I Must Be Dreaming

Current City: Phoenix- Arizona, Nickname: Arizona's Urban Heart

I was chatting with Kennedy while I worked on Gabe's book. I figured out a title so I was happy with that. In my opinion those were the worse, titles. Something to draw everything together, right...more like let's kill the author part.

He had to go so we said bye and I thought up something for Jack-Attack. I really loved him and then it hit me. I opened a message for Demi and typed up in the subject line - For Jackie's book
Then I wrote this : This book is for Jack Kitty, without you I don't think this poor book would have made it far. I finally wrote you a story, took me forever but I hope it meets your standards. You've been so helpful to me, I don't think I could have asked for a better friend than you. And yes, my favorite movie is Van Helsing because of Hugh Jackman.

About 10 minutes later she sent me back a message saying 'thanks, it'll be added soon.' I smiled and made myself some food before going back to work on Gabe's book, his was just flowing really nicely. All the words and the plot was just coming out so well. I turned on my recorded Disney movies because I was a kid at heart. I loved those movies, grew up with them. I mouthed a few of the songs from Tarzan as it played on my flat screen TV. Yes I was awesome, I bought myself a flat screen TV for my office. I stayed in here most of the day so I needed something to distract myself from writing.

I was finishing up a ......naughty ,yeah we'll go with that, naughty scene and my little alert popped up. I got a email, from someone. I saved my work and minimized it before going to my email. I clicked on my gmail and looked at the read messages before realizing it was my yahoo one that went off. I face palmed myself before going to the yahoo one.

It was from one of my favorite authors! Sherri Kenyon(Sherrilyn Kenyon)! I jumped up and down in my chair and fell out of it before rushing back into it and reading the message. Her editor wanted to know if I wanted to join the book signing they were gonna have on Oct 29Th in Bellevue Washington. I replied politely accepting the offer, after I made sure everything was spell checked and correct I hit send.

Then I jumped up and down like a mad woman. I'd been wanting to meet this woman for years. Okay fine, I hadn't been years but it felt like it. I'd read a few of her Dark-Hunter novels and I loved them. Granted I read them out of order starting with the first 2 and then skipping to 'Retribution' because of the cowboy Sundown. But oh damn, that man was perfect. I wanted to jump in the book and steal him for myself.

Since then I have slowly backtracked and started from the beginning of the series. I'm patiently waiting for 'Sins of the Night' to arrive in the mail. Night Play was omg...too perfect for words. I loved that book.

I posted the news to my blog and then I tweeted it to ATL and The Maine. I was soo happy, I even got brave enough to tweet Sherri and tell her I couldn't wait to see her at the signing.

She tweeted me back and said she couldn't wait either, she was currently reading my first book and so far it was good. That just made my day I could die happy.

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I was working on an ending for my book about Gabe, it'd been 3 weeks since I last chatted with Kenny. I missed him really bad, I'd been so busy doing notes for my story then writing it up. I start 3 new potential romances in this book. I was so proud of myself, I didn't make the relationship start yet but I did for 2 of them make a attraction start. The last one finally started, I'd been keeping them distance from each other for awhile.

I finished a chapter and saved it before beginning to pack my bags. I packed all my stuff up that I would need and printed out my info for the hotels and etc. Put all that in a binder next to my car keys before putting my bags next to the door. I was very exhausted, so I laid on the couch and turned on the TV. It was lonely being an author, you really didn't have anyone to talk to. As soon as I got comfy I found a romantic comedy I'd recorded awhile ago, turned it on and began to watch it.

Half-way through the movie, someone knocked on my door. I really wanted to ignore it, this movie was just getting good. The knocking stopped and my phone went off. I looked at it and it said "go to the front door"

"Why?" I texted back.

"I missed you"

I jumped up and flew to the front door, opening it to reveal Kennedy. I jumped on him and he caught me, not complaining about my weight. I was self-conscious about it. I didn't weigh a lot but I probably weighed a bit more than the average 5'6 1/2" female.

He carried me into the house and closed the door behind him. I slid off him and laid him on the couch. I straddled him waist and laid my head on his chest.

"I didn't hurt you too bad did I?" I asked.

"No. I wanted to come and see you first, I missed you more than I've ever missed anyone" he said.

"Thank you" I said smiling against his chest.

"So when do you leave?" he asked talking about my tour coming up.

"Tomorrow Morning, Demi threw some other dates in there for me" I said.

"Sounds promising, will you call me?" he asked.

"Everyday, maybe 3 times a day" I teased.

"I'll try to answer every one of them. We didn't have a long tour, not until later on this year I think" he said.

"Your really sweet, you know that?" I asked. I glanced up at him and he was blushing a bit.

"No, but thank you for saying so" he said.

"Your Welcome" I said before kissing him.

Our kiss got heated quickly and I wrapped my fingers in his hair pulling him closer. He had his hands on my hips grinding me closer to him. I slid my hands down to take off his shirt and we broke away just for a moment to get it over his head.

Kennedy sat up and I tightened my hold on him with my legs before taking off my shirt. He began trailing kisses across my cheek and down to my neck. I let out a squeak that turned into a moan when he began to nibble on my neck. I'd never been bold in the bedroom, so I couldn't get the words out of my mouth that I wanted to say to him.

I knew nothing about Kennedy's relationship status, Demi's nieces told me that he was probably single, and his last girlfriend was pretty. They probably said more but I wasn't listening, I was playing a video game while they tried to tell me.

I slid my hands down to his belt and he stopped me. I leaned back and looked at him. "Did I do something wrong?" I asked feeling embarrassed suddenly.

"No, no it's not you" he said. I remembered that Demi's nieces said they couldn't find any exact info on his relationship status. But mostly like he was probably single.

I moved off of him immediately, that was like a giant red flag in my mind. I scrambled to find his shirt and I tossed it to him. I slid mine back on and felt tears in my eyes. I was about to become the other woman. I never wanted that, I didn't want to destroy some other person's relationship like that.

Kennedy looked confused as hell, then he saw my eyes begin to water. "Hey Remi, what's wrong?" he asked getting off the couch and moving closer to me.

"Your in a relationship aren't you?" I asked wiping my tears away quickly. I didn't want him to see them.

"What? No, I just don't want to sleep with you" Kenny said before adding "shit" to the end of it. Once he realized how it sounded.

"Just go" I said feeling my heart shatter, it didn't break it just shattered then. Skipping the breaking stage going straight to shatter.

"Remi it isn't like that" he said defending himself quickly.

"What? I'm not good enough for you? I'm just some stupid girl that was going to be a tour romance and that's it?" I asked feeling my eyes water.

"REMI, shut up and listen for a minute" he said. "I don't want to sleep with you until you are completely ready to. You aren't just some tour romance, I really like you. I just don't want our relationship to be started off on that" Kenny explained for wrapping his arms around me and pulling me close to him.