remembrance of Ballad

Days passed since the concert. I was still surprised that I just saw Jorel after all this time. I was surprised to remember me. I hadn't texted him since. I was planning on it but no. I don't think I want to go through that all again. As I sat and thought I looked around from my register at work and thought I saw familiar people. Maybe not. Work was slow today and all I wanted to do is go home.
Work was very slow today. Normally it was not like this. But I didn't mind. I looked over my shoulder quickly and thought I saw the members of Hollywood undead. But maybe it was my mind playing ticks on me again. I could hear laughter in the distance but I did not recognize them. I looked around for a while and there was Jorel with the rest of the guys all joking around and laughing at things. My eyes locked with Jorel but he did not see me. But when he turned his head he saw me. I saw a smile form on his lips. I looked away quickly realizing a smile was forming on my own. The guys left where they where standing and soon things quited down until I heard an uproar of laughter from the back of the store. I chuckled to myself as they where still at it. I saw someone walk towards me and it was no other then Jay, himself. I saw Veronica talking to Jordon. I guess they where catching up as well. "Hey Lisa" I smiled and tucked some hair behind my ear. "Hey" He walked closer to me. I could see a look in his eye that was mysterious. "How have you been. Been a long time" He said, I nodded and flexed my fingers. I could see him looking into my eyes. I tried my hardest not to get lost in his. But I found myself gazing into his eyes. "I've been good. Working and such" He nodded. Things felt awkward but I didn't want to show it. Maybe he was thinking the same thing. But yet, we where still looking into each others eyes like nothing ever happened to us. Like he never cheated and I never walked out. "We should catch up sometime. I'd like to clear the space between us" I tensed up a bit before I was to say a word. There's a lot we should talk about. But I wouldn't know where to begin. And I doubt he would too. But it's worth a shot and I found myself writing down my number so we can stay in touch. All of this made me think of the first time he gave me his number. When i first met him. "I'm glad you came the other night" I gave a quick smile. "I like your new singer." He laughed. "Everyone does. But That's the joy of Dan. We're much happier now and the band seems more mature then it did" I looked away and saw Dylan walking towards us. I couldn't help but smile at him. He always made me laugh. "hey Lisie sup girl?" There he goes again in his accident. "Dilly" I went to give him a hug". The rest of the band came and engulfed me in a huge hug. I had to admit I missed them all. It now makes me wonder why I stayed away all this time. Really, I was avoiding Jorel. But why put the whole band through it? I found it silly now. But then it seemed right. I loved them dearly, and they where all I had here. If they knew I was drinking I would loose them all. I would have to stop this before I get too involved with them again. I can't loose them. "Lisa, we are all going back by you" Jorel yelled from behind everyone. I just nodded. I saw him give me a wink but I did not know what he meant. The last I checked the bottles where all thrown away and there was nothing to be seen.
A half hour later everyone piled into my apartment. I ran myself quickly to my bedroom, locked the door and changed into something comfortable Lisa I looked at the photo on my night stand, the one of me and Jorel when he had our engagement party. We looked so happy then. I wish that damn party never happened. I rubbed my temples before I left the room. There, when I opened the door was Jorel. "I'm sorry, did I disturb you" I shook my head no. I put my hair up as he stepped in the room. I decided to leave the door open. I turned around as his back faced me. "I'm sorry" was all that came from his lips. "I accept" I didn't want him to see me cry. Or for him to realize I missed us. I missed everything and when I lost it, I felt i lost a piece of me too. He turned back around to give me a hug, I got a smell of his cologne. It smelled good. "We can stay friends Jay" I wasn't ready for anything else but I didn't think I wanted anything else from him right now. I felt this was all moving so fast. He kissed my forehead and lead us back to everyone else.
The night ended around one in the morning. Jay was the last to leave. I was happy I saw him again. I checked my phone again and saw a message from him "It was nice to see you today Lis, I missed seeing you smile" I couldn't help but blush at was I was reading. Maybe he was trying to sweet talk me or maybe he meant it. But I could deal with bit more of Jorel Decker in my life right now. I enjoyed his company. I got along with Dan much more then I thought I would. But hey, he's awesome. "Can I see you tomorrow after work" Jay texted me. I decided to see him, maybe we can catch up. Maybe there are things I have to talk about that I can't just sweep under the rug. One being him cheating. I took another sip of my vodka as I sat on the couch. Jay stopped texting me a while ago. Must be asleep. I finished my bottle and drifted off to sleep as well.