What? How Can I?

...You sigh and Anakin and Padme fall through the door.

"How much of that did you guys hear?" you inquire.

"Ah, all of what you said," Anakin replies.

"I see. So I take it you heard me blow my top."

"Yes, cousin. This could be a chance for you to turn your life around."

"How so? On Earth I can hardly get a job outside of the government and those are sometimes so sporadic that I have gone into poverty and other times I get abundance of them and I would rack up the money and I would save that for necessities just so I don't go into poverty if I don't get a mission over a year. I can't change my life that easily and if I were to stay here I would miss Earth."

"Anakin, she has point," Padme states.

"I know but I didn't know if she needed a change."

"Can I please be alone with my thoughts," you ask.

"Of course," they both say in unison.

Once they leave you fall on your bed and started to cry.

'I want that bastard to die a slow and horrible death for doing t his to me,' you think.

*Flashback*

You are laying there tied to the bed post. Your captor, Abaddon (Hebrew-Destruction, ruination) Uitz (DD: I Love http://www.surnameweb.org they have weird last names in there as well as normal ones), is leaning over you. You are crying and looking away from him.

"Now, now, Maria, you are in good strong capable hands that will take care of you," he states with a smirk on his face. "Don't worry what is going to happen shortly. I just need you to cooperate with me and you won't get hurt too badly. Remember I have the Shikon Jewel."

"Then explain why you captured me?!?!" you yell.

"Easy, what I am going do to you is an experiment. If you bear me a child, you will be spared a slow and horrible death and if you don't by my tenth try you shall die."

"I will not let you experiment on me!?!?!?!?!?!"

"Did I say experiment? I meant make love to you even if it against your will."

*FF*

"Maria, you were wonderful," he states.

"You pig! You took my virginity!" you shout.

He smirks again and kisses you passionately. He leaves and you cry your eyes out

*End Flashback*

You start to sing Not ready to make nice sung by the Dixie Chicks.

"Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting

I'm through, with doubt,
There's nothing left for me to figure out,
I've paid a price, and i'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I know you said
Why can't you just get over it,
It turned my whole world around
and i kind of like it

I made by bed, and I sleep like a baby,
With no regrets and I don't mind saying,
It's a sad sad story
That a mother will teach her daughter
that she ought to hate a perfect stranger.
And how in the world
Can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Saying that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

I'm not ready to make nice,
I'm not ready to back down,
I'm still mad as hell
And I don't have time
To go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is
You think I should

Forgive, sounds good.
Forget, I'm not sure I could.
They say time heals everything,
But I'm still waiting."

You sigh and drift to sleep. In the morning...