Let's Stay Awake Under the Stars

Alex P.O.V.

My phone was going off the hook with text messages and phone calls from the guys wondering where the hell I was, a few of the missed calls were even from my girlfriend who’s apparently in complete panic mode but at this moment I chose to ignore them, That’s why I’m here anyway to get away from them. I put my phone on silent and left it on the seat of the swing as I followed Kaycee up to those play towers where I found myself resting my head in her lap as she ran her fingers through my hair. There was just something about this girl, I wasn’t sure whether it was her smile, or the way she always listened to my childish selfish rants, or maybe it was just the fact that she was out of my reach but I know that there’s something about her that just makes me feel at peace with myself. “Your too quiet Gaskarth, that’s something very rare coming from you” I heard Kaycee say with a small laugh, it’s true most of the time I’d usually be complaining about how the guys would put pressure on me to write a new song or how clingy Jasey was being, or just something that gave me the need to rant or to get off my chest. Kaycee was just that one person in this world I could tell anything too, all of my secrets, all of my fears everything I needed to get out she was ready to listen. What really drew me to this girl wasn’t just because she did what no other girl has ever done to me, which was reject me well she never once judged me and the best part she always kept me in my place. It was like nothing I said or did to her would get her to hate me or change her view of me.

“Sorry I was thinking” I finally said as I titled my head back so that our eyes met, I could see a small gleam in her eyes as she stared down at me already curious with what was on my mind. “Well go on spill it, remember we had a deal no secrets” she said still running her fingers through my hair, god how I love the feel of her fingers through my hair and how I wish she would run her fingers down other parts of me and I know what happen last time I asked her to do that, she slammed those delicate fingers right across my face. Damn when she told me she was innocent I didn’t think by much but like most things in my life I was wrong. “I was thinking about that night” I started to say as my mind wandered to that night a few months ago, the night that everything changed for the both of us. I could feel her take a deep breath as she passed her fingers along my forehead, I could tell she didn’t like what had happen that night hell no one did that had to be the worse yet best night of my life.

A year ago, two months after warped tour

Kaycee P.O.V.

“But Johnny I don’t want to go!” I protested, I was still sitting on the van clutching my seatbeat for my dear life as John oh had his arms around my waist trying to pull me out of my seat. “Damn it Kaycee your being such a fucking baby! Let go!” but I didn’t want to get out. It’s been already a week since his first show at warped tour and we finally made it to a new city for their next show but you see with every concert comes a party and I hate parties especially ones that involve hot sweaty musicians who are intoxicated and won’t remember a thing in the morning. Sure I’ve only been to one and well ever since then I’ve been scarred. “ Fuck Kaycee! Nothing bad is going to happen this time I promise! Just come in for a minute and we’ll leave the moment you get bored” John said still struggling with getting me out of my seatbelt. “I’m bored!” I almost screamed, I could hear the laughter coming from the rest of the guys as they stood there watching as John struggled unsure of what to do. They knew me too well; they all knew what I can be capable of. When you first look at me you’d think I’m a fragile little girl, too scared to do anything because I might break a nail, and yeah that’s probably true but when I set my mind on something like I was right now with not getting out of the car I’d get this super human strength and I was going to take more than this to get me out. It’s not that I don’t trust my boys, it’s just ever since that first night of them making me drink and losing sight of me left me in panic, I don’t know how I act when I’m drunk but from what they said I was completely honest with everything I said and well my actions. “This doesn’t count! Guys seriously! Help!” John said he finally let go and for that split second I thought I was safe but I was so wrong, here came the other four. Kennedy went straight for my hands, Pat for the seat belt and Garrett and John both carried me out of the van. “That’s it! You guys need to find a new merch girl” at this moment I wished they would take me seriously but like most of the things I shouted out of anger they just ignored it.

So here I was locked up in the nearest bedroom I could find, I just couldn’t stand it down there anymore. First I couldn’t even get near John oh since he was too busy dancing with a girl he met earlier at the show so I knew for a fact if I cut in and dragged him away I wouldn’t hear the end of it, then of course Kennedy was too busy flirting it up with a few girls so there was no chance in getting through that crowd, which meant the last three were too wasted to even drive me home. What drove me to the point of escaping the loud music and dance offers was all the drunk guys and how sick it made me watching how they went from one girl to the next whispering the same bull shit and watching how each girl fell for it. It was just so sad to watching how people took advantage of others at such a vulnerable state, on top of that I kept running into some of the guys from All time low and from what I noticed their lead singer wasn’t with them oh well thank goodness for that. “I said I didn’t want to talk to you right now” I heard someone slur behind me. “Shit you scared me” I said jumping at that voice only to see Alex sitting on the floor, with his back against the bed and a bottle of vodka in his hand, it didn’t think a genius to figure out that something wasn’t right here. “Oh shit, it’s just you” the way he said that caused me to roll my eyes before realizing that everyone downstairs was searching for him. “ Everyone’s looking for you, you know” I wanted to just turn around and leave it at that but when I saw that sad grin on his face as he shrugged his shoulders I just kept staring. “They can look all the fuck they want doesn’t mean I’m going to say shit to them” my first thought was to just turn back around unlock that door and just hide in the car till the guys wanted to leave but I just couldn’t tear my eyes away from him. He looked completely torn, and the way he kept taking long sips from the bottle looked as if he was trying to drown away whatever he was feeling. It wasn’t that I even for the guy, he has been a complete asshole since I met him, constantly hitting on me, touching me, being completely gross. But something inside me just caused me to remove my hand from the door knob and sit down next to him grabbing the bottle from his and tossing it aside completely ignoring his protest. I had no idea what I was doing, heck chances are he’d probably try taking advantage of me right now, or most likely scream and tell me to leave but again I had that gut feeling telling me to just stay there. “What’s going on Alex?” there were knots forming in my stomach. “Why do you care?” Alex asked avoiding my stare. “ I don’t to be honest, I think you’re an asshole” I started to say, “Nice, which part of that was suppose to make me feel better?” he laughed and rolled his eyes leaning his head back against the bed. “ This part, though you’re an asshole I’m still here and I’ll be willing to listen if you’ll be willing to tell me what’s going on, maybe I can’t help you, or even solve your problem but I can promise I won’t judge you I’ll just listen” was all I said before he finally looked me in the eyes and told me everything that went on tonight.

I never thought my heart would break so easily for someone just moments ago I thought was the worse thing on the planet. But when Alex told me about how he caught his girlfriend cheating him with his best friend, I felt something. “If I didn’t know any better I’d think you’d be the one who’s girlfriend cheated on you” I heard Alex said with a small laugh as he wrapped his arm around my shoulders, I was trying to wipe the tears that were forming in my eyes from his story. “How can you joke around about things like this! It sucks! I can’t believe they would do such a thing to you!” I was so angry at the moment at what had happen to Alex and at the fact that I was more torn up about this than he was, he was just sitting there laughing and somehow managed to steal the vodka bottle away from me and was now finishing up the last sip. “Because I know I deserved it” Alex said as he shrugged his shoulders. I just furled my eyebrows and looked up at him. “How can you deserve something like this? No one deserves anything like this! God you’re so dumb” I crossed my arms over my chest, sure from what I knew of him so far he has been a complete jerk, flirting with girls while he was in a relationship, just being an ass, I knew not even he could deserve such a pain such as this. “Trust me Kaycee, if you knew my story you’d really think I got exactly what I deserved and it’s no big deal” again with the shrugging of the shoulders, at this point I just pushed him out of anger. “I don’t care Alex, you don’t deserve to be treated like this if she was unhappy with you she could have dump your ass instead of sleeping with your stupid best friend doesn’t she have any morals?! Doesn’t he have any morals!?” he was right I was acting like I was the one that got cheated on, but I couldn’t help it. “Calm down Kaycee, its okay I promise” I felt him pull me into his arms trying to calm me down and so far it was working. We just laid there on the floor not speaking just thinking letting our thoughts fill the room till I finally heard him speak. “I like talking to you, believe it or not I actually feel better not just because I was able to let out my anger but because I could never just talk to someone” I gave him a small smile I felt the same exact way, sure I have my boys but most of the time I just couldn’t tell them everything, If I found something they did was wrong I couldn’t just yell at them like I wanted, I’d have to sugar coat things but tonight for the first time I was able to be completely upfront with how I felt with someone I barely knew. “you know despite this last week and how you treated me, your not a bad guy Alex and if you ever want to talk I’ll be here to listen” I pushed myself off of the floor as I stared at him he looked just about ready to pass out. “If you promise to be completely honest I’ll keep talking” that was the last thing he said before he completely passed out.