Second Chances, Bad Habits

Deli sat down on the bed as I closed the door.

“I know about what you use to do.” turning to look at her I saw the guilt written all over her face.

“What do you mean?”

“I mean I know about the drugs, the alcohol, and all the other shit you use to do.” playing with the ends of her shirt she didn’t meet my stare.

“I’m sorry.” she said, her voice barely above a whisper.

“No, Deli, don’t be sorry. As long as you don’t do it anymore then I’m fine, I just want you to keep it in your past.”

“I stopped when we moved here, so it’s all in my past. We moved here so I could have a blank slate, a new start.” nodding I looked over at her, I could see it in her eyes that she had something to say.

“You look like you need to say a few things?”

“Yeah I guess I do.” Deli took a deep breath and let it out, my stomach clenched because she did this a few more times before she finally decided that she wanted to speak.

“Um, Ash, I know about your past too.”

It was in that moment that my stomach pretty much fell out of my body and splattered all over the floor. Fuck shit tits! What and how much does she know? Because in my past I did a lot of not so good shit that I’m not proud of.

“Okay, what do you know?”

“I know about your manwhoreing ways and how you sleep around.” fuck fuck fuck! How did she find out about that? I knew one day this was all going to bite me in the ass one way or another.

“Deli, I swear on my life and to you that all of that is in my past. I love you so much and you’re my one and only.” the look on her face said she still didn’t believe me.

“How can I believe you?” covering my face with my hands I groaned. This day just got wonderful.

“Ask me anything and I’ll answer truthfully, I have nothing to hide from you Deli. When I say I love you and that you’re my only I mean it. I wouldn’t cheat on you. I love you.”

“I don’t know Ash.”

Even with my attempt at opening up to tell her everything I still got the same look from before.

“Baby, what do you want to know? My name’s Ashley Purdy, I play bass, I’m in Black Veil Brides, I’m twenty five and I’ve lived in LA since I started design collage here.”

“Ashley…”

Why does it feel like this always happens to me? I always find some way to fuck up a relationship. I guess when I was younger I should have stopped to think about what my sleeping with a new women almost every night would get me into. But I’m Ashley Purdy, I don’t think I just do.

“Deli really, I haven’t cheated on a girl in over two years. I haven’t slept with anyone other than you since we met, I wouldn’t dream of doing that to you.”

I also didn’t sleep with as many woman as I usually do on the last tour we were on. I mean damn I was doing pretty good trying to keep myself to the promise I had made, to stop my life of drunken one nightstands and to find a girl who I really loved and that loved me back. Personally I felt like I had been doing quite well, and then I had met Deli and it seemed like my promise to myself was going to come true.

“Okay Ash, I guess I believe you.” sighing I didn’t like the believe she’d thrown in there but for now I’ll take what I can get.

“Thank you. I really mean it. I love you so much.”

Sitting down next to her on the bed I placed a hand on her waist before leaning in to kiss her lips softly. Caressing her cheek I smiled a little seeing as she wasn’t pushing away, that’s a good sign that she isn’t too mad at me.

“I love you too Ashley.” she didn’t sound so sure about that but again I’ll take what I can get for now.

“Deli, can you tell me more about your past?” Deli sighed deeply and wrung her hands in worry.

“I don’t know Ashley… I don’t think you’re going to like what I’d have to tell you.” I shrugged, how bad could it be? I mean of course the things Andy had shown me were bad but the media hypes things up right?

“Deli, I love you nothing you could say could change that.”

“I just-I don’t know Ash.” resting my forehead against hers I closed my eyes.

“If you don’t want to tell me now will you at least promise to tell me later?”

“Okay, I promise to tell you later.” pressing her lips to my I smiled holding her close to me.

“Thank you.”

Pulling her down onto the bed with my I laid down on top of her slowly deepening the kiss. My friendly little Outlaw in my pants was screaming as I began kissing down her neck. Deli moaned quietly before trying to sit up.

“No, not right now Ash.” kissing her sweet spot made her moan again before she almost fell back onto the pillow but didn’t.

“Please Baby?” biting at her collar bone her moans became much throatier.

“No Ash, we’re not done talking.” I groaned, no we’re done talking for now because all I want to do is fuck her right now.

“Baby, please I need you.” shaking her head no she pushed me off, why do I have the strange feeling that she pushed me off because of what she heard about my past?

“Okay what else do we need to talk about then?” falling back on to the bed I pulled her into my chest so her head was resting near mine.

“Um, well do you remember how I sang?” damn straight I remember that, she sang like a fucking angel.

“Of course, how could I forget that.” kissing the top of her head I ran my fingers through her soft black hair.

“Oh well thank you,” I could hear it in her voice that she was either smirking at me or blushing. “well, um, this guy from Epitaph was talking to me about how I’m the new kind of talent that they’re looking for.”

My mind was blown. Fuck yeah! I totally knew she was a good singer before everyone else did! And now she’s gonna get signed!

“Aw Deli that’s amazing, is he going to get you signed?” smiling she nodded.

“And I’m in a band.” I couldn’t help but smile at her. Fuck yes! I wonder what’s the likelihood that my band and hers will tour together.