Burn This City
Say Goodbye
Chapter 22: Say Goodbye
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go our seperate ways
And I know it's hard but we gotta do it
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time,right time to
Say Goodbye
-Chris Brown
~*Darnell Collins*~
I was trembling with fear. I knew she was going to get mad,there's no way she couldn't. I was scared of losing her...even if she didn't get mad,regardless I was going to lose her. And that was honestly killing me. I was so close to crying. I walked in the door and I didn't see her. "Where is she?" I asked my mom. She pointed to the balcony. I walked on the balcony and she didn't see me yet. She was smoking and the sun was going down. I didn't know she smoked. I walked behind her and wrapped my arms around her and buried my face in her neck. She just stood there letting me hold her. All I could think about was losing her. I didn't want to lose her! I held her for about five minutes until I lost it. A tear came out my eye and rolled onto her neck. Then more started to come. She turned around and looked at me and I saw tears in her eyes too. So she knew I was giving her bad news. "Darnell..." She whispered. I looked up at her. "Tell me. Tell me I can't take it anymore
,what's wrong?" She asked. But I didn't want to see her face crumple into anger,I didn't want to hear her yelling,I didn't want to see her hurt. I never cried in front of her. I didn't want to tell her yet. "Aaliyah...why are you smoking?" I asked her. "Cuz my nerves are so fuked up. I'm scared Darnell, because the way you've been acting this whole time. I know somethings wrong Darnell." She said. Her saying that was like a slap in the face. I sat down and sat her on my lap. I grabbed the cigarette from her hand and put it out. "You know...I love you right?" I said. "Yes." She said. I swallowed trying to make myself say this. I couldn't do this. "Darnell." She said. "Aaliyah...I don't know how to tell you this." I started. "Are you breaking up with me?" She asked suddenly. I wanted to laugh. "I wish it was that easy." I said. "Then what Darnell?!" She hissed. "I-I-Im moving." I finally flushed out. At first she just stared at me and then I saw the realization hit her. Her eyes grew big
and her mouth dropped. I almost dropped
dead. "What?" She hissed starting to cry. "Back to California. My mom...she doesn't want Miya...to grow up here...she..." I couldn't finish cuz I started crying. She didn't say a word she just put her face in her hands and cried. "Im sorry Aaliyah." I said. "Stay here with me Darnell. Or let me go with you. Darnell you don't understand,I need you." She cried. I wanted to be dead. I hated seeing her like this! And it was because of me. "I can't...and you can't." I said. "Darnell you can't leave me. I love you." She hollered. All I could do was sit there and listen to her cry. "Please don't go! I can't lose you. Your all that I have!" She screamed. "And now you're telling me that youre moving! And I might not ever see you again!" She yelled. "I don't wanna leave you Aaliyah but I have too!" I said. She kept shaking her head. "Aaliyah if I could stay I would. You know that." I said. "No you don't know that Darnell. Otherwise you'd stay with me!"
She yelled. Oh no. I knew this was going to happen...she was going to be pissed. "Darnell I love you...how do you think I'm just gonna let you go!" She screamed.
"I don't know!" I said. I grabbed her to me and she wrapped her arms around my waist. I didn't want her and I to end. We stayed like that for 10 minutes. "When are you leaving?" She asked. "Tomorrow." I dryly replied. "Tomorrow?! What ?!" She yelled pushing me away. "Yes tomorrow." I said. "What the fuk?! So if you're leaving tomorrow then you knew that you were leaving! Why didn't you tell me sooner!" She yelled. "Cuz I was scared! I was scared of losing you." I said. "Bull shi+! Why are you guys going back to Cali?! How long did you know that you were leaving Darnell?!" She demanded. I wished this could just go away. "A month." I said. She gasped. "You knew for a month? So your plan was to fuk me all along and be done with me?!" She yelled. Oh hell naw! Now she was tripping. "What?! Aaliyah don't say that! You know that's
Not true!" I hollered. "You know that!" I said.
"No I don't know! Darnell I love you. And you're sitting here telling me...it's over?" She said. I nodded. I couldn't speak...my heart was gone knowing that she wasn't in it anymore. "I love you...and you know that. I have never cared for a girl like I do for you." I said. "Then stay with me." She said. "Aaliyah I can't." I cried. She started sobbing. "Every time someone imporant comes into my life...they leave! Cholo,my grandmother,and Moesha! Now you! The only people that stayed were my gang!" She said. I hugged her and she didn't hug me back. "Aaliyah I want to be with you just as much as you want too." I said. "Then I'd be with you." She said. "Aaliyah I'm sorry! I can't." I said. She got silent. "So this it? Tomorrow you'll be leaving me?" She said. "Yes." I said. "Then I'll make it easier for you. I'm going to leave tonight." She hissed. She untangled herself from me and walked away. No! I couldn't leave her like this. "Aaliyah!" I
Yelled after her. She put on her shoes and jacket. My mom was watching this with concern all over her face. "Aaliyah don't go!" I said grabbing her arm. "You don't go! Both of you stay! Or let me go with you." She yelled. We didn't say anything. She grabbed her phone and walked out and slammed the door. She was gone. My baby was gone...
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go our seperate ways
And I know it's hard but we gotta do it
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time,right time to
Say Goodbye
-Chris Brown
~*Darnell Collins*~
I was trembling with fear. I knew she was going to get mad,there's no way she couldn't. I was scared of losing her...even if she didn't get mad,regardless I was going to lose her. And that was honestly killing me. I was so close to crying. I walked in the door and I didn't see her. "Where is she?" I asked my mom. She pointed to the balcony. I walked on the balcony and she didn't see me yet. She was smoking and the sun was going down. I didn't know she smoked. I walked behind her and wrapped my arms around her and buried my face in her neck. She just stood there letting me hold her. All I could think about was losing her. I didn't want to lose her! I held her for about five minutes until I lost it. A tear came out my eye and rolled onto her neck. Then more started to come. She turned around and looked at me and I saw tears in her eyes too. So she knew I was giving her bad news. "Darnell..." She whispered. I looked up at her. "Tell me. Tell me I can't take it anymore
,what's wrong?" She asked. But I didn't want to see her face crumple into anger,I didn't want to hear her yelling,I didn't want to see her hurt. I never cried in front of her. I didn't want to tell her yet. "Aaliyah...why are you smoking?" I asked her. "Cuz my nerves are so fuked up. I'm scared Darnell, because the way you've been acting this whole time. I know somethings wrong Darnell." She said. Her saying that was like a slap in the face. I sat down and sat her on my lap. I grabbed the cigarette from her hand and put it out. "You know...I love you right?" I said. "Yes." She said. I swallowed trying to make myself say this. I couldn't do this. "Darnell." She said. "Aaliyah...I don't know how to tell you this." I started. "Are you breaking up with me?" She asked suddenly. I wanted to laugh. "I wish it was that easy." I said. "Then what Darnell?!" She hissed. "I-I-Im moving." I finally flushed out. At first she just stared at me and then I saw the realization hit her. Her eyes grew big
and her mouth dropped. I almost dropped
dead. "What?" She hissed starting to cry. "Back to California. My mom...she doesn't want Miya...to grow up here...she..." I couldn't finish cuz I started crying. She didn't say a word she just put her face in her hands and cried. "Im sorry Aaliyah." I said. "Stay here with me Darnell. Or let me go with you. Darnell you don't understand,I need you." She cried. I wanted to be dead. I hated seeing her like this! And it was because of me. "I can't...and you can't." I said. "Darnell you can't leave me. I love you." She hollered. All I could do was sit there and listen to her cry. "Please don't go! I can't lose you. Your all that I have!" She screamed. "And now you're telling me that youre moving! And I might not ever see you again!" She yelled. "I don't wanna leave you Aaliyah but I have too!" I said. She kept shaking her head. "Aaliyah if I could stay I would. You know that." I said. "No you don't know that Darnell. Otherwise you'd stay with me!"
She yelled. Oh no. I knew this was going to happen...she was going to be pissed. "Darnell I love you...how do you think I'm just gonna let you go!" She screamed.
"I don't know!" I said. I grabbed her to me and she wrapped her arms around my waist. I didn't want her and I to end. We stayed like that for 10 minutes. "When are you leaving?" She asked. "Tomorrow." I dryly replied. "Tomorrow?! What ?!" She yelled pushing me away. "Yes tomorrow." I said. "What the fuk?! So if you're leaving tomorrow then you knew that you were leaving! Why didn't you tell me sooner!" She yelled. "Cuz I was scared! I was scared of losing you." I said. "Bull shi+! Why are you guys going back to Cali?! How long did you know that you were leaving Darnell?!" She demanded. I wished this could just go away. "A month." I said. She gasped. "You knew for a month? So your plan was to fuk me all along and be done with me?!" She yelled. Oh hell naw! Now she was tripping. "What?! Aaliyah don't say that! You know that's
Not true!" I hollered. "You know that!" I said.
"No I don't know! Darnell I love you. And you're sitting here telling me...it's over?" She said. I nodded. I couldn't speak...my heart was gone knowing that she wasn't in it anymore. "I love you...and you know that. I have never cared for a girl like I do for you." I said. "Then stay with me." She said. "Aaliyah I can't." I cried. She started sobbing. "Every time someone imporant comes into my life...they leave! Cholo,my grandmother,and Moesha! Now you! The only people that stayed were my gang!" She said. I hugged her and she didn't hug me back. "Aaliyah I want to be with you just as much as you want too." I said. "Then I'd be with you." She said. "Aaliyah I'm sorry! I can't." I said. She got silent. "So this it? Tomorrow you'll be leaving me?" She said. "Yes." I said. "Then I'll make it easier for you. I'm going to leave tonight." She hissed. She untangled herself from me and walked away. No! I couldn't leave her like this. "Aaliyah!" I
Yelled after her. She put on her shoes and jacket. My mom was watching this with concern all over her face. "Aaliyah don't go!" I said grabbing her arm. "You don't go! Both of you stay! Or let me go with you." She yelled. We didn't say anything. She grabbed her phone and walked out and slammed the door. She was gone. My baby was gone...