Killing Loneliness

On our way to Castle Bam we dropped off Novak at his parents place and thne continued to make our way there. I was shocked when we pulled up to a huge house, that actually really did look like a castle.
“Bam! Is this really yours?!” I got out of the car and looked around. There was land everywhere that I could see , which forests and interesting things everywhere. I heard Bam laugh behind me.
“Yah this is mine,” He walked past me pulling his own suit case and started to unlock the door. I waited for Kat to get her suitcade out and her and I together headed towards his huge front door. We walked past the threash hold into a huge living room with fire place and large windows. Bam and Kat both started their way up stairs to where ever that lead and I stood at the bottom not sure where to go.
“Aren't you gonna come up?” Bam's head poked over the banister at the very top and looked down at me.
“Uhm, are there rooms up there?”
“Yah of course! Theres one here for you,” Bam smiled down at me and I started to pull my things up the stairs.
Once I was at the top, Bam came out of his room with an arm full of laundry.
“Here, follow me, i'll show you to your room,” He dropped everything over the edge of the banister and started to lead me into a room. The room was large with a huge bed in the middle of it against the far wall. There were large windows that spread it's light aross the sheets and blanket. The walls were a dark red colour, almost like a crimson and everything else in the room was black. I stood in awe of the beautiful room and didn't hear a single word that Bam was saying to me.
“Oh um, ssorry what was that?” I turned to him after I had my momnet of admiration. He was looking into my face with a look that I had never seen before.
“Oh just here's your room and stuff. Theres extra blankets if you need them since it's colder here then LA,” He walked over to the closet and opened up to show a couple of blankets.
“You do know I'm from Canada right? I mean I can handle the cold here perfectly well without an extra blanket,” I raised and eyebrow and looked at him if he was joking.
“Right,” Bam paused and then started to laugh. “I totally forgot about that,” He closed the closet. “Well I guess I'll leave you for a little bit to unpack and whatever,” Bam backed out of the room before I could say anything else and dissapeared somewhere.
I sat on the edge of the bed thinking of everything that had just happened. Just a few years ago I never thought I'd be here, sitting in Bam Margera's guest room, cause I was friends with him and he invited me and Kat Von D to hang out. My mind started to spin, I was having a very surreal moment. It felt like the world was spinning around me so I laid back against the bed. The blanket was so soft I could almost curl up and fall asleep in it, even though it was still early in the afternoon. I resisted my urge to fall asleep and just laid there with my eyes open for a few minutes.
In the middle of my unpacking progress Kat came wondering into my room.
“So you like it here?” She sat on the edge of the bed while I tucked my clothes way into the set of drawers that were against the opposite wall.
“Yah, this place is amazing! I couldn't believe you guys wanted me to come along with me. Thank you so much,” I turned and noticed that she was looking at her phone. “Is something wrong?”
“Oh, nah,” She looked up at me quick and then back to her phone. “Just my sister booked me some appointments and promo stuff while I'm on this side of the country. I think I'm going to have to head to the city,” She was clicking feircly on her phone.
“City?” I felt the anxiety build in my chest. I wasn't sure if that meant that we both went of if she went by herself and left me here.
“Yah, Shit. I've got some appointments. Looks like I gotta pack up again,” Kat stood up and walked over to me. “I know I'm leaving you in a house alone with Bam. No matter how good looking he is or how ever charming his is, dont' do anything. You both are very important to me and I don't want to have to take care of the both of you at the same time,” She placed a hand on each one of my shoulders and staired me down as she spoke.
“ok,” For some reason that was the only thing that I could get my mind and body to say to her threat. Normally I was terrified of a threat from Kat, she was my boss and bestfriend, but there was something different about this one.
She stood there for a few more seconds and studied my face and then dropped her arms to her sides. Kat didn't say anything else befoer she made her way out of the room. I leant up against the dresser, my mind a whirl wind again. She seemed very adiment about Bam and I not getting together.
I finished putting the last bit of my things away and started to wonder the house. Bam was laying on his bed with the remote in his hand. I knocked on the door frame and when he looked over and noticed that it was me he sat up quickly.
“Hey,” I smiled in.
“Hey,” Bam staired at me for a moment while a show in the background showed some interview of him from when he was in LA.
“Can I come in?” I had been standing at the door for a few minutes now. Bam quickly stood up and went to make his way over to the TV.
“Oh yah sure, sorry just watching the proof's of the interviews I did out there,” He was about to turn them off before I said something.
“Dont stop, really. Just watch them thats cool, just wanted some company. Kat's leaving,” I walked a few feet into the room and made my way halfway between the bed and Bam. He stopped and walked slowly back over to the bed.
“Yah thats what she just came in and told me. Are you going to go with her?” When he asked the last part you ould tell that there was a tone of sadness in his voice.
“Nope. You're stuck with me – and partly because I wasn't schedualed for anything,” I sat on the edge of the bed and looked up at the TV. On the screen there was Bam with Novak next to him talking about the filming of Jackass 3D. I sat there silently until the interview ended and Bam had gotten up to put the next one in.
“So, did you get the same lecture form Kat?” Bam asked over his shoulder as he read threw the different disks that all had different interviews on them. He popped one in and then walked back over and sat nex to me on the edge of his bed.
“Oh lord, what did she say to you? Cause she said to me that we were both to important to her for her to have to take care of both of us,” I was scared at what I thought Kat might of said to him when he mentioned that she had said something to him. I knew it was in the better for me, but I still didn't want her saying something that would effect his opinion of me.
Bam laughed to himself and pressed play on the interview. I wanted to interupt him and ask him what she had said to him. I tried to wait patently, but everything that was going on in my head was starting to scare me. Once the interview was over I turned to Bam. He got up to move but I grabbed his arm.
“Well? What did she say to you?” He heard the nervous waver that was in my voice. He paused and put the remote down and sat down next to me again. Bam picked my hand off of his arm and held it in his as he sat next to me.
“She told me not to hurt you,” His eyes were piercing up at me and I had to look away. My heart felt like it was beating a million beats per minute as I tried to register what he had just said. I looked down at my hands placed in his. With his thumbs, he was slowly swirling circles into the back of my hands. The chills from that shot up my arms and ran down my spine quickly.
The moment ended quickly, just like usual with Bam, when we both heard Kat calling us from the bottom of his stairs. We got up together and walked out of the room as if we had just been talking.
“Yah?” He leaned against the banister and I stood a few feet from him.
“I gotta go guys, I've got a few days booked solid. Here and there I might need you Ash, but I'll call you or Bam if I need you. Bam take care of my girl,” She gave Bam a hard look and then her eyes went to me. “Ash, make sure Bam doesn't die and hurt himself,” She gave me a hard look to, which was obvious what she was trying to tell me telepathically.
Bam was laughing and I laughed lightly and just nodded.
“Have fun! Let me know when you're finished, maybe Ash and I will head into town and come see you if you have a night free,” Bam waved over the banister as she started to make her way to the door.
I ran down the stairs quick, trying to catch up to her. There was a cab out front waiting for her so I gave her a quick hug before she left. With a strong look she reminded me of what she had said earlier as the cab pulled away.
I walked back into the house to hear noise coming from downstairs now.
“Bam?” I called out, not sure where he was in this huge house.
“I'm down here!” from the second set of stairs there were, the ones that went down though, I heard his voicce trail up from them. I started to decend down them and saw a large kitchen with a large table and small living room attached.
“Hungry?” Bam was diggig threw the fridge and all I saw was his butt. I couldn't help but stair as he dug threw the fridge.
“Yah, what are you thinking?” I walked over and peered over him, to see into the fridge. There wasn't much in there so I leant back and was starting on things that were easy to make with the few things that were in there.
“I'm thinking,” He stood up and turned towards me with a smile on his face. “We go out for dinner?” He shut the door behind him and leaned his back up against it.
“Sure, that works,” I couldn't help but smile back when he smiled at me. His smile got larger.
“Great, ok well I'm going to go get changed. Do you have something nice to wear with you?” Bam started to walk out of the kitchen and I slowly followed him up the stairs to the main floor and then up the stairs to our rooms.
“Yup, I figured at some point I was going to need something nice to wear,” I stood in my door way and watched him as he walked to his, which was the door just to the left of mine.
“Great, get it on and get ready!”