Black Dahlia

This is it,
I'm shaking.
My body's aching.
I lose my hold,
I will let go...

When I woke up, alone, of course, I was numb. I couldn't feel anything, because all of my emotions were with Jorel, and only God knows where he was right then. It felt like I was going to fall at any minute.

This is it,
I'm falling.
My wings need to grow....

The morning after was always this way. Cold and painful. I just wanted to get rid of the pain. Get rid of the cause of it. Me.

I'm dyin' to know....
I'm dyin' to know....

I wanted to know if he was thinking about me. The only way I could find out, was if I called him, and I didn't want to. I wanted to make him suffer first.

Yeah right, Brooke-Lynn. He's probably goin' down on some ho right now. Call that suffering?

If he wanted to talk to me, he would call me first. That would give me my answer, too. I knew better, though. He wouldn't. He would wait and make me suffer. He was Jorel, after all.