Status: On hiatus - don't know if it'll ever be finished tbh
Fat
Tuesday January 9
My cousin Marissa is coming over for dinner tonight. She’s really the only person who’s around my age that I actually get along with.
Marissa is three years older than me.
She’s smart, and pretty, and kind, and thin. All the boys love her. All the girls want to be her. This’ll make me sound like a total pansy, but I want to be her. She’s everything that I look up to in a person, everything that I wish I could become.
Marissa is the only one who understands me in my family, the only one who cares. She’s the only one that knows my darkest secret; that I’m gay. She knew even before I did. She’s perceptive. Which is why I have to be careful around her. I can’t let her find out that I’ve been making myself throw up, because then she’ll tell me to stop.
I don’t want to stop.
I want to be beautiful and thin like she is.
Marissa is three years older than me.
She’s smart, and pretty, and kind, and thin. All the boys love her. All the girls want to be her. This’ll make me sound like a total pansy, but I want to be her. She’s everything that I look up to in a person, everything that I wish I could become.
Marissa is the only one who understands me in my family, the only one who cares. She’s the only one that knows my darkest secret; that I’m gay. She knew even before I did. She’s perceptive. Which is why I have to be careful around her. I can’t let her find out that I’ve been making myself throw up, because then she’ll tell me to stop.
I don’t want to stop.
I want to be beautiful and thin like she is.
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