I'll Be Fine Even Though I'm Not Always Right.

I waited discreetly outside waiting for Jack to return to his car. I was sat there for a couple of hours until he finally left, once I saw he had gone, I drove to the space he had just left, before making my way into the building. All I could think of was why Lea was in such a place, what was wrong with her that it put her in here? I needed answers. I slowly walked up to the front desk where a elderly women was positioned behind, she gave me a small smile as I approached her.

“Hello dear, can I help you?” she asked politely.

“Hey, yes, um, would it be possible to see Leander Brookes?” I asked her in the same tone as she.

“Yes, that would be fine, she had returned a couple of hours ago, her room number is 560, level 3, can I take you’re name please?” she informed me with a smile.

“Thank-You, and yeah sure it’s Alex Gaskarth” I spoke softly before heading for the elevator.

Once I had reached the third floor, I slowly made my way down the long while hallway until I saw her door. I took a deep breath before knocking softly on the wooden door.

“Come in” she spoke faintly from the other side.

I opened the door slowly, revealing her small frame sat in a small chair in front of the window, her back was towards me.

“Lea?” I whispered.

She jumped at my voice, she turned around with a shocked yet angry expression, by this time she was stood up, her back up against the cold window.

“What are you doing here? How the hell did you know I was here?” she hissed.

“I’m here because I’m concerned about you, Lea. I followed you and Jack on you’re way here, why didn’t you tell me?” I asked her disappointedly.

“Pfft. You’re aren’t concerned about me Alexander, you proved that when you left. Why should I have told you? You were busy with Morgan, I was angry with you, I still am” she replied irritably.

She walked towards the bed and plopped down, turning her back to me. I knew I shouldn’t have left her, I knew it was a mistake, but Morgan, I loved her too. I was a complete jerk to Lea, I know I took the one thing I could never give back to her, I regret that. It’s just I don’t know…

“I’m sorry, okay! I know I was wrong, I shouldn’t have left you. What I said to you that night, I meant every word, they were sincere, my actions were unforgivable I know. I’m in love with Morgan, well was because she’s gone now. I know you’re still angry Lea, you deserve to be” I sighed, bring back the thoughts of Morgan were not of any help to this situation.

“What happened to her?” she asked blankly.

“Breast cancer- that’s what killed her, she lost the battle” I sighed, a tear escaping from my eye, which I brushed away swiftly with my jacket sleeve.

“I-I didn’t know, I’m sorry that’s an awful thing to have happened to someone so young- so beautiful” she replied bleakly.

I breathed heavily before moving myself from where I was stood at the door to sit beside Lea on her small bed, it was silent but it was good to be with her company again, I missed her.

“You know, that morning I left, I was going to break up with Morgan, but she text me saying she needed to talk to me, I thought that would be my chance, maybe she was going to end it with me…but she didn’t. she told me she had cancer, that she didn’t have long…”

I eventually got back to the apartment Morgan and I were sharing, I knew I had to break it off with her, I just didn’t love her the way I loved Lea. Nothing could compare to that. Ever. After receiving the text from Morgan that she had something important to tell me, I hoped she was going to break up with me, so I didn’t have to hurt her. I slowly made my way through our front door, I spotted Morgan on the couch, her chin resting on her knees, gazing into space…

“Morgan?” I spoke softly walking over to where she was sitting.

Her head slowly turned to look at me, her eyes rimed red from crying, she looked so pale.

“I-I’m not going to beat around the bush, I-I-uh- I have breast cancer, Alex” she sighed, tears streaming from her eyes.

She had cancer? I couldn’t leave her now, not in this state, it would destroy her if I did, especially in her state. I had no other choice. I pulled her body into mine, grabbing her into a hug.

“Are you going to be okay? I-I mean you’re going to survive this, right?” I whispered into her hair.

She shook her head no.

“I went to the doctors, they said it was too late to have surgery, I left it too late, if I had of gone when I first found the lump, I would have been able to have treatment, they gave me a maximum of four months to live” she sobbed into my chest.

I honestly had no idea what to say to that… whatever I could say wouldn’t change things, wouldn’t make everything better, so I just held her until she fell asleep.

“That’s what happened the day I left you, I would have come back to you, Lea. You must understand why I couldn’t now, right?” I breathed.

She didn’t answer me with words, just a simple nod. She still didn’t understand, I guess I couldn’t blame her. I guess it was my turn to ask her what happened in those months.

“Lea, why are you here? What happened after I left?” I asked her.