The More You Chase It

December 27th, 2010
[James]

James,
I’m sorry I haven’t gotten back to you since my birthday. Christmas is always a hectic time, and frankly I’m not sure what I’m supposed to say. Thank you for the flowers. I really did love them.
It’s probably time for us to talk, huh?
I was thinking sometime next week we could meet at that spot by the water? I don’t have class until January so most days are fine for me.

Thanks again for the flowers,
Daisy

The open window on my laptop screen seemed like a joke. The flowers had actually worked? After the first few days without hearing from her I thought that was it. I was sure of it. But now? I finally got my response and I didn’t know what to feel. This was good. It had to be, it’s what I wanted. Of course it was. It was great. I was just surprised. The feeling of shock inhibited my ability to bother with standard e-mailing conventions. I just typed my quick response. No salutation or valediction, just exactly what I wanted her to know.

I can be in the city on Tuesday, how does 11am sound?

I stared at the screen after it sent. I pressed refresh again and again but there were no new messages. Sometimes I wish friendships had a refresh button. It would be so much easier to fix this. Then, finally, my phone vibrated.

That sounds fine

And I felt stupid for e-mailing her what I could have texted her. But more importantly I felt nervous just at the sight of her name on my phone for the first time in so long.

Alright see you then