Lost In Darkness

I miss her a lot. She was all that I had. My mom, she was my everything and now that she is gone...I dont know what to do. Its not like I can just go live with another relative because...I have none.She left everyone behind when we moved here to England just after I was born. Including my dad. She...she never exactly told me anything about my dad other than the fact that he doesn’t even know I exist. She said something about him being involved in heavy shit and kicking her out and... she didn't want that kinda life for me. But...deep down inside, I know that's not the truth and I know that there is much more to it than just that.