Diary of a Disordered

Brecken and I both quit training. I spend the whole morning on AIM with Jason. He wanted so many pictures! And when I ate lunch, he wanted to hear me purge while he was on the phone with me. It was just too weird for me, and I kept thinking of the old abuse I've been through. I told Brecken I couldn't do traininm and she said she was going to quit too. When I told Jason I couldn't train, he acted like a little boy and said goodbye. I'm sooo relieved to not have to be scared constantly.

I purged my lunch and dinner, and now I feel sick again.