Absolutely Hate You

I packed my stuff on Thursday and went over to Mac's house to pack most of his stuff. He was busy with practice so I just packed his stuff and he'll look over it later but I doubt he'll look over it. I packed his underwear, well honestly he wasn't an underwear guy but I packed two in case. Don't ask me how I know he doesnt wear underwear, it was such a weird story... and it was before we even dated. I shivered at the thought of nostalgia, the memory was funny but horrendous. I packed some pants and shirts that I see him wear the most. His jacket with many pockets and his track cap. While I was putting the cap in I found a name in the back of the cap. It said Reagan. Who is Reagan? I shrugged it off, I knew before I dated Mac that he dated numerous of girls and whatever he did with them I shouldn't care about... but wait a moment. He did do it with a lot of girls. My mind went everywhere, he did it with a lot of girls. That was one of the many reasons I hated him. I tried shrugging it off but my mind scrammed everywhere. Did he get any diseases from all those girls?

In the car ride there I was silent. I couldn't look at him without thinking all the things that he has done... with numerous girls. He and I sat in the back while Daniel was driving and Lexi was in the passenger seat. I sat there in silence, my earplugs were in and I stared out the window. I felt Mac's eyes on me but I couldn't look back. When we arrived he pulled me away, his strong grip held me from pulling away.
We were behind a tree, "What's going on?" He asked.
"What do you mean?" I ask, trying to be as skeptical as possible.
"Why aren't you talking to me? You feel cold and distant lately." He said.
"It's nothing." He rolled his eyes.
"I know by now that your nothings mean something." I didn't laugh at all. I was still so worried. I finally spoke.
"Who's Reagan?" I asked. He looks at me strangely. "Who is it?" I asked.
"Who's Reagan?" He asked too. I rolled my eyes.
"I'm serious." I said crossing my arms.
"I'm serious too, who's Reagan? Where did you hear that name?" He asks.
"Her name was on your cap." I said.
"Reagan... on my cap? Which one?" He asks.
"The Track cap that you had, the one that I packed for you." I said.
"Oh, my Track Cap... are you seriously not talking to me because of that?" He asked, he looked kind of hurt.
"No. I haven't been speaking at all because I've been thinking. It's stupid and I really want to blow up my mind because of it but I am thinking!" I said dramtically serious.
"Thinking about what?" he asked, his voice was soft.
"Thinking about how many girls have been behind me and was with you. How many girls you have slept with. If you ever had any sexual diseases that I should know about or worst... herpes." I said.
He laughed. I looked at him angrily, how can he be laughing at a serious time like this. I scoffed and then started to walk away. He grabbed my arm and pulled me into him. I pushed away from him but he kept laughing. He was crazy, I then pounded his chest and arms. He finally said stop it, while I was struggling to make him let go.
"You're very funny you know that?" He said.
"And you're insane you know?" I said and shoved him away. He smiled and pulled me into another hug, he kissed my head. "What the hell are you doing, Mac? I swear I am going to push you off a cliff while we're hiking." I said. He just kissed me again.
"Don't worry." he said.
"Don't worry about what?" I said my face practically smushed into his chest.
"I don't have any diseases or aids or even herpes. Trust me." He said.
"Why, you've fucked a lot of girls." I said angrily. He laughed quietly, trying not to anger me any further.
"No, I haven't." He said.
"Yes, you have. Don't lie to me." I said.
"I'm not, you're the last person I would lie to. You're too scary." he said. This made me laugh a little.
"Then what are you trying to say?" I said poutingly.
"I never slept with any girls." He said.
"So you're gay?" I asked.
"No. I never slept with anyone." He said.
"Wait... are you?" I asked slowly.
"A virgin? Yes." he said, he pushed me away and I stood there looking at him. I then laughed like crazy. "Good one." I said and then started walking away.
"I'm serious... I'm a virgin." He said.
"Okay, everyone knows. Please don't lie to me. I'm not stupid." I said, I crossed my arms and I felt tears fall down. I felt hurt that he would lie to me.
"I'm not lying and I think you're far from stupid. I'm a virgin Die... I seriously am. I mean honestly, we're just in highschool. And just because I dated a lot of girls doesn't mean I fucked them." He said.
"Then why do they say you do? Why in the lockerooms they bragged about your skills, and everything." I said.
"Because I dumped them, so they trashed my rep." He said shrugging.
"Why did they get so mad." I said.
"Because they knew that I liked another person." He said smiling and looked down at me with admiration.
"Wow, you move fast." I said. He laughed.
"Trust me, I dated a lot of girls to get over one girl." He said.
"Oh." I said and looked down... one girl.
"You're very silly you know that?" He asked.
"What?" I said irritated. What is he doing?
"Don't you want to know who that one girl is?" he asked.
"No." I said, I don't want to get hurt.
"Are you sure?" He asked.
"Fine, tell me. Tell me and hurt me. Break my heart." I said.
"You." he said.
"I, what?" I said.
"It's you, Diana Tailor. That one girl, who hated me guts because I was such a shy boy that I had to pushed you out of my house so I could breathe. That one girl who was always across the street playing in the grass. The only girl untouchable to me. It was you, it is you, and it always has been you." he said, my heart soften along with my face and body. I was so calm and shocked.
"You're such a hopeless romantic, you know?" I said. "That was supposed to be my job, Mackenzie Kohner." I said smiling now.
"Sorry, I think I filled the spot all up." He said. I smiled, I wrapped both my arms around his shoulder. Then I wrapped my hands all up in his hair and pulled him down so my lips could rise up and touch his. I kissed his cold lips that felt really soft. I was content, my worries were gone and it felt nice now. I was such a girl...