Silent Flame

Elizabeth;;

Sometimes I get that
Strange desire
To just run away
From everything

From him

From us

I just want
To spend time
Alone
In my own
Silent world

I wish I could
Go back
To how things were

Back before we met

Before
He made me
Need his presence

I liked the way things
Were

I like being
The self-indulgent
Self-destructive
Dark
Quiet
Peaceful girl

But I can’t have that
Not anymore

Not since he
Ruined it

He ruined everything
Just because
He thought I needed him

So now
I’m left
Sitting in the light
Exposed
Losing myself

He thinks it’s
For the better
I think
He’s lying

I’ve tried
Again and again
Over and over
So many times to just
Get away

To escape this
New reality
This
Romance

The one
I never wanted

The one we
Weren’t searching for

I wish I could
Stop loving him
I wish he
Could stop loving me

That’s how I spend my time
Just wishing
And wanting

Dreaming of him

I hate it
But I love him
And I wish I didn’t

I wish I could just
Leave
Run away
Into the
Comforting night

I wish I could just
Simply
Break away