Already Dead Inside

Gerard's POV

I continued to rock back and forth, hoping she would listen. She would stay away if she knew what was good for her. That's the problem tho, I don't know.

It's been a little while since Mikey finished his tantrum. I've never seen, or heard him rather, act this way. He's never been one to act out. He was always the quiet one.

I sighed as I leaned my head back against the door. The flat was quiet, unusually quiet. So the sudden sound of Mikey's giggle broke through caused me to jump. Then there were loud knocks at the door.

No. No, no, no!

I quickly got up and fell on my face in my hurry to get to the door. My hands were shaking as I turned the knob, jerking the door open. I bolted out the door, only to freeze as the sight I saw.

Amy's wide eyes on mine as Mikey had her pinned against the door by her throat. She reached her hand out to me, desperate to get away from Mikey. He turned his head to look over his shoulders at me. A giggle slipped through Mikey's lips as he saw me. “You're here.” The grin grew wider on his face.

He turned to face Amy, letting out another giggle. Amy struggled under his grip again to try and get away. Nothing. He reached his hand back and punched her in the face as hard as he could. The force of the blow sent her to the ground. He knocked her out.

“Mikey what the hell?!” He turned to face me, then slowly began walking over to me. “Don't you see, Gee? I'm only getting to know her. I want to get to know her like I did the others.”

No..no, no!

“No Mikey! Please don't!” He just laughed. “Everything will be fine after I get to know her. You'll see.” He raised his hand up to brush she scars on my cheek, but I flinched away from his touch before he could get too close.

My eyes glanced to Amy lying on the ground. My knees began to feel weak.

Mikey sighed. “I see what I have to do now to make you see. Forgive me?” I raised my eyebrows at him. “Wha-” I was interrupted by Mikey's fist colliding with my face. Everything went black.

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Fuck! My head is pounding. My eyes tried to open but the wave of vertigo hit me, causing my head to drop again, and my eyes to close. I tried to bring my hand to my head but couldn't. What the hell?

My eyes snapped open as I pulled again, and again at the restraints on my wrists tied tightly behind me. I was sitting in one of the dining room chairs. I tried to get up, only to find out that my legs have been tied.

“You're awake!” Mikey's sudden voice caused me to jump. He was standing in front of me, just staring. “I'm sorry about the restraints Gee. I really am. This is the only way I can make you see.”

I began to shake my head to try and rid myself of the grogginess. “Wh-where's Amy?”

He giggled as he stepped out of my way to let me see. Tears began to fall at the sight I saw. Amy was tied in a similar fashion as me, her head drooped from unconsciousness. I also noticed a thick band of duct tape around her mouth.

“Mikey..no!”

His smile suddenly dropped into a frown as he turned and walked towards the kitchen. The familiar sound of a drawer opening sent shivers down my spine. He was getting his weapon, his toy.

As if on cue, the sound of metal against metal could be heard as he slowly drug the knife out of its proper place. He giggled as he made his way back into the living room. I struggled to get out of my chair. He can't do this! No!

He smiled and slowly started making his way over to Amy.

“M-Mikey..Mikey..look at m-me.” His head slowly turned to meet my gaze. “Y-you don't have to do this! Please!” He sighed and shook his head. “But I do. She'll only get in the way.”

A tear rolled down my cheek as he walked over to me. He bent down so that he could look me in my eyes. “I want you to watch it Gee. You should see how I'm going to get to know her. It's going to be special.”

I slowly shook my head as he stood up with a sigh. “If you don't watch, Gee. I won't be so nice.” All I could do was stare into Mikey's eyes. I couldn't move no matter how hard I tried. Mikey stepped closer to me and his free hand slid behind my neck. He gave a small peck on my forehead before leaning back to smile at me. “You'll see.” He said barely above a whisper.

Another tear rolls down my cheek as I notice Amy beginning to wake up. She began to struggle as she realized she was too tied up. She tried to scream out, but it was muffled by the duct tape across her mouth. A tear falls down my cheek as she sees me. She struggles again to try and break free. Her ropes are tied tight.

Mikey starts walking towards her, knife in hand. Her eyes widened as she caught the gleam of the long silver blade. “Mikey! Please..don't!” I struggled again. I was going nowhere.

Her sobs could be heard through the duct tape placed firmly around her lips as Mikey continued to walk closer. He bent down so he was at her level. “You..I don't like you.” He practically spat the words out.

She let out a muffled scream as Mikey slowly drug the blade against her thigh, causing a thick line of red to start trickling down her leg.

“NO!”

Mikey sighed and stood up, walking into the kitchen yet again. He rummaged through the drawers until he came back into the living room with the item he was searching for. He pulled off a piece of the grey duct tape and pressed it firmly to my lips. I tried to scream out, but I was too late. The duct tape wouldn't allow me.

“I didn't want to have to do this, Gee. I wanted to give you the chance to watch silently.” His smiled again as he turned back towards Amy's shaking frame, tears streaking down her face. Mikey once again bent down to meet her gaze. “Where were we?”

He raised the blade up to meet her other leg. This time he pressed firmly on the blade, dragging very quickly across her thigh. She threw her head back and let out another muffled scream. I continued to struggle against my restraints.

My eyes widened in horror as Mikey brought the knife up to his face and slowly licked the blade clean. His smile grew as he stood up, shuddering.

His free hand gripped Amy's small face harshly. The tip of the blade rested on her forehead. He giggled as he quickly slid the blade down at an angle. There was now a huge gash leading from the top of her forehead, over her right eye, down to the bottom of her jaw.

Blood soon coated her clothes, turning her white sweater into a deep crimson color. Her screams became more and more quiet as Mikey made another cut across her chest.

I squeezed my eyes shut, not able to take any more of this. “No! You watch.” Mikey jerked my head back, forcing me to look ahead of me.

Amy's head was bobbing, drifting in and out of consciousness. He chuckled and walked back over to her. Another giggle left his lips as he took a fist full of her hair and pulled back as harshly as he could.

No..No!

He raised the knife to her neck and looked over to me. “You see it?” He then quickly slid the knife against her neck, slicing it open, spilling the rest of her blood on the floor. Her eyes rolled into the back of her head as she slipped away..far away.

Mikey suddenly raised the knife and dove it into her chest, just above the heart.

I closed my eyes again and turned my head away from the grizzly scene. The sound of ripping fabric and flesh had my stomach churning.

Next thing I hear is a dripping noise along with Mikey's heavy foot steps. “Look at me.” I shook my head. “Look at me!”

I jerked my head in his direction and my eyes widened.

No! Not again.

He held out Amy's heart, blood dripping everywhere with a smile on his face. “She was going to give you her heart anyways. I just wanted to do it for her.”