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BTD 26

"AWE C'MON, ALICIA!!WE ALWAYS START WITH AIN'T NO REST FOR THE WICKED!! IM SICK OF IT!!"

We have been stuck in traffic outside of Toronto for an hour now. The concert is in two hours and Chris and Alicia have resorted to arguing about the lineup. 

I groaned, rubbing my temples. 

" Shut up!! Chris, what do YOU want to start with?"I asked aggravated. 

He opened his mouth to speak, but shut it quickly, confused. 

" I-I Dont know..." he stammered. 
I rose an eyebrow. 

" Well now. Don't argue with Ali about the line up unless you have a positive solution. Alicia, quit being stubborn. There; problem solved. "

I scoffed and got up, pulling a beer out of the fridge. 

" Before a concert?" Aaron asked amused," Well, that was quick." he chuckled. 

I shot him a dark look and he smiled sarcastically. 

Gotta love him. 

Phillip chuckled as well," Well guys...guess the old Kara's back...I like it!"

Phil and I high fived and I sat in the recliner, drinking my Heineken. 

Up ahead I saw the traffic cleared and I smiled ," Guess our luck could be changing, we're gonna make it after all. "

I heard the driver chuckle and I sighed, getting comfy. 

FFW 2 HRS

" ON IN TWO!!"
" GET READY"
" HOLY CRAP WHERE ARE MY DRUM STICKS!!"

Things were being yelled left and right back stage. Needless to say, it was a mess. 

" Excuse me, Miss Young? There's something-"

" Not now, I'm about to go on stage, thanks"

I walked right past the girl holding a white envelope. She sighed," I'll leave it in the dressing room!" 

I nodded as I stepped side stage
With the rest of the band. Chris lightly punched me in the arm. 

" Hey girl. We were about to send out the search party." he joked. I laughed. 

" Got held up. You ready?" I asked everyone. 

They all nodded. I smiled. 

" Alright. Let's do this. "

On the stage director's mark, we all ran out on stage. 

" HELLO TORONTO!!!" I screamed into the microphone. 

There was a deafening blend of screams and applause that made me smile. 

I licked my lips before starting. 

" Nice. Nice. Well, guys. We've got some old songs, some new songs, so we hope you enjoy. Gonna start off with an older one I just know you remember,"
I laughed, signaling the band. 

Alicia raised her drumsticks, counting down. 

One two three.... 

" I love the way that your heart breaks
with every injustice and deadly fate
Praying it all be new
and living like it all depends on you

Here you are down on your knees again
trying to find air to breathe again
And only surrender will help you now
I love you please see and believe again

I love that you’re never satisfied
with face value wisdom and happy lies
you take what they say and go back and cry
you’re so close to me that you nearly died

Here you are down on your knees again
trying to find air to breathe again
And only surrender will help you now
I love you please see and believe again

they don’t have to understand you
be strong
wait and know I understand you
be strong
be strong

Here you are down on your knees again
trying to find air to breathe again
Only surrender will help you now
The floodgates are breaking 
they're pouring out

Here you are down on your knees 
trying to find air to breathe 
right where I want you to be again
i love you please see and believe again

Here you are down on your knees again
trying to find air to breathe again
Right where I want you to be again
See and believe!"

I took a deep breath as we finished and shared a smile with Aaron who was shredding next to me on his guitar during the song. 

" You like that?!?" I screamed one again. 

*roaring*

I giggled, switching the mic into my other hand. 

" Ok, this next one is a new one...no ones ever really heard it. Count yourselves lucky to be first..."

" it's called Going Under...

Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried.
Screaming, deceiving and bleeding for you
And you still won't hear me.
(going under)
Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself.
Maybe I'll wake up for once (wake up for once)
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom

I'm dying again

I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through
I'm going under

Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies.
(So I don't know what's real)
(So I don't know what's real and what's not)
Always confusing the thoughts in my head
So I can't trust myself anymore

I'm dying again

I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through

I'm...

So go on and scream
Scream at me I'm so far away (so far away)
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe I can't keep going under

I've died again

I'm going under (going under)
Drowning in you (drowning in you)
I'm falling forever (falling forever)
I've got to break through

I'm going under (going under)
I'm going under (drowning in you)
I'm going under"

There's nothing like the rush of performing before a huge crowd. For the next hour of the concert, I was on top of the world.