Status: This is a verse novel. Warning: Involves abuse.
Invisible
my lips are stitched up
with thread embedded with the voices
of my brother, my sister and
my poor mother;
I cannot see the end of this
poorly-lit tunnel that may be what
some call my life -
all I can see is his face in mine,
hear the snap of his belt,
sense the rage pouring from his skin.
I will not escape the monster
in my mind,
in my home,
in the very essence of myself,
because the only thing I'm good for is
keeping the secret.
with thread embedded with the voices
of my brother, my sister and
my poor mother;
I cannot see the end of this
poorly-lit tunnel that may be what
some call my life -
all I can see is his face in mine,
hear the snap of his belt,
sense the rage pouring from his skin.
I will not escape the monster
in my mind,
in my home,
in the very essence of myself,
because the only thing I'm good for is
keeping the secret.
- Fear
- There are some things I won't do
- Secrets
- Nights we spend drowning
- Nothing, right?
- A day at school
- Footsteps
- One night
- Belt wounds
- Eavesdropping
- Refusing
- Memories I wish to forget
- Battered
- Questions
- My own secret, just for me
- The effect of difference
- Helping
- Finally, I wonder
- Shimmering (fading)
- New
- Once I knew you...right?
- Proof
- There's more to see
- Someone noticed
- Relief
- What I've been waiting for
- My job
- Too busy to stop
- Poetry
- Poetry, #1
- Letting go
- Trapped by words
- Too young to hate, too old to not
- Photographs and fingernails
- The beginning
- Someone found me
- My writing is mine
- Smeared secrets
- Love in its first stages
- Where your voice comes from
- Realisations
- Hope saves me
- Oh god, no
- Whispers
- I admit
- Re-thinking
- I knew better
- Naked and caught
- Maybe invisible isn't so bad
- Hollow
- The in between place
- Who ever listened to their heart?
- I'm too far gone
- Examples
- More than I thought
- Worth or worthless
- Oh, confusion
- It's not even me
- Sick, sick, sick
- Self control; I have none
- Blurring
- Insomnia
- The question I wanted
- Disbelief
- Really?
- One problem I love
- We all have secrets
- Lunatic
- Pain makes me better
- Evidence