Under My Armor, I Lost It All

When we get back into Aiden's car he looks over at me for a second before slowly starting it up and driving away.
I start to feel an overwhelming urge to cry, but I refuse to.
I don't want anyone to see me cry or ask me questions.
So I just stare out the window, hoping that something or someone could make things less worse.

"Yo, Zacky." I hear my brother say.
Zacky looks up from his lap and at my brother.
"You want to come with us to our house or you want me to take you home?" he asks.
"I'll go with you guys. Not like the other guys haven't stayed in my house before." he answers.
Aiden nods and drives straight to our house.
Paige and Skylar aren't there.
Frankly. I have no idea where they are.
Why arent they ever here?
Oh yea.
They have lives.
And obvisiously dont care that their own MOTHER died on them.
No wonder I dislike them.
Aiden stops the car, however I have no intention of getting out.
"Come on babe." I hear Zacky say as he opens my door and unbuckles me from my seat.
I slowly step out.
My mind going blank, but at the same time its racing faster than a speeding bullet.

I step inside the house I once called home.
It use to be warm and welcoming.
Now it's totally cold.

There is no dining room table.

Where we sat to eat our meals.

There is no comfy couch.

Where stories were told, television was watched, and sleep overs were held.

There is nothing in the house but George's things, a few random items I have to pack, and my mother's my things.
It seems that Aiden, Paige, and Skylar cleaned their stuff out earlier.
No idea why.
I look out of my bedroom window, there is a tall and bulky man on the lawn.
He is holding a sign and a hammer in his hands.
He places the sing on the ground..
And hammers it in.
For Sale
I see why Paige and Skylar are gone now.
They are already selling the house.
I look away from the window and walk to my dresser.
I place my few belongings into my suitcase.
Then I go to my bed and take the blanket my father gave me the christmas before he died.
It is red and has Tweety Bird printed onto its soft, velvet top.
It may only be twin sized, but it is the only blanket I sleep with.
I place that into my suitcase.
Then I walk to my jewlery box.
It holds my make up and bracelets.
I place that into my suitcase.
I finish whats left in my room.
Walking down the hall I turn left into my mother's room.
I grab what she has left.
Her clothes, her make up, her jewlery, her shoes. Everything that was hers.
I place her things into seperate bags and suitcases.
I look over everything once more and walk out.
Closing the door behind me.

I walk down the hall to find Aiden and Zacky waiting for me in the living room.
They give me their best smile, but they knew that I could see through them.
I nodded in return and walked out of the house.
Placing my things into the trunk of Aiden's car, I stare into the darkness and wonder.
Whats going to happen next?

Knowing that practically everything I once loved is gone.

Zacky and Aiden walk out of the house, close the door, and walk to the car.
I'm sitting on the trunk with the rain splashing onto my head.
Just staring into the distance.
Not even thinking.
Or at least trying not to.

Zacky grabs my hand and helps me off the trunk.
He holds me and thinks I'm crying.
When all he's feeling is the rain falling between us.

We get back into Aiden's car and buckle up.
Driving away from this place, makes me feel..
Nothing.
All the hurt that happened there.
Happy times.
Bad times.
Just plain times.

I'm thinking so much that I dont even realize we are back to Zacky's house.
I get out of the car almost feeling like a robot.
Entering Zacky's home.
I start to feel the prickles of warmth cover my body.
I say a quiet hello to everyone.
And sit next to the fire.
Staring into it as the embers fall and fade to black.