New in School

We then went to the see the movie. I didn't know what movie we watched and to be honest I didn't care. All I could think of was Gerard. His kiss, his touch, his moves, his eyes, his naked chest, his everything.

When the movie was over we walked home. The guys talked about the movie, what was awesome and what sucked about it. When I didn't say anything Mikey nudged my arm.

"Dude, what's up? You're all quite." he said and the others looked at me. I blushed slightly at the stares and the fact about why I was so lost in my own mind. Luckily I don't think they noticed because it was getting pretty dark outside.

"Well, I just don't have much to say right now." I said simply and the others looked weird at me.

"YOU don't have much to say?" Bob said in tone that said 'what are you up to, midget?'. I shrugged and nodded in an awkward combination.

Pedicone kept annoying me by trying to find out what was up, but I just ignored him in the end. That luckily made him stop. The guys were talking about the movie again. I blocked them out and started thinking about Gerard again, when Ray spoke up.

"So what do you think about the movie, Frank?" I woke up by the sound of my name and stared at him with wide eyes for a very short moment. Holy shit, what the fuck was I going to say? I didn't even watch the freaking movie!

"Well, uhm.., I like the scene with the.. uhm, dog?" I said remembering a scene with a dog. What happened in the scene I didn't recall, just that there was a dog. A really fucking cute puppy dog. I love dogs..

"Hey, Frank!" Mikey flicked his fingers in front of my face when I had spaced out again. I looked up fast and saw that they were all staring at me.

"Dude, did you even watch the movie? Or were your mind at something else?" Ray asked normal, but it kinda made me feel weird. I just shrugged. Pedicone raised his eyebrows up and down fast saying, "Or someone."

I rolled my eyes but couldn't help but smile a bit. Pedicone clapped his hands hard together, jumped and shouted "It's a person!! Tell us Frank, who?"

"Leave me alone Mike.." I muttered. He was just about to scream some shit out again when Ray putted his hand on his shoulder. Pedicone relaxed and pouted "But I wanna know.."

I giggled at his reaction, but just kept walking looking down into the ground. Bob then looked up at me with his eyebrow furrowed. "So, is it a `who´?" he asked. Ray was just about to go all nanny on him too, when I nodded.

Pedicone jumped up and down happily "WHOOooOOooOOOoo?". I just ignored him and Mikey asked "Can we know her name?". I stared out in front of me thinking about what he had said. `Her´.

"No." I just said and looked down into the ground again. They all nodded or said 'okay'.

We then had to split up to get to our houses. Pedicone and Bob walked down a road together, Ray took a bus because he lived a little further away, and me and Mikey walked together towards our houses. We lived only a few blocks away.

A little before we got to his house, he asked "So am I gonna know this girl's name?". I stopped up and stared at him. He noticed I wasn't by his side anymore and stopped and looked back at me. I gave him a glare saying 'back off'. I really didn't want him to know that I had kissed his brother. Ryan was the only one except my family that did know I was bi. Now also Gerard of course.

"I'm sorry Frank, I just thought that maybe you just didn't want the others to know. But of course, now that I think about, why should I be any different.." he said looking a bit sad. Well, fuck you Mikey for making me feel guilty about something that is none of your business.

"Mikey, I gotta be honest, you're one of my best friends, hell probably the best friend. So don't say bullshit like that! It's just that this is something personal, very, VERY personal." I said. And it was all true. Though I had only known him for like 5 weeks, it was so fucking true. I never thought I would grow to close to someone in such a short time, but yet it happened.

Mikey looked a bit surprised, but beamed. He stepped closer to me and throwed his arms around my shoulders and hugged me. "Yay, BFFs!" he laughed, I with him and hugged him back. We then pulled apart giggling.

"But just to be sure; you really meant that? I'm your best friend?" He asked and first now searched my face for if I was just joking. I smiled widely and said "Yup." He smiled back just was wide. "Awesome!"

We started walking again. "Okay, so I won't ask who this person is again, but if you guys get more serious can I then pleeaase know her name?" he asked. I thought about it. Getting more serious. We had only made out, but I still liked the thought of that. I then looked at Mikey and smiled a little "Sure.", he smiled back and soon we stood out in front of my door and said goodbye.

When I walked in the door, I was dancing. I quietly sang I Feel Good by James Brown. My mother must have heard me shut the door, 'cause she stuck her head out from the kitchen. The kitchen was only a door away from the hallway. She smiled at me when I came dancing towards her.

"What are you so happy about?" she smiling. "Oh, nothing, the movie was just really good." I said kissing her cheek and then continued the journey to my room. "Are you already going to bed?" she asked. "Yearh, I'm pretty tired," I said smiling "tell dad goodnight, I'm too tired to try and find him right now."

My mom giggled and told me goodnight. My dad would sometimes hide up in my parents room by his desk and work. He always complains about his work, but I think he actually enjoys it quite a lot.

I bounced my way up to my room and throwed myself on my bed after closing the door behind me. I lay there for a few minutes thinking about Mikey and Gerard. They both had made me so happy today. I giggled as I felt butterflies on my stomach thinking about my best friend and whatever Gee was. Damn those Ways, I thought happily.

I then got up, undressed and slipped into my pajamas. I found my iPod and did put Bullet with Butterfly Wings by Smashing Pumpkins on. I had a bathroom in my bedroom so I didn't have to leave my room to go brush my teeth.

"How was it? Was his lips soft? Did you use tongue? Oh fuck, Frank, I need details!" Ryan squealed and jump up and down in my bed. I had invited him over to hang out and I told him that I had kissed the guy I liked. I signed, but couldn't help but smile. Just as I was about to open my mouth Ryan almost shouted "No no NO! Waaaaiit!" and jumped out and ran downstairs. I looked confused at my bedroom door that he had disappeared out off.

A few moments later he came up with a bowl with popcorn in his hands. I rolled my eyes. He sat down in the opposite end of the bed and placed the popcorn between his legs. "Okay, now you can begin. Or wait!" this was getting annoying I thought, but let him finish. "Who is he? Do I know him?" he said excited.

"Well, you know Mikey's big brother Gerard?" I said with a smile playing on my lips. "Yearh.." he said simply, then a confused expression came across his face and then he stared at me with wide eyes.

"You like Gerard fucking Way?" I nodded, "Holy fuck! You made out with Gerard Arthur Way!!" he said stating the obvious. I didn't know his full name 'til then and it sounded perfect I thought.

Ryan then smiled and blushed a tiny bit "He is actually really hot."

"Hells yearh he is!" I said and we both giggled. "Now.-" he said suddenly serious "details."

I then told him the whole thing and he just sat there with open mouth. When I was done he closed his mouth again and smiled. "That's awesome! I wish I dared to the same to Brendon.." the last part was almost a whisper.

I signed at his sad expression and crawled over to hug him. He hugged me back and muttered a 'thanks'. I pulled away and thought for a moment if I could in anyway help.

"Dude this is gonna sound kinda crazy, but listen to me, okay?" I said and didn't wait for him to answer. "My dad know some shit about getting to the ladies, and though he is straight, men too. I think it's because a lot of his friends is gay.. He have helped me with a lot and don't mind me being bi. I think he might just have an idea for you." Ryan looked a bit confused at me and I jumped up and was just about to run to be door and downstairs to my father, when Ryan grabbed my arm and pulled me back.

"No, Frank, please don't!" He pleaded and I looked confused and slighty worried at him for seeming so scared. He must have seen the confusning in my face 'cause he took in a deep breath and closed his eyes before speaking.

"You, Spencer and Mikey is the only ones who know that I'm gay. I don't want other people to know and parents have a thing with telling each other those kind of things." I was still confused, but had an idea about where he was headed.

"Ryan," I said softly "it's your parents you don't want to know, right?" he nodded still with his eyes closed. "Why don't you want them to know?" I asked worried.

A tear slid down his face and he took in a deep breath. "My dad is the world's biggest homophobe and he always comes with witty and evil comments to them." I stared at him, understanding why he was afraid. He didn't want his father to hate him because he was gay.

I wrapped my arms around him and he did hide his face in the crook of my neck. "I won't let anybody hurt you if that's what you're afraid of. Never." I felt him smile against my neck. I rocked us slowly and rubbed his back comforting.

After a little while I broke away from him and lifted him his chin so he looked me in my eyes. "If we tell my parents not to tell yours, they won't. And if you want me to keep my mouth shut, then I will, but I want you to know that you can always come to me." I said death serious. He smiled warmly at me "Thanks, you have no idea how much that mean to me." I smiled back.

"Well, this is getting pretty sad.. Wanna watch a movie?" I said not wanting him to be sad. He nodded while smiling wide.