Burn This City
So Cold
Chapter 23: So Cold
If you ever see her,if you ever meet her,if you ever get the chance to sit down and talk to her
Then tell her it's so cold
It's so cold,it's so cold
Here without her
And tell her I miss her,tell her I need her,tell her I want her
I really want her to come back home,back to keep me warm
Tell her I'm sorry,I'm really sorry
Can you forgive me? Please forgive me
And come back home,keep me safe and warm
-Chris Brown
~*Aaliyah Smith*~
It's not happening. He's not leaving me...he's not moving back to Cali today. When I knock on his door he's going to open it and tell me he was kidding. He's going to stay,he won't leave me! He won't let me go! I was at Danis house right now and she was sleep. I was half dead,Darnell was leaving me! What?! It's 8 am and prom is tonight. I won't have a date. I can't believe he left me. He left me! I started crying again as I thought about him. Our laughs,everything. How could he just leave me?! I decided to go home and take a shower. I left out the house and started walking. The streets were lazy today,and rarely anyone was outside. A car rolled up beside me and it was a familiar car. Cams car. He rolled down the window. "Wassup Aaliyah?" He asked. "Nothing...walking..." I groaned. "Whats wrong?"He asked. Darnells face popped into my head and my eyes watered. No way in hell was I crying in front of him! I just shook my head and kept walking. He didn't follow. When I
Reached my house I almost dropped dead. A van was in front and all Darnells belongings and his moms were in it. His mom was in the car with Miya and his dad was in the drivers seat. Wow she got back with him?! They saw me and tried to give me a smile. I just wiped the tears that were threatening to fall. I walked in and guess who I bump into? Darnell. He had a bag and when he saw me I could see the pain. I started crying. He came over to me and hugged me and we both cried. This was it. He let me go. "Aaliyah I love you. Please don't be mad baby." He said. "I love you too." I cried hugging him back. He kissed me and I kissed him back and I realized this was where we had our first kiss. He pulled away and looked into my eyes. "I promise when I get older we'll find eachother." He said. I nodded. He hugged me one last time and then he left. He left! I got in my
apartment and ran to my room and closed the door. I sunk against the door and cried. I was sobbing. I wished this was a dream that
I could just wake up from. Why did he have to go?! I needed to see him somehow. I walked out my room and my mom was drinking coffee. "Are you okay?" She asked. I shook my head. She sighed. "Aaliyah I know how you feel." She said. "No you don't." I said. "Yes I do. I may not know alot but I damn sure know about love. And that boy loves you. If he couldve stayed he would. Love is an endless thing. Trust me he'll be back." She said. "You think so?" I asked. "I know so. You're father his name was Terry. I loved him with everything. Then I got pregnant and he flipped out on me. The next day he came back and apologized and said he was going to stay and help raise you. But...he was killed in a drive by just a couple days before you were born. He didn't even get to see you be born." My mom said. "Hes dead?" I said. She nodded. If I had known him I wouldve cried.
So that's why he was never around. "Oh." was all I could say. Then my phone rang and it was Syco. My mom didn't know I was associated with gangs so I went to my room and answered it. "Hello?" I answered. "He gone?" Syco asked. Darnell. I almost started crying again. "Yeah he left about this morning." I said. He sighed. "Damn. I ain't even get to tell him bye. Well you okay?" he asked. "Im good Syco." I perfectly lied. "Okay. See you later." He said hanging up. I sighed. I missed him already and it was killing me knowing that he was gone. I loved him so much. There was so much that we did together, that we went through together,and now he's gone. Taken away from me. I got in the shower and I started crying. Like legit crying. Good thing the water covered my sobs. No one understands how I feel. Maybe my mom but I dont know,what Darnell and I had was special. That was love.
I got out the shower when the water went cold and put on some clothes. I had messages from Dani asking me was I still going to prom? Should I? Hell naw! I didn't want to go without a date and I sure didn't want to see everyone all happy with their boy/girlfriends. Dani was going with Montrel since Corey couldn't fly all the way up here. Maybe I should call Djay and see if he'll go with me. But honestly I didn't want to go. I texted her back saying no. I put my phone in my pocket and walked outside. I felt so alone knowing he wasn't here. I felt like I was in a world all by myself. I went outside and I saw Darnells car. The keys were inside and in the ignition,and the doors were unlocked. Oh my god! No one didn't try to steal this shi+?! I opened the door and there was a note from Ms.Collins saying the car was mine. I was thrilled that they gave me the car...but it didn't measure up near to Darnell. I needed him,he was the only thing that mattered to me in my life right now. And he's
Gone. My phone beeped and it was Dani.
Dani:girl you need to go to prom
Aaliyah:no. I can't go not without Darnell
Dani:look. I know you're sad Aaliyah. I understand but you can't stop livin just cuz he's gone
Aaliyah:are you shi++in me dani? No one knows how i feel. You don't understand Darnell and I had something special. I know that sound corny but...it's the truth.
Dani:lol. It wasn't that corny but he'd want you to go to prom still
Aaliyah:whatever.but who am I going to go with?
Dani:ask Djay. Or syco. Or....Cam. I know he like you and I heard he's back.
Aaliyah: fuk I look like going with cam?!
Dani:uhmm his date. Idc if you go with him Aaliyah. Just go with him.
Aaliyah: im not going with him. He's my last resort. If I have to ask a random dude on the street I will
Dani: lol girl yu stupid,what's wrong with cam?
Aaliyah:You didn't just ask me that did you?
Dani: haha my bad,okay then just ask someone out the gang to go with you.
I didn't text her back. I know she meant well but
she kinda pissed me off. I mean seriously,Cam? Out of all people,Cam? Then someone knocked on my window,I looked and it was a boy from school and he was a freshman.I realized he was Keyontae brother,i think his name was Kayden. I didn't talk to him really and i never acknowledged him. I heard he sold drugs though but I didn't want any. I rolled my window down and said,"If you sellin,I ain't buying." I said. He laughed. He was pretty cute though. He looked just like Keyontae too. "I ain't sellin no more." He said. "Okay what you want then?" I asked a little too mean. He frowned and then asked,"Where Darnell?" I sighed. "Hes gone..." I said. He frowned again. "What?! He left today?" he asked. I nodded. "Okay then. My bad fir bothering you then." He said. I smiled and he walked away. What did he want with Darnell? Darnell doesn't even talk to him.
I honestly was lost without Darnell. I mean what was there to do now? There was nothing to do. I started driving just to drive and I honestly didn't know where I was going. Hmm I wonder if they're in Cali yet. I bet that trick Ariel is happy as I don't know what. I found myself at the warehouse and when I got out the car I wanted to drop dead. The party that Darnell threw for me came back to my memory in a rush. My happiness,and how shocked I was. I felt tears go down my face. I went in and it was still messy from the party. Damn we never came back to clean up? I looked around and then my eyes landed on that wall. It was beautiful. It was him hugging me. The tears started coming now. I touched the wall and his face and I couldn't believe I might not be able to see him again. I loved him so much. I looked at my clock and it was 4 pm. Time went fast. I took a picture of the wall with my phone and made it my wallpaper. I sat down on the couch and just reminisced about the last year of my
life. How it changed. I stayed in that same spot in a daze... At 7 my phone rang and it was Dani of course. "Hello?" I answered hollow. "Aaliyah where the fuk are you?!" She said. "At the warehouse,why?" I said. "Look get over my house so we can get dressed." She said. "Im not going." I said. "Yes you are,if I have to send Moe and Montrel to come get you I will." She said. Ughh! "Fine bi+ch I'll be there in a little bit." I snapped. "I love you too! Now get yo ass over here!" She said. I hung up. I looked back at the wall and said half to myself,"I love you and I wish you'd come back to me."
If you ever see her,if you ever meet her,if you ever get the chance to sit down and talk to her
Then tell her it's so cold
It's so cold,it's so cold
Here without her
And tell her I miss her,tell her I need her,tell her I want her
I really want her to come back home,back to keep me warm
Tell her I'm sorry,I'm really sorry
Can you forgive me? Please forgive me
And come back home,keep me safe and warm
-Chris Brown
~*Aaliyah Smith*~
It's not happening. He's not leaving me...he's not moving back to Cali today. When I knock on his door he's going to open it and tell me he was kidding. He's going to stay,he won't leave me! He won't let me go! I was at Danis house right now and she was sleep. I was half dead,Darnell was leaving me! What?! It's 8 am and prom is tonight. I won't have a date. I can't believe he left me. He left me! I started crying again as I thought about him. Our laughs,everything. How could he just leave me?! I decided to go home and take a shower. I left out the house and started walking. The streets were lazy today,and rarely anyone was outside. A car rolled up beside me and it was a familiar car. Cams car. He rolled down the window. "Wassup Aaliyah?" He asked. "Nothing...walking..." I groaned. "Whats wrong?"He asked. Darnells face popped into my head and my eyes watered. No way in hell was I crying in front of him! I just shook my head and kept walking. He didn't follow. When I
Reached my house I almost dropped dead. A van was in front and all Darnells belongings and his moms were in it. His mom was in the car with Miya and his dad was in the drivers seat. Wow she got back with him?! They saw me and tried to give me a smile. I just wiped the tears that were threatening to fall. I walked in and guess who I bump into? Darnell. He had a bag and when he saw me I could see the pain. I started crying. He came over to me and hugged me and we both cried. This was it. He let me go. "Aaliyah I love you. Please don't be mad baby." He said. "I love you too." I cried hugging him back. He kissed me and I kissed him back and I realized this was where we had our first kiss. He pulled away and looked into my eyes. "I promise when I get older we'll find eachother." He said. I nodded. He hugged me one last time and then he left. He left! I got in my
apartment and ran to my room and closed the door. I sunk against the door and cried. I was sobbing. I wished this was a dream that
I could just wake up from. Why did he have to go?! I needed to see him somehow. I walked out my room and my mom was drinking coffee. "Are you okay?" She asked. I shook my head. She sighed. "Aaliyah I know how you feel." She said. "No you don't." I said. "Yes I do. I may not know alot but I damn sure know about love. And that boy loves you. If he couldve stayed he would. Love is an endless thing. Trust me he'll be back." She said. "You think so?" I asked. "I know so. You're father his name was Terry. I loved him with everything. Then I got pregnant and he flipped out on me. The next day he came back and apologized and said he was going to stay and help raise you. But...he was killed in a drive by just a couple days before you were born. He didn't even get to see you be born." My mom said. "Hes dead?" I said. She nodded. If I had known him I wouldve cried.
So that's why he was never around. "Oh." was all I could say. Then my phone rang and it was Syco. My mom didn't know I was associated with gangs so I went to my room and answered it. "Hello?" I answered. "He gone?" Syco asked. Darnell. I almost started crying again. "Yeah he left about this morning." I said. He sighed. "Damn. I ain't even get to tell him bye. Well you okay?" he asked. "Im good Syco." I perfectly lied. "Okay. See you later." He said hanging up. I sighed. I missed him already and it was killing me knowing that he was gone. I loved him so much. There was so much that we did together, that we went through together,and now he's gone. Taken away from me. I got in the shower and I started crying. Like legit crying. Good thing the water covered my sobs. No one understands how I feel. Maybe my mom but I dont know,what Darnell and I had was special. That was love.
I got out the shower when the water went cold and put on some clothes. I had messages from Dani asking me was I still going to prom? Should I? Hell naw! I didn't want to go without a date and I sure didn't want to see everyone all happy with their boy/girlfriends. Dani was going with Montrel since Corey couldn't fly all the way up here. Maybe I should call Djay and see if he'll go with me. But honestly I didn't want to go. I texted her back saying no. I put my phone in my pocket and walked outside. I felt so alone knowing he wasn't here. I felt like I was in a world all by myself. I went outside and I saw Darnells car. The keys were inside and in the ignition,and the doors were unlocked. Oh my god! No one didn't try to steal this shi+?! I opened the door and there was a note from Ms.Collins saying the car was mine. I was thrilled that they gave me the car...but it didn't measure up near to Darnell. I needed him,he was the only thing that mattered to me in my life right now. And he's
Gone. My phone beeped and it was Dani.
Dani:girl you need to go to prom
Aaliyah:no. I can't go not without Darnell
Dani:look. I know you're sad Aaliyah. I understand but you can't stop livin just cuz he's gone
Aaliyah:are you shi++in me dani? No one knows how i feel. You don't understand Darnell and I had something special. I know that sound corny but...it's the truth.
Dani:lol. It wasn't that corny but he'd want you to go to prom still
Aaliyah:whatever.but who am I going to go with?
Dani:ask Djay. Or syco. Or....Cam. I know he like you and I heard he's back.
Aaliyah: fuk I look like going with cam?!
Dani:uhmm his date. Idc if you go with him Aaliyah. Just go with him.
Aaliyah: im not going with him. He's my last resort. If I have to ask a random dude on the street I will
Dani: lol girl yu stupid,what's wrong with cam?
Aaliyah:You didn't just ask me that did you?
Dani: haha my bad,okay then just ask someone out the gang to go with you.
I didn't text her back. I know she meant well but
she kinda pissed me off. I mean seriously,Cam? Out of all people,Cam? Then someone knocked on my window,I looked and it was a boy from school and he was a freshman.I realized he was Keyontae brother,i think his name was Kayden. I didn't talk to him really and i never acknowledged him. I heard he sold drugs though but I didn't want any. I rolled my window down and said,"If you sellin,I ain't buying." I said. He laughed. He was pretty cute though. He looked just like Keyontae too. "I ain't sellin no more." He said. "Okay what you want then?" I asked a little too mean. He frowned and then asked,"Where Darnell?" I sighed. "Hes gone..." I said. He frowned again. "What?! He left today?" he asked. I nodded. "Okay then. My bad fir bothering you then." He said. I smiled and he walked away. What did he want with Darnell? Darnell doesn't even talk to him.
I honestly was lost without Darnell. I mean what was there to do now? There was nothing to do. I started driving just to drive and I honestly didn't know where I was going. Hmm I wonder if they're in Cali yet. I bet that trick Ariel is happy as I don't know what. I found myself at the warehouse and when I got out the car I wanted to drop dead. The party that Darnell threw for me came back to my memory in a rush. My happiness,and how shocked I was. I felt tears go down my face. I went in and it was still messy from the party. Damn we never came back to clean up? I looked around and then my eyes landed on that wall. It was beautiful. It was him hugging me. The tears started coming now. I touched the wall and his face and I couldn't believe I might not be able to see him again. I loved him so much. I looked at my clock and it was 4 pm. Time went fast. I took a picture of the wall with my phone and made it my wallpaper. I sat down on the couch and just reminisced about the last year of my
life. How it changed. I stayed in that same spot in a daze... At 7 my phone rang and it was Dani of course. "Hello?" I answered hollow. "Aaliyah where the fuk are you?!" She said. "At the warehouse,why?" I said. "Look get over my house so we can get dressed." She said. "Im not going." I said. "Yes you are,if I have to send Moe and Montrel to come get you I will." She said. Ughh! "Fine bi+ch I'll be there in a little bit." I snapped. "I love you too! Now get yo ass over here!" She said. I hung up. I looked back at the wall and said half to myself,"I love you and I wish you'd come back to me."