Tell Me Where We Go From Here
MCR's First Set
"You mean he almost kissed you?" I heard Rachel say in to my ear. I was talking on the phone with her. If you didn't figure that out already:) "Yeah, but you know I could've been dreaming. I could've just imagened the whole thing."
"Okay, yo udon't just imagine stuff like that."
I sighed,"Bottom line, it didn't happen."
"Yeah, but you want something to."
"Shut up," I said and giggled.
"So, what time do I come over?"
"Um, the guys said 6:30. Se be here."
"Okay, I'll be there."
"Gerard. Bye."
"Bye."
Today the guys were going to play for us. They said to think of it as a Christmas concert. It's not even Thanksgiveing yet. Whatever. I just have to accept it and go. Mikey and I are cool. We have bben for the past week. Gerard's been hanging around me a lot latley. OH well. His company is nice. We've talken car rides and stuff. He showed me a lot of his drawings, which were really good. He said he once sent in a catoon sketch to Cartoon Network, but htey declined them. I found out way more aobut him than I thought I ever would. He wrote a song Helena. He said they were also going to play it tonight. He also worte a song aoubt 9/11 because he actually witnessed it.
He told me all he's been through. I'm really surprised taht he and I are so alike and so different at the same time. He and I just sort of connect in some way I can't even explain. I get to meet Matt tonight, who is apparantley[sp?] Lucia's boyfriend. Gerard and Mikey said he went to school with us. I don't remember him one bit though. I maybe will when he comes.
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Oh yeah. I remember him. He's the asshole who beat me up for Gabby. I just let it blow over and shook his hand. Likey he would remember me anyways. He was always really stupid. He didn't even get accepted into a college or anything. Lucia walked in after him.
"Hey,"she said.
"Hey," I said. I gave her a hug. We smiled at each other.
"Oh, and where is Gabby?" I asked/.
"Oh, probably changing her outfit for the 5th time," Rachel said. Lucia and I laughed.
"Hey, what are you ladies talking aobut?" Farnk said.
"Hey!" Rachel said. She gave him a hug.
"Are you guys ready to play?" I asked Frank.
"I'm pumped."
"So, when are you going to start?"
"Right now I think."
"Um...No," Ray said, joining our conversation.
"Why?" Frank asked.
"Because Gabby isn't here yet."
"What, does the whole world revove around her now?" Rachel said.
"Apparantly," I retorted. We waited another ten minutes until she came. And the ironic thing was, she was wearing a shirt that said,' THE WHOLE WORLD REVOLVES AROUND ME!'.
"Hello? Anybody here?"
"Yes we are," Frank said.
"Oh," she said, diappointedly. Like we weren't important enough. We were right there. The only good thing about her coming was that we got to go down to the basemetn and listen to them. We got stiuated on a couch in the basement, dead cneter to where they were going to play. Gabby sat in a seperate chair. Me, Lucia, and rachel sat on the couch.
"Hey you guys. This song goes out to my Grandma, who I dknow is in a better place."
'Long ago
Just like the hearse you die to get in again
We are so far from you
Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide?
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight'
After the song was over, I screamed the loudest. They didn't sound like some crappy garage band, they actually sounded like they were on a record. "Okay, here's a song that Maggie loves. Here's Astro Zombeis by the Misfits."
'Oh, all I want to know
All I want
With just a touch of my burning hand
I send my astro zombies to rape the land
Prime directive, exterminate
The whole human race
And your face drops in a pile of flesh
And then your heart, heart pounds
Till it pumps in death
Prime directive, exterminate
Whatever stands left'
I smiled at Gerard. I looked over at everyone else. Rachel and Lucia were singing along to the music. And then I looked at Gabby. She was waving and blowing kisses. I looked back at Mikey. He wasn't even looking her direction. I looked at Matt. He was smiling and looking back at her.
'All I wanna say
And all I gotta do
Who’d I do this for
Hey, me or you
And all I wanna say
And all I gotta do
Who’d I do this for
Hey, me or you
Oh, all I want to know
All I want
With just a touch of my burning hand
I’m gonna live my life to destroy your world
Prime directive, exterminate
The whole fuckin’ race
Then your face drops in a pile of flesh
And then your heart, heart pounds
Till it pumps in death
Prime directive, exterminate
The whole fuckin’ place
Well, all I wanna say
And all I gotta do
Who’d I do this for
Hey, me or you
And all I wanna say
And all I gotta do
Who’d I do this for
Hey, me or you
Oh, all I want to know
All I want to know
All I want to know
All I want
Go'
I decided to let it go until after the sit. I clapped after the song. Gerard bowed and said, "Thank you. Thank you. You're all too kind."
I lughed at ahtt. "More!" I said.
"Okay, okay. This is a song we've been working on for a while to make out won. here's All I Want For Christmas."
'I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
I don’t want a lot for Christmas there is just one thing I need
And I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I don’t need to hang my stocking way above the fireplace
Santa Clause won't make me happy with a toy on Christmas day
And I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, you baby
I wont ask for much this Christmas
I wont even wish oh I wont even wish. I wont even wish for snow.
I’m just gonna keep on waiting underneath the mistletoe
I wont make a list and send it to the North Pole for St Nick
Wont even stay awake to hear the magic reindeer play
Cause I just want you here tonight,
Holdin on to me so tight
What more can I do
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, oh baby
Oh our lives are shinin surrounding everywhere
Where the sounds of children’s laughter fills the air
And everyone is singin' oh I hear those sleigh bells ringin'
Santa wont you bring me the one I really need
Wont you bring back my baby to me
Oh I don’t want a lot for Christmas
This is all I’m askin for
I just want to see my baby standing right outside my door
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you, you, its you, you, oh baby
All I want is you [x4]
You, you, you, you, you'
I stood up after they were done. I ran to Gerard and Frank and gave them hugs. Gabby , Lucia, and Rachel fallowed. I gave Ray and Mikey a hug. I was going over to Matt when I saw he and Gabby getting a little touchy. We went upstairs after wards. We all stood around in the kitchen drinking beverages.
"Hey Maggie, could I speak to you outside?" Gerard asked.
"Yeah, sure," I said and fallowed him out the door. We walked outside into the cold air.
"So, what did-," I felt Gerard's lips on mine. They were soft and warm upon mine. When he plled back, I looked at him. "Gerard..."
"I just wanted to knonw what it was like," he said and walked inside.
"Okay, yo udon't just imagine stuff like that."
I sighed,"Bottom line, it didn't happen."
"Yeah, but you want something to."
"Shut up," I said and giggled.
"So, what time do I come over?"
"Um, the guys said 6:30. Se be here."
"Okay, I'll be there."
"Gerard. Bye."
"Bye."
Today the guys were going to play for us. They said to think of it as a Christmas concert. It's not even Thanksgiveing yet. Whatever. I just have to accept it and go. Mikey and I are cool. We have bben for the past week. Gerard's been hanging around me a lot latley. OH well. His company is nice. We've talken car rides and stuff. He showed me a lot of his drawings, which were really good. He said he once sent in a catoon sketch to Cartoon Network, but htey declined them. I found out way more aobut him than I thought I ever would. He wrote a song Helena. He said they were also going to play it tonight. He also worte a song aoubt 9/11 because he actually witnessed it.
He told me all he's been through. I'm really surprised taht he and I are so alike and so different at the same time. He and I just sort of connect in some way I can't even explain. I get to meet Matt tonight, who is apparantley[sp?] Lucia's boyfriend. Gerard and Mikey said he went to school with us. I don't remember him one bit though. I maybe will when he comes.
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Oh yeah. I remember him. He's the asshole who beat me up for Gabby. I just let it blow over and shook his hand. Likey he would remember me anyways. He was always really stupid. He didn't even get accepted into a college or anything. Lucia walked in after him.
"Hey,"she said.
"Hey," I said. I gave her a hug. We smiled at each other.
"Oh, and where is Gabby?" I asked/.
"Oh, probably changing her outfit for the 5th time," Rachel said. Lucia and I laughed.
"Hey, what are you ladies talking aobut?" Farnk said.
"Hey!" Rachel said. She gave him a hug.
"Are you guys ready to play?" I asked Frank.
"I'm pumped."
"So, when are you going to start?"
"Right now I think."
"Um...No," Ray said, joining our conversation.
"Why?" Frank asked.
"Because Gabby isn't here yet."
"What, does the whole world revove around her now?" Rachel said.
"Apparantly," I retorted. We waited another ten minutes until she came. And the ironic thing was, she was wearing a shirt that said,' THE WHOLE WORLD REVOLVES AROUND ME!'.
"Hello? Anybody here?"
"Yes we are," Frank said.
"Oh," she said, diappointedly. Like we weren't important enough. We were right there. The only good thing about her coming was that we got to go down to the basemetn and listen to them. We got stiuated on a couch in the basement, dead cneter to where they were going to play. Gabby sat in a seperate chair. Me, Lucia, and rachel sat on the couch.
"Hey you guys. This song goes out to my Grandma, who I dknow is in a better place."
'Long ago
Just like the hearse you die to get in again
We are so far from you
Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
from every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide?
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight'
After the song was over, I screamed the loudest. They didn't sound like some crappy garage band, they actually sounded like they were on a record. "Okay, here's a song that Maggie loves. Here's Astro Zombeis by the Misfits."
'Oh, all I want to know
All I want
With just a touch of my burning hand
I send my astro zombies to rape the land
Prime directive, exterminate
The whole human race
And your face drops in a pile of flesh
And then your heart, heart pounds
Till it pumps in death
Prime directive, exterminate
Whatever stands left'
I smiled at Gerard. I looked over at everyone else. Rachel and Lucia were singing along to the music. And then I looked at Gabby. She was waving and blowing kisses. I looked back at Mikey. He wasn't even looking her direction. I looked at Matt. He was smiling and looking back at her.
'All I wanna say
And all I gotta do
Who’d I do this for
Hey, me or you
And all I wanna say
And all I gotta do
Who’d I do this for
Hey, me or you
Oh, all I want to know
All I want
With just a touch of my burning hand
I’m gonna live my life to destroy your world
Prime directive, exterminate
The whole fuckin’ race
Then your face drops in a pile of flesh
And then your heart, heart pounds
Till it pumps in death
Prime directive, exterminate
The whole fuckin’ place
Well, all I wanna say
And all I gotta do
Who’d I do this for
Hey, me or you
And all I wanna say
And all I gotta do
Who’d I do this for
Hey, me or you
Oh, all I want to know
All I want to know
All I want to know
All I want
Go'
I decided to let it go until after the sit. I clapped after the song. Gerard bowed and said, "Thank you. Thank you. You're all too kind."
I lughed at ahtt. "More!" I said.
"Okay, okay. This is a song we've been working on for a while to make out won. here's All I Want For Christmas."
'I don't want a lot for Christmas
There is just one thing I need
I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
I don’t want a lot for Christmas there is just one thing I need
And I don’t care about the presents underneath the Christmas tree
I don’t need to hang my stocking way above the fireplace
Santa Clause won't make me happy with a toy on Christmas day
And I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, you baby
I wont ask for much this Christmas
I wont even wish oh I wont even wish. I wont even wish for snow.
I’m just gonna keep on waiting underneath the mistletoe
I wont make a list and send it to the North Pole for St Nick
Wont even stay awake to hear the magic reindeer play
Cause I just want you here tonight,
Holdin on to me so tight
What more can I do
Oh baby all I want for Christmas is you, oh baby
Oh our lives are shinin surrounding everywhere
Where the sounds of children’s laughter fills the air
And everyone is singin' oh I hear those sleigh bells ringin'
Santa wont you bring me the one I really need
Wont you bring back my baby to me
Oh I don’t want a lot for Christmas
This is all I’m askin for
I just want to see my baby standing right outside my door
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you, you, its you, you, oh baby
All I want is you [x4]
You, you, you, you, you'
I stood up after they were done. I ran to Gerard and Frank and gave them hugs. Gabby , Lucia, and Rachel fallowed. I gave Ray and Mikey a hug. I was going over to Matt when I saw he and Gabby getting a little touchy. We went upstairs after wards. We all stood around in the kitchen drinking beverages.
"Hey Maggie, could I speak to you outside?" Gerard asked.
"Yeah, sure," I said and fallowed him out the door. We walked outside into the cold air.
"So, what did-," I felt Gerard's lips on mine. They were soft and warm upon mine. When he plled back, I looked at him. "Gerard..."
"I just wanted to knonw what it was like," he said and walked inside.