P.S. I Hate You

Club Silver Glitter sounded like a gay club with glitter and fist pumps. And it was, no joke.

Terrance and I quickly went to Club Silver Glitter after we read the letter and looked for Gavin and James. Since Terrance was old enough, he got in with no problem. I on the other hand had to wear short shorts and a white low cut tank top. Lucky enough the security guard was a buff lesbian.

Terrance went to the right to look for James, I went to the left to search for Gavin.

I looked almost everywhere. On the dance floor, at the bar. I hadn't looked in the restroom yet. I was afraid to go in the men's restroom, especially on gay night.

I finally had the courage to go and search in the men's restroom. I quickly went in and checked all the stalls. I was finally at the last stall when I saw someones legs.

"Hello?" I asked in the sweetest kindest voice. "Gavin? James?" I asked again.

I knocked on the door and it swung open and hit someone in the head. I gasped and quickly bent down.

"Oh! James, I'm so sorry!" I yelled and touched his head that was in his hand. His other hand was holding onto the toilet bowl. I gagged at what I saw.

"Ever, what are you doing here? You're obviously not gay." He slurred and gave me a drunken smile.

"Yeah, and neither are you James." I muttered and helped him off the floor. He wobbled as we quickly walked out the restroom. As we went out I saw Terrance and Gavin by the bar. I quickly walked to the bar with James.

"Where'd you find him?" Terrance asked as I sat James on a stool and stood in front of him.

"In the restroom hugging a toilet. Where did you find Gavin?" I asked and looked at Gavin who looked like he was high more than drunk.

"By the VIP area." I nodded and sighed.

"James doesn't look to good," Terrance pointed to James who was leaning over and looking at the ground.

I quickly lifted up James' head and looked in his eyes, "I swear if you puke on me your sleeping in the bathtub." I muttered through my teeth at him. Then what do you know? He puked all over me, and my new shirt.

I gasped and let go of his face.

He wiped his mouth with his hand and laughed. He pointed to me and kept laughing. It got me angrier and angrier.

James turned to the bartender and was about to ask him for another drink.

I shook my head. No, I was through with this. I grabbed him by the arm. "You've had enough drinks tonight. We're going home." I yelled in his ear.

"Fuck you bitch!" He yelled in my face. I rolled my eyes and shook my head. I grabbed Gavin by the arm. I lead the two boys out the door, I knew Terrance wasn't too far behind.

I pushed James and Gavin into the back seat of Terrance's car. I went around and went to the passengers seat.

I slammed the door after I made my enterance in the car. Terrance was soon in the car too.

He started driving and I started crying. I could heard James and Gavin laughing in the back seat. I looked in the rear-view mirror. James was laughing at me. Gavin was looking out the window and laughing for no reason.

"Hey, its going to be okay," Terrance said and rubbed my arm.

I shook my head and Terrance's hand left my arm.

"It's not going to be okay. Its never going to be okay. Do you think its okay that I can't see my best friend anymore? Do you think its okay that my parents are making me marry a cocky ass whole? Do you think its okay that I have to marry and I'm nearly 16? Do you think its okay that my cocky ass whole fiance hates me and everything about me? Do you think I'm going through is okay? I sure as hell don't!" I yelled and folded my arms. I was still crying. At this point I didn't care.

Terrance shook his head, with his eyes still on the road. "You're right Ever. I'm sorry. Everyone's life is complicated once in a while. You'll find your way. Hell, my life is complicated now. I like my best friends fiance! If the public finds out, I could be beheaded if James wants me to. But Ever, I'm here for you, just remember that." He turned to me and smiled.

I shook my head and let out a big puff of air I had been holding in.

I wish I could believe in what he said. But somehow I couldn't.

We finally made our way home. Terrance said he would take Gavin home. I gave Terrance a quick kiss and took James inside. We sloppily made our way up the stairs and into the house.

I pushed James into the room and I turned on the light. I turned and James was shirtless. What a surprise. I rolled my eyes. James eyes bored into mine as I looked at him and reached in my night stand for my pajamas.

"Why do you insist on being shirtless?" I asked him when I finally found the pajamas I was looking for.

"Its fun. You should try sometime," He winked at me and took off his pants. I quickly turned and walked in the bathroom.

I quickly changed in my pajamas. I sighed and looked in the mirror. Who was I? Nice Ever? Mean Ever? Or just, Ever?

I walked out the bathroom and put my clothes in the hamper. James was tucked in the bed, sound asleep. Alcohol makes you get fucked up, but how I love how the end result works on James.

I smiled and climbed into bed next to James. This was my second night sleeping in the same bed with my fiance. I have to sleep with him every day for the rest of our lives. Oh how I'm going to dread every single minute of it too.

*~*~*~*~*

Somehow I mange to wake up everyday with the sun streaming in my face. I groan and move my head against the soft sheets. I heard James groan from beside me.

I turned my head. I needed to go back to sleep.

"Oh my head!" James complained.

"Shut the fuck up. I'm trying to go to sleep." I muttered. I moved my head deeper in the pillow.

James groaned again.

"Ever! There's a crisis going on out side! Get up and- whoa." I heard Megan yell. I heard another pair of footsteps. I didn't know whose they were but I didn't have the energy to pick up my head and look. "Aw that's so adorable!" Meghan cooed.

I picked up my head. My head was one James' chest. I screamed and literally jumped to the end of the bed.

"Gross I just slept on James!" I yelled and pointed to him.

James gave me a smirk. It almost made me gag. "Is my chest quite comfortable Ever?" He asked.

"You wish!" I yelled at him. I was totally disgusted. But I didn't dare say that his chest was comfortable. And I wished that I was back on his chest asleep and away from all the troubles. I didn't dare to tell anyone that I actually enjoyed sleeping on James' chest and I actually looked forward to it again.

I rubbed my arms and looked at Meghan and Kim. "Whats the crisis?" I asked.

Kim went to my closet and started looking through clothes. I was confused. Crisis plus clothes. Doesn't mix.

"Its the press, they're outside and they found out that James finally has a fiance."

"So.." I muttered. I didn't get it. Okay so they wanted to meet me. Whats the big deal. I answer a few lied questions and bam, everyone in England loves me.

"Ever, honey, they will butcher you. You answer wrong, you're wrong for England. Your wrong for England, everyone hates you. Everyone hates you, shit happens." Meghan said, sitting on the edge of the bed.

I looked to James. He shook his head. But I knew he wanted me to mess up. Thought if I mess up, he messes up. Nothing is getting in his way. If I mess up we're both in deep shit.