Loony Bin

I’m in Kelly’s office
crying
my eyes pouring like
a storm in the winter
and my heart is pounding
like gun shots in my chest.

I can tell Kelly is pleased,
not because of my misery,
but because I’m actually
letting her in
(in a sense).

She’s sitting next to me,
her legal pad abandoned
and her arm is draped around my back
holding me when I need to
be held.

“What’s wrong Aurora?”

I continue to sob
and I tell her that I’m scared.
Tucker is scaring me
and I’m sad that Angela’s gone.

“Why are you upset over Angela?”
“I know you two were friends
but I didn’t think you two were very close.”

I tell her that she was my lover
and that I feel lost without her touch.
I can tell that she’s surprised,
appalled even.
How could no one have noticed
that the patients were fucking?

“Why are you scared of Tucker?”
I tell her that he keeps hurting me
and that he hides George away
afterwards.

“What do you mean Tucker hurts you?”
I look into her eyes
my sobs slowing
but my throat hiccupping.
She can tell how completely
broken I am
and slowly
she starts to realize what I mean.

She’s quick on her feet
going over to her desk
and calling security.
she’s telling them something,
something about a “dangerous” patient.

She comes back to me
tells me everything’s “okay”
and walks me to my room.

Once she’s left
I lay in my bed
and realize what I have done.