired. You?
FinalDownfall: Im well enough lol
Fruitloops: lol
FinalDownfall: Hey Shunsuke I have a question for you.
Fruitloops: ok
FinalDownfall: Well I was wondering what kind of person you like? I mean dating wise.
I felt so stupid for asking that suddenly and really wish I could have taken that and wanted to give my curiosity a swift kick in the ass.
Fruitloops: Idk. Someone who loves me for me. lol
FinalDownfall: Ah I see
I noticed overtime he uses lol excessively and that was usually extremely irritating to me, but no matter how often he did use lol it never really bugged me all that much. I'd just ask him if he could speak then. xD
FinalDownfall: Shunsuke when's your bday?
Fruitlooops: March 25th lol
FinalDownfall: Oh so only a few weeks from now and you'll be 16 then right?
Fruitloops: Yup
His responses were always simple as can be, but for some odd reason that attracted me. I loved talking to him despite him seeing antisocial. I often asked him if I was annoying him and he'd always reply with "No lol"
Fruitloops: I got to go now. School tomorrow sorry. ttyl nite
FinalDownfall: Oh ok ttyl and tc night
Then he signed off. I was hoping to talk to him alot more than that, but just knowing he got on just to talk to me, me of all people, for that short while put a huge smile on my face. It made me feel so special and so loved. I was in absolute heaven over something so simple.
My sis walked into the room and asked what I was grinning so goofily about and I told her that I'd talked to him again and she just laughed and said I should try asking him out. I was stunned at her words. Was she really trying to encourage me to date someone again? She knew of my past experiences with relationships, but she also knew Shunsuke on a pretty personal level and the next words that came out of her mouth surprised me even more. "I think you and Shunsuke would be good for each other. You've both been through very similar experiences and I think you'd be very good rehabilitation for each other." After those words I told her that I'd try asking him out on his birthday. I was determined to try. Her words always made me feel so much better no matter what they were and she always made me feel so confident. On March 25th I was going to ask him out no matter how scared I would become leading up to that day what his answer would be to my question.