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Light of Things
The Last Thing I Do
After Kacey left I sat back on my huge comfortable chair and looked at my ring. The diamond band, the huge diamond, white gold and an old school feeling to it. The kind of ring that we could pass out on generations and it would have that feeling of love and purity that he had chosen for us.
I felt readier by the day, I had to admit. There was a fear that I couldn’t understand let along hide. What if he fought so much to have me back and he then realizes that I’m not the one. What if I’m the one that gets tired of this life, I’ve never been in an actual relationship when he had 17 years of experience…
My thoughts had given me such a guilt trip that I could only get rid of by giving him the news he’s been waiting for:
Matthew Sanders, I’ve never felt happier than when I’m with you. I know that never in my life will I find what I have with you anywhere else, so I’m calling it quits and shedding all fears since you’ve done everything but that… I can’t wait to walk down the aisle and become Teresa D. Sanders.
I texted and waited. Not a minute later the phone was ringing, he wasn’t supposed to be on stage yet so I smiled and quickly picked up the phone:
”hello?” I sang while locking my office, I really had no reason to be here so I could easily go home and let Kacey deal with anything else.
”for reals, baby, we can set a date?” he was a second away from a total freak out.
“well yeah, I think I’m ready for it. I have to take chances before it’s too late,”
“it’ll never be too late. Don’t pressure yourself thinking that,” his sweetness was something practically unbearable for me to stand;
”I know, but imagine me in a wedding dress 30 years from now,”
“I’d still love you and find you attractive,”
“I know, but I wouldn’t though,” he sighed;
”yeah yeah. Whatever, when I get back we’ll sit and find a date, alright,”
“yeah, babe..” I was already down in the garage and approaching my car when I saw something weird ”something’s wrong,” the bright red light on the dash from the alarm was turned off;
”what is it?”
I rushed to the security office of the garage;
“evening Ms. Derulo, what can I help you with?” the chubby guard stood as soon as he saw me;
“there’s someone in or very close to my car,” I panted, it wasn’t the fact that I had hauled some serious ass all the way there but the panic attack that was slowly rising at the thought of what could be happening and could happen to me if I’m not careful enough;
“are you sure, ma’am?” I shook my head frantically still ignoring Matt who continued asking me what was going on;
“no! just check, please!” I hated ordering people around but in a moment like this I could take no risks.
In my status they took no chances either. He walked slowly to the car while softly calling for back-up which I could hear inside the office. He pulled his gun out apparently after seeing someone in my black Mercedes.
“Teresa, please tell me what’s going on?” he was a minute away from calling a cab and catching the first flight back home;
”baby, maybe I’m fucking paranoid, I just felt weird like there was something wrong-“ I stopped speaking when I heard the commotion, three guards surrounded my car with guns drown out;
“step out of the vehicle with your hands on your head!”
”I was right,” I said softly “there was someone waiting for me in my car, Matt,”
“who?” anger filled his usually sweet voice;
”let me go see…” I walked back to my car where two guards held a man dressed in black against the car and another checked the duffle bag he found. “turn him,” I needed to see who they had sent this time around.
The big blue eyes shocked me for a moment, I couldn’t even stand in his presence again;
“Shay Matias, the last person I expected to see,” I heard Matt mutter something under his breath “call the police and get him out of my sight,” they cuffed him and took him back to the office, I caught a glimpse of some of the things he had and gasped before gathering myself. Knife, cuffs… the instruments of misery and torture.
“I’m gonna kill him!” was all Matt said;
”no you won’t, remember when you said that his power wasn’t really physical? We need to be just like that, drown him, his father and mine with every other resource we can find,” I was trying my hardest to be strong, unfortunately I knew I really wasn’t. I looked over my shoulder every two seconds as I walked back to the elevator, just in case they had send a plan B, of course they’ve never been so bright.
”please, Tere. Call Benji or Gregy to get you home, don’t go alone,” I stayed quiet for a few seconds, fear seemed to have mute me;
”um, yeah. I’ma call Gregy, Benj’s on tour. I’m just going back up to my office,” I nearly sighed when I got to the crowded lobby;
”fuck I should be there protecting you,”
“you hold it right there, Sanders. Don’t you ever regret doing what you do. When you stop doing something you love for someone, you’re not really in love but merely attracted or obsessed, psychological fact,” I was finally in the safety of my office, locking the door behind me and turning on all the security monitors;
”psychological fact or not, Teresa, don’t ever question my love for you. You give me reasons to wake up every damn morning and getting through each day on the road and back home. You can even tell me you hate me in a fucking temper tantrum and it wouldn’t hurt half as much,” I wasn’t trying to hurt him;
”I wasn’t trying to hurt you, Matt. I just… fuck! I’m in love with everything you are and everything you do, including your music. Would you imagine a day you don’t think about your next move in the band, it wouldn’t seem real it wouldn’t seem like you. I don’t want you to leave it for anything especially not for me,”
“Tere, I’d give up my life for you, and I am extremely attracted to you but not obsessed so you can tell your psychologist that he’s an idiot and that he needs a new profession,” I couldn’t help but laugh;
”I’ll let her know. I gotta go now, I’m gonna call Gregy to stay with him and tonight and figure some other ways to fuck my daddy over,”
“sweetie, your psychologist doesn’t have it wrong, you do. You don’t need a psychologist, you need a psychiatrist,” I laughed.
”I’ll think about it, I love you, alright, call me whenever you want,”
“mmm, two seconds after we hang up?”
“deal, bye,”
“I love you,” for some reason we still haven’t gotten over the entire teenage thing of stalling just to keep on talking;
“I love you, too, bye,”
“bye,”
When he finally did hang up I broke down. I cried until I went dizzy and realized I had to stop. In a fit of tears and shaky nerves I dialed Gregys’s number. I took a deep breath so he wouldn’t notice I had been crying;
”sup?”
“can you come get me?” I could peel my eyes off the screen after rewinding the garage’s monitoring tape. I watched Shay pick the lock and before the alarm alerted the guards he had already managed a way to turn it off.
”why? What’s wrong? Why are you crying?”
“um, my dad sent that guy that tried to rape me while up in big Bear and he was in my car waiting for me when I went down,”
“oh my god! I’ll be right there in less than 10, acuerdate. Nada te puede tocar, tu eres mucho más Fuertes que ellos (remember, nothing can touch you, you are much stronger tan them,)”
“okay, bye,”
I called Kacey and told her that the entire security staff had a reunion early the day after, even those from night shift.
Finally Gregy walked in,
“sweetie,” he hugged me instantly;
“I’m not gonna be safe until he’s dead,” I cried;
“you and I both know, that will be sooner than later,” I nodded.
We went to the LA PD where I released my statement against Shay who was in a holding cell waiting for his father. We went to Gregy’s apartment and around 3am my phone rang;
”we’re calling from Statefarm, is everything alright?” I jumped off the bed and sped walk to Gregy’s room;
”I’m not in my house, what’s going on?”
“the alarm went off, I’m alerting the authorities right now,”
“Greg wake the fuck up! Someone broke into my house,” I pulled him off the bed. I slipped a pair of crocks of him on and we were out as he got dressed all the way there. The police waited for me to go inside and most of the neighbors were outside watching the show.
They cleared the entire place and I went inside. The house was spotless but I knew exactly where to find the mess. My office looked like a hurricane had gone through it, I went straight to the safe behind my desk, just like I thought it had been cleaned out.
I smiled to myself, dummy packs of money and wedding planer’s information. The wall behind it was a different story though, it was a thin layer of sheetrock that hid the real documents which I knew was exactly what they were looking for.
He’s going to pay, even if it is the last thing I do.
I felt readier by the day, I had to admit. There was a fear that I couldn’t understand let along hide. What if he fought so much to have me back and he then realizes that I’m not the one. What if I’m the one that gets tired of this life, I’ve never been in an actual relationship when he had 17 years of experience…
My thoughts had given me such a guilt trip that I could only get rid of by giving him the news he’s been waiting for:
Matthew Sanders, I’ve never felt happier than when I’m with you. I know that never in my life will I find what I have with you anywhere else, so I’m calling it quits and shedding all fears since you’ve done everything but that… I can’t wait to walk down the aisle and become Teresa D. Sanders.
I texted and waited. Not a minute later the phone was ringing, he wasn’t supposed to be on stage yet so I smiled and quickly picked up the phone:
”hello?” I sang while locking my office, I really had no reason to be here so I could easily go home and let Kacey deal with anything else.
”for reals, baby, we can set a date?” he was a second away from a total freak out.
“well yeah, I think I’m ready for it. I have to take chances before it’s too late,”
“it’ll never be too late. Don’t pressure yourself thinking that,” his sweetness was something practically unbearable for me to stand;
”I know, but imagine me in a wedding dress 30 years from now,”
“I’d still love you and find you attractive,”
“I know, but I wouldn’t though,” he sighed;
”yeah yeah. Whatever, when I get back we’ll sit and find a date, alright,”
“yeah, babe..” I was already down in the garage and approaching my car when I saw something weird ”something’s wrong,” the bright red light on the dash from the alarm was turned off;
”what is it?”
I rushed to the security office of the garage;
“evening Ms. Derulo, what can I help you with?” the chubby guard stood as soon as he saw me;
“there’s someone in or very close to my car,” I panted, it wasn’t the fact that I had hauled some serious ass all the way there but the panic attack that was slowly rising at the thought of what could be happening and could happen to me if I’m not careful enough;
“are you sure, ma’am?” I shook my head frantically still ignoring Matt who continued asking me what was going on;
“no! just check, please!” I hated ordering people around but in a moment like this I could take no risks.
In my status they took no chances either. He walked slowly to the car while softly calling for back-up which I could hear inside the office. He pulled his gun out apparently after seeing someone in my black Mercedes.
“Teresa, please tell me what’s going on?” he was a minute away from calling a cab and catching the first flight back home;
”baby, maybe I’m fucking paranoid, I just felt weird like there was something wrong-“ I stopped speaking when I heard the commotion, three guards surrounded my car with guns drown out;
“step out of the vehicle with your hands on your head!”
”I was right,” I said softly “there was someone waiting for me in my car, Matt,”
“who?” anger filled his usually sweet voice;
”let me go see…” I walked back to my car where two guards held a man dressed in black against the car and another checked the duffle bag he found. “turn him,” I needed to see who they had sent this time around.
The big blue eyes shocked me for a moment, I couldn’t even stand in his presence again;
“Shay Matias, the last person I expected to see,” I heard Matt mutter something under his breath “call the police and get him out of my sight,” they cuffed him and took him back to the office, I caught a glimpse of some of the things he had and gasped before gathering myself. Knife, cuffs… the instruments of misery and torture.
“I’m gonna kill him!” was all Matt said;
”no you won’t, remember when you said that his power wasn’t really physical? We need to be just like that, drown him, his father and mine with every other resource we can find,” I was trying my hardest to be strong, unfortunately I knew I really wasn’t. I looked over my shoulder every two seconds as I walked back to the elevator, just in case they had send a plan B, of course they’ve never been so bright.
”please, Tere. Call Benji or Gregy to get you home, don’t go alone,” I stayed quiet for a few seconds, fear seemed to have mute me;
”um, yeah. I’ma call Gregy, Benj’s on tour. I’m just going back up to my office,” I nearly sighed when I got to the crowded lobby;
”fuck I should be there protecting you,”
“you hold it right there, Sanders. Don’t you ever regret doing what you do. When you stop doing something you love for someone, you’re not really in love but merely attracted or obsessed, psychological fact,” I was finally in the safety of my office, locking the door behind me and turning on all the security monitors;
”psychological fact or not, Teresa, don’t ever question my love for you. You give me reasons to wake up every damn morning and getting through each day on the road and back home. You can even tell me you hate me in a fucking temper tantrum and it wouldn’t hurt half as much,” I wasn’t trying to hurt him;
”I wasn’t trying to hurt you, Matt. I just… fuck! I’m in love with everything you are and everything you do, including your music. Would you imagine a day you don’t think about your next move in the band, it wouldn’t seem real it wouldn’t seem like you. I don’t want you to leave it for anything especially not for me,”
“Tere, I’d give up my life for you, and I am extremely attracted to you but not obsessed so you can tell your psychologist that he’s an idiot and that he needs a new profession,” I couldn’t help but laugh;
”I’ll let her know. I gotta go now, I’m gonna call Gregy to stay with him and tonight and figure some other ways to fuck my daddy over,”
“sweetie, your psychologist doesn’t have it wrong, you do. You don’t need a psychologist, you need a psychiatrist,” I laughed.
”I’ll think about it, I love you, alright, call me whenever you want,”
“mmm, two seconds after we hang up?”
“deal, bye,”
“I love you,” for some reason we still haven’t gotten over the entire teenage thing of stalling just to keep on talking;
“I love you, too, bye,”
“bye,”
When he finally did hang up I broke down. I cried until I went dizzy and realized I had to stop. In a fit of tears and shaky nerves I dialed Gregys’s number. I took a deep breath so he wouldn’t notice I had been crying;
”sup?”
“can you come get me?” I could peel my eyes off the screen after rewinding the garage’s monitoring tape. I watched Shay pick the lock and before the alarm alerted the guards he had already managed a way to turn it off.
”why? What’s wrong? Why are you crying?”
“um, my dad sent that guy that tried to rape me while up in big Bear and he was in my car waiting for me when I went down,”
“oh my god! I’ll be right there in less than 10, acuerdate. Nada te puede tocar, tu eres mucho más Fuertes que ellos (remember, nothing can touch you, you are much stronger tan them,)”
“okay, bye,”
I called Kacey and told her that the entire security staff had a reunion early the day after, even those from night shift.
Finally Gregy walked in,
“sweetie,” he hugged me instantly;
“I’m not gonna be safe until he’s dead,” I cried;
“you and I both know, that will be sooner than later,” I nodded.
We went to the LA PD where I released my statement against Shay who was in a holding cell waiting for his father. We went to Gregy’s apartment and around 3am my phone rang;
”we’re calling from Statefarm, is everything alright?” I jumped off the bed and sped walk to Gregy’s room;
”I’m not in my house, what’s going on?”
“the alarm went off, I’m alerting the authorities right now,”
“Greg wake the fuck up! Someone broke into my house,” I pulled him off the bed. I slipped a pair of crocks of him on and we were out as he got dressed all the way there. The police waited for me to go inside and most of the neighbors were outside watching the show.
They cleared the entire place and I went inside. The house was spotless but I knew exactly where to find the mess. My office looked like a hurricane had gone through it, I went straight to the safe behind my desk, just like I thought it had been cleaned out.
I smiled to myself, dummy packs of money and wedding planer’s information. The wall behind it was a different story though, it was a thin layer of sheetrock that hid the real documents which I knew was exactly what they were looking for.
He’s going to pay, even if it is the last thing I do.
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