In Love With a Stripper

I was riding in the cab to my appointment and I just sat there trying to calm my nerves. I didn’t want Jynx to take me knowing that she would try to talk me out of this if she took me and since last night I turned off my phone. Now as the cab came to a stop just outside the building I knew that once inside I would be making one of the biggest choices of my life.

Taking a deep breath I stepped out of the cab and made the walk up to the glass double doors. I signed in and then waited for my name to be called, which happened after a ten minute wait. As I was led to the back I was told that the whole process would take between 2 to 5 hours and that the actually procedure itself would take between 5 and 10 minutes with a 15 minute recovery.

I read papers and took a pregnancy test all over again and had an ultra sound was done. Then I was led to the first of several councilors and talked about why I was getting the abortion and other options. It was around two hours later that I was then led to the operating room.

I was laying on the bed with my legs in the stirrups and I saw the doctor prepare one of the shots that was going to numb my pelvic area and I closed my eyes. Tears started to fall from my face and just when she was about to inject the medicine into me I sat up and yelled no.

She looked up at me and smiled, “Are you sure,” she asked and I just nodded my head. She nodded her head as well with a smile on her face and patted my knee, “Let’s get you off this table and get you dressed.”

After I was dressed again I called Jynx and asked her to come and get me. While I waited I talked to another councilor and she told me about adoption, but I told her that I was going to keep my baby. Then I stood and walked out of the building.

I was on the last step outside of the building when I was engulfed into a hug, “Robbi-Pooh are you okay,” I heard Jynx ask into my ear.

I wrapped my arms around her shoulders and shook my head, “No,” I answered and then she pulled back to look at me. I was about to tell her what happened when I saw movement out of the corner of my eye. When I looked pasted Jynx I noticed that the guys of not only A7X was there, but so was MCR.

I turned back to Jynx and asked, “What’s going on?”

I watched as she took a deep breath and started to explain, “Well I guess since you wouldn’t answer your phone Syn, I mean, Brian started to get scared and high tailed it to our place this morning. He started to rant about how wrong he was and that he was sorry and that if I knew where you were to tell him.

“I then told him that you had an appointment to get the abortion and he just started to flip, which pissed me off and caused me to remind him how it was his idea in the first place, but then he just broke and started crying; saying that he made a mistake and that we had to find you.

“Anyway since I didn’t know which clinic you were going to we just drove to the different ones around New York and then you called telling us where you were. He is so scared Robbi and he’s so down.”

After she was done talking I just looked over to where Brian was standing. I noticed that he was holding my dairy and I wanted to sigh with relief, but I also wanted to rage at him. He never believed a word that I said that night and now a month later he wants me back after he found out the truth. No way in hell that was going to happen. I wanted him to hurt the way that I was hurt and there was only one way to do that.

I started walking towards him and he started to walk towards me as well. When we reached each other he tried to bring his hand towards me and I hissed, “Don’t you fucking touch me.”

He looked so stunned at my words, but I didn’t care. I wanted him to feel the same as I did, “What do you want,” I asked him as I looked at him coldly.

He took a look at me and then at the building then back at me again and asked, “Did you get it?”

“What do you think, of course I got it. It’s what you wanted anyway, remember,” I shouted at him. I knew that I was lying, but he didn’t need to know that. I wanted him to feel pain and this was the only way to do that.

“I know that, but that was before I read this,” he said as he held up my dairy.

Reaching up I snatched it from his hand and said, “So now you believe me after you read my dairy? Why couldn’t you just believe me in the first place if you loved me? But now that I think about it, it never was love with you was it,” I asked dreading the answer.

“Of course it was love,” he stated.

“Then why didn’t you believe me that night, huh? Why did you say all those things to me? If you loved me, why didn’t you trust me? You can’t have love without trust. So, you never really loved me,” I told him as tears started to stream down my face.

“I’m sorry,” he said as he tried to touch me again.

“I said not to touch me,” I shouted as I slapped his hand away, “And by the way sorry doesn’t cut it. So, just leave me alone. There’s no baby and there’s no us,” I told him as I walked away from him.

I ended up passing Zacky on the way and I looked at him and asked, “Are you satisfied now?” Not waiting for an answer I just started to walk not waiting to be with any one at the moment

I soon heard a voice calling and realized it was Jynx. Waiting for her to catch up we looked at each other and started to walk again. Not needing to say a word she just wrapped her arm around my shoulders and together we walked just letting the silence speak for us.