If You Ever Come Back
If you ever come back
Sasha's POV
This can’t be happening…why us? Why this is happening to us? I thought to myself, this has gone too far, and I’m afraid I can’t turn it around to how it used to be, and it’s killing me.
Well, here I am, alone, with blood shot eyes for crying all night, I’m currently leaving at my best friend house, now she is out at college, and I’m here in “my room” looking through my memories that one day where the spark that keeps me alive, and now…and now everything is just going down and down out of our hands and I can’t help to cry about it everytime I’m on my own. This hurt, specially knowing that I’m on the same city as him, just at the other side of town; hurts that this isn’t my fault or his, is just it doesn’t work and both of us gets hurt, and as much as we try to fix it, more we scrued it up, like if it’s destiny trying to hold us apart, and I wish I could just turn away and leave everything, leave HIM just like that, but I can’t, I just can’t because I have no reasons to, he’s not mean with me, there are these moments when everything falls apart and it seems like we both didn’t try enough to keep it together…that’s why I’m here, in this situation, because I stop fighting for this love because he did the same…and I’m ashamed for that, we’re both grown-ups, and we still run away like babies.
<i>“Baby stop saying that” Fernando said taking hold of my hand
“Nando, please, you have to understand me, it’s our sake”
“Sasha, you it’s not, when can try once more” he said with pleading voice and those eyes I love full of sadness
“We had try too much that it hurts, I think we can’t be together anymore” at this point tears were forming in the corner of my eyes, and I felt this tug in my heart, that was telling me to stop, but I couldn’t, I just couldn’t.</i>
With that memory I burst out crying. It has been so hard for both of us and I honestly have no one to blame, I mean, this is so surreal that I can’t find sometimes why this simply don’t work, but I then I remember all the fights and arguments, and makes sense again.
“Sasha I’m home !” yelled Ella, my best friend.
I rather be alone right now so I can hide the tears, but she’s gonna get here sooner or later
“What happened?” it was sooner than I taught
“Nothing, just more the same” I said looking down
“Sasha sweetie, you can’t be like this” she said sitting down beside me in my bed “This isn’t healthy for you at all, you have to do something to stop moping around and keep your head out of all this mess, I don’t know, paint something, I know! Write a book ! you’re an awesome writer” she smiling at me, she’s always trying to make me happy or at least make me smile.
“Ella, I’d tried, but I can’t. Nando was my inspiration, without him I can’t do anything”
“Then go to him, go and fix…whatever happened, because I honestly don’t understand your situation guys”
“I told you thousands of times, it just don’t work out. When everything is perfect, something happens and ruins it, every single time, and I’m tired of it, not just I get hurt, he gets hurt too, I can’t stand that ”
“Oh” she said looking down “Do you have something in mind to do about it?”
“Yes, I…I think I’m gonna leave”
“Sasha, you know you don’t have to find a place to stay, you can be here, mi casa es tu casa (my house is your house)” she said trying to lit up the mood
“I know, but is not that kind of “leave””
“Then what?”
“I’m moving out of town”
“But, but…why?”
“I can’t live knowing that he is near me in the same city”
“You know that doesn’t make it any easier, the only way you can be alright is being with him, I know too well, that’s why I’m telling you”
“I have to get away from all this mess”
“No, you’re not. You have to convince yourself that you are doing the right thing, when the only thing you’re doing is throwing away maybe the only opportunity of your life, something that people would kill to find, which is true love” she said with watery eyes
“How can be true love if all we do is mess it up” I said with an annoying tone
“You know I’m right, I know it by your voice. I’ll leave it for yourself, do whatever you want, is just I don’t want to see my best friend fall to the ground” she said before leaving me alone in my room.
Ella’s POV
She is going to leave the city, which is the biggest mistake that she can make.
… … …
“Hello”
“Hi Fernando, it’s me, Ella”
“Hi, how is she? Is she okay? Something happened?”
“Geez! Nice talk to talk you too. Look, I need you to do something”
“Ella, I miss her so much, I want to talk to her and she doesn’t answer my calls neither she open your house’s door”
“She’s leaving”
“What?!”
“Please stop her, you’re the only who can do that, if she leaves she’s gonna give up on everything she has fighting for, and that includes you”
Fernando’s POV
After Ella left, I keep thinking in a way that I can tell Sasha how I feel, the problem is that she is avoiding me …
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I was about to knock at the door, when i heard Sasha. She’s saying goodbye to Ella, if she see me here she will close the door and just don’t go out until I’m gone, so I decided to put the letter I wrote to her in the front of the door, hopefully she will read it before it’s too late, at least that’s what my heart is wishing.
Sasha’s POV
“I’ll be fine” I said hugging Ella
“Are you sure?”
“Yes, I am” the truth is i’m not, but I have to
“Ok then”
We said our lasts goodbyes and when I open the door I see this letter on the ground. “OH god…” I thought to myself. I can’t read this, not now…
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Ok this is it, I have to read it. I’m on the train station and my heart is beating faster than I could ever imagine..
<i>Amor mio
If you’re standing with your suitcase, but you can’t step on the train, I know how you love to travel by train and how you hate flying alone.
Everything’s the way that you left it, I still haven’t slept yet, and if you’re covering your face now, but you just can’t hide the pain
Baby I miss you so much, I need you so much, still setting two plates on the counter, but eating without you, I’m sleeping on your side of the bed going out of my head now and if you’re out there trying to move onbut something pulls you back again, please don’t ignore it
I’ll leave the door on the latch If you ever come back
if you ever come back there’ll be a light in the hall
and the key under the mat If you ever come back, there’ll be a smile on my face and the kettle on and it will be just like you were never gone, there’ll be a light in the hall and the key under the mat if you ever come back
Now they say I’m wasting my time ‘Cause you’re never coming home
But they used to say the world was flat but how wrong was that now
And by leaving my door open I'm risking everything I own
There's nothing I can lose in a break-in that you haven't taken
If it’s the fighting you remember or the little things you miss
I know you’re out there somewhere so just remember this
Baby I love you with all my heart, without you I’m nothing
Please give us another chance, we can’t go on without fighting for what we want, and I want you in my life, forever
Please baby, comeback
And it will be just like
you were never gone
Fernando</i>
“Why I’m doing this?” I said crying out loud
“Then don’t do it”
“Fernando” I breathed
“Sasha, mi vida, please don’t”
I just stared into those beautiful chocolate eyes and throw myself at him, kissing those soft lips like there’s no tomorrow…
“I won’t, just one more chance Nando, and make it last”
“Of course, for you I will” he said leaning is forehead on mine
<b> ♥ FIGHT FOR WHAT YOU LOVE, NEVER LET IT GO ♥</b>
This can’t be happening…why us? Why this is happening to us? I thought to myself, this has gone too far, and I’m afraid I can’t turn it around to how it used to be, and it’s killing me.
Well, here I am, alone, with blood shot eyes for crying all night, I’m currently leaving at my best friend house, now she is out at college, and I’m here in “my room” looking through my memories that one day where the spark that keeps me alive, and now…and now everything is just going down and down out of our hands and I can’t help to cry about it everytime I’m on my own. This hurt, specially knowing that I’m on the same city as him, just at the other side of town; hurts that this isn’t my fault or his, is just it doesn’t work and both of us gets hurt, and as much as we try to fix it, more we scrued it up, like if it’s destiny trying to hold us apart, and I wish I could just turn away and leave everything, leave HIM just like that, but I can’t, I just can’t because I have no reasons to, he’s not mean with me, there are these moments when everything falls apart and it seems like we both didn’t try enough to keep it together…that’s why I’m here, in this situation, because I stop fighting for this love because he did the same…and I’m ashamed for that, we’re both grown-ups, and we still run away like babies.
<i>“Baby stop saying that” Fernando said taking hold of my hand
“Nando, please, you have to understand me, it’s our sake”
“Sasha, you it’s not, when can try once more” he said with pleading voice and those eyes I love full of sadness
“We had try too much that it hurts, I think we can’t be together anymore” at this point tears were forming in the corner of my eyes, and I felt this tug in my heart, that was telling me to stop, but I couldn’t, I just couldn’t.</i>
With that memory I burst out crying. It has been so hard for both of us and I honestly have no one to blame, I mean, this is so surreal that I can’t find sometimes why this simply don’t work, but I then I remember all the fights and arguments, and makes sense again.
“Sasha I’m home !” yelled Ella, my best friend.
I rather be alone right now so I can hide the tears, but she’s gonna get here sooner or later
“What happened?” it was sooner than I taught
“Nothing, just more the same” I said looking down
“Sasha sweetie, you can’t be like this” she said sitting down beside me in my bed “This isn’t healthy for you at all, you have to do something to stop moping around and keep your head out of all this mess, I don’t know, paint something, I know! Write a book ! you’re an awesome writer” she smiling at me, she’s always trying to make me happy or at least make me smile.
“Ella, I’d tried, but I can’t. Nando was my inspiration, without him I can’t do anything”
“Then go to him, go and fix…whatever happened, because I honestly don’t understand your situation guys”
“I told you thousands of times, it just don’t work out. When everything is perfect, something happens and ruins it, every single time, and I’m tired of it, not just I get hurt, he gets hurt too, I can’t stand that ”
“Oh” she said looking down “Do you have something in mind to do about it?”
“Yes, I…I think I’m gonna leave”
“Sasha, you know you don’t have to find a place to stay, you can be here, mi casa es tu casa (my house is your house)” she said trying to lit up the mood
“I know, but is not that kind of “leave””
“Then what?”
“I’m moving out of town”
“But, but…why?”
“I can’t live knowing that he is near me in the same city”
“You know that doesn’t make it any easier, the only way you can be alright is being with him, I know too well, that’s why I’m telling you”
“I have to get away from all this mess”
“No, you’re not. You have to convince yourself that you are doing the right thing, when the only thing you’re doing is throwing away maybe the only opportunity of your life, something that people would kill to find, which is true love” she said with watery eyes
“How can be true love if all we do is mess it up” I said with an annoying tone
“You know I’m right, I know it by your voice. I’ll leave it for yourself, do whatever you want, is just I don’t want to see my best friend fall to the ground” she said before leaving me alone in my room.
Ella’s POV
She is going to leave the city, which is the biggest mistake that she can make.
… … …
“Hello”
“Hi Fernando, it’s me, Ella”
“Hi, how is she? Is she okay? Something happened?”
“Geez! Nice talk to talk you too. Look, I need you to do something”
“Ella, I miss her so much, I want to talk to her and she doesn’t answer my calls neither she open your house’s door”
“She’s leaving”
“What?!”
“Please stop her, you’re the only who can do that, if she leaves she’s gonna give up on everything she has fighting for, and that includes you”
Fernando’s POV
After Ella left, I keep thinking in a way that I can tell Sasha how I feel, the problem is that she is avoiding me …
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I was about to knock at the door, when i heard Sasha. She’s saying goodbye to Ella, if she see me here she will close the door and just don’t go out until I’m gone, so I decided to put the letter I wrote to her in the front of the door, hopefully she will read it before it’s too late, at least that’s what my heart is wishing.
Sasha’s POV
“I’ll be fine” I said hugging Ella
“Are you sure?”
“Yes, I am” the truth is i’m not, but I have to
“Ok then”
We said our lasts goodbyes and when I open the door I see this letter on the ground. “OH god…” I thought to myself. I can’t read this, not now…
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Ok this is it, I have to read it. I’m on the train station and my heart is beating faster than I could ever imagine..
<i>Amor mio
If you’re standing with your suitcase, but you can’t step on the train, I know how you love to travel by train and how you hate flying alone.
Everything’s the way that you left it, I still haven’t slept yet, and if you’re covering your face now, but you just can’t hide the pain
Baby I miss you so much, I need you so much, still setting two plates on the counter, but eating without you, I’m sleeping on your side of the bed going out of my head now and if you’re out there trying to move onbut something pulls you back again, please don’t ignore it
I’ll leave the door on the latch If you ever come back
if you ever come back there’ll be a light in the hall
and the key under the mat If you ever come back, there’ll be a smile on my face and the kettle on and it will be just like you were never gone, there’ll be a light in the hall and the key under the mat if you ever come back
Now they say I’m wasting my time ‘Cause you’re never coming home
But they used to say the world was flat but how wrong was that now
And by leaving my door open I'm risking everything I own
There's nothing I can lose in a break-in that you haven't taken
If it’s the fighting you remember or the little things you miss
I know you’re out there somewhere so just remember this
Baby I love you with all my heart, without you I’m nothing
Please give us another chance, we can’t go on without fighting for what we want, and I want you in my life, forever
Please baby, comeback
And it will be just like
you were never gone
Fernando</i>
“Why I’m doing this?” I said crying out loud
“Then don’t do it”
“Fernando” I breathed
“Sasha, mi vida, please don’t”
I just stared into those beautiful chocolate eyes and throw myself at him, kissing those soft lips like there’s no tomorrow…
“I won’t, just one more chance Nando, and make it last”
“Of course, for you I will” he said leaning is forehead on mine
<b> ♥ FIGHT FOR WHAT YOU LOVE, NEVER LET IT GO ♥</b>
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