"Bille, This Is So Right, and I Love You."

"I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone..."

One year, three months and twenty seven days.

That's how long it has been since I saw Billie Joe, and that's how long it took for him to release a new hit song in my memory, considering I ended our relationship on a boulevard.

Ten months and fourty seven days.

That's how long ago I recovered from my scare sickness of breast cancer. Billie wasn't around to support or help me. He tried but I didn't let him. The whole experience made me stronger and I have learned to trust myself now, not some male who will eventually leave me some day. I have accepted everything that has happened to me and I am confident within myself. I can do anything I want to, and for once I know I can do it alone.

Jake has fully recovered from everything. He can walk perfectly normally and he has moved schools to a place where he happily fits in. This is because I moved from America with him. We now live in Italy with my new long term boyfriend, Raphael.

Billie and I never got married. We never recovered from the horrible mess that was his betrayal. He writes me letters from America, but I don't return them. Occasionally I get calls from both him and Natalie, but I don't return them. Jake has grown older so I told him exactly what happened, from the moment I met Billie Joe to the second I pushed him away on the boulevard. Jake doesn't want to see him. I told him if he ever changed his mind he could see his father any time he wanted, but I don't think that will happen.

Jake and I are happy in our new life away from everything. I see a psychologist every second Tuesday to work through my previous problems, but now I have accepted them. I have accepted I was raped repetitively by my own uncle. I have accepted my parent's death, but more so I have accepted Billie Joe and I weren't meant to be.

I will always love him. But I will never again act on it.

At the moment, Jake and I are happy.

And that's all I need for now.
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The end.
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