Sweet Home Arizona.

 This was it; my engagement to Luke would be officially be over after today.
"John Cornelius o'callaghan, why didn't you tell me Mason was back in town?" Jenny and the boys walked over to the table and took a seat next to Lillian. "it's so nice to see you sweetheart." I gave her a small smile. I always loved Jenny; she was like my second mom.
"Mom, this Lillian; her son Luke is engaged to Mason." Jenny looked over at John and placed an awkward smile on her face. 
"Oh, congratulations Mason." John and I looked at each other, both thinking the same thing. That this whole thing was going to end bad. 
"so I guess that means you'll be apart of our happy family." we all turned to look at Lillian. 
"Pardon me?" 
"Well since your Macy's aunt, that means we'll be related." 
"I'm not Mason's aunt; I'm John's mother. Mason was my daughter-in-law when she was married to my son." Oh God! 
Lillian's head slowly turned to meet mine and John's faces. Her eyes looked like they were about to pop right out of her head and the vein in her forehead was pulsating. 
"You and John were married?" I slowly nodded my head. It was either confess or just straight up lie. But of course I couldn't lie now. "You lied to my precious son?" 
"Yes." 
"Your such a little BITCH!" she raised up from the table and slammed her hands down. I couldn't help but jump out of my skin, she was pretty scary. 
"Did you lie to my son about everything? What all have you fucking liked about Macy. Is that even your real name?"
"Please calm down Lillian. I'm so sorry about telling you all these lies and especially telling all those lies to Luke. I married John after we graduated high school and then we found out that we were going to have a baby. Our daughter, Paisley, was born in March but passed away in February. Everything between John and I started to crumble and I left to fulfil my dreams. That's when I met Luke and I instantly fell in love with him. I love your son with all of my heart and I would never do anything to hurt him. The only reason I had to come back here was because John kept sending the divorce papers back and I warned him to sign them. When I came back I told myself that this would just be a two day thing and I would be on my way back to your son. But when I saw John again, it brought up so many feelings that I had trapped inside. I ended up having sex with him and not even caring about Luke. I feel like such a horrible person for doing that and it's eating me alive.I love your son with all my heart Lillian and I still want to marry him. I want to live the happily ever after life with Luke. He's my whole world and I don't know what I would do without him." I could tell Lillian was beyond pissed off and I don't blame her for being so. I messed up and I hurt Luke in the process. I never thought I would end up being that type of girl. 
"you're nothing but white trash Macy. I'm going to make sure you never speak or see my son again. How could you blatantly lie to him like t. You told him that he was your first love, your first everything. But come to find out, this guy was your first. How could you have a child with someone that has no job and no future ahead of him. My Luke wanted to have kids with you, that's all he talked about. How you would be a great mother and all this other nonsense. Now, I'm going to have to tell him that you already had a bastard child with this low life." 
"you listen to me you damn bitch, my son is not a low life. I don't appreciate you calling him all these horrible names when he has done absolutely nothing to you. Yes, mason messed up but maybe that was fate telling her what to do. And another thing, don't you ever bring up my granddaughter. She was the best gift from God and was taken away to soon. She has nothing to do with this situation Lillian! Why don't you take your fake ass gucci bag back to New York City and shove it up your ass. Your kind is not welcomed in this area anymore." I never saw Jenny get that mad in the entire time I knew her. She was always such a sweet and nice person. 
"get the fuck out of our sight, you bag of silicone." John pushed past her and out the door. I knew he was pissed off and it was probably about what I had just said. I walked out of the restaurant and started looking around for John. His car was still parked in the same spot, so he had to be around here somewhere. 
"John?" I made my way to the back of the building and saw him leaning against the wall with a cigarette hanging out of his mouth. 
"John?" 
"What the fuck do you want mason?" 
"I just wanted to make sure you were okay." He let out a laugh and thee his cigarette to the ground.
"I'm fucking perfect Mason. Why don't you just go back to New York and live your happily ever after life with abercrombie."
"John, please don't do this." he moved from his spot against the wall and stomped over to me. He trapped me against the wall and stared down into my eyes. 
"don't do what Mason? You're the one who is doing something. Why did you have to fucking leave me in the first place. We could have worked things out, but you had to go and run away. Is that the reason you came running back to Arizona, you were running away from Luke. And you knew that o would take you back and love you like I always do." I couldn't bare look into his eyes. 
"that's not the case John." 
"Well just tell me why you came back here. And don't use that whole , I came back for the divorce papers line." I rolled my eyes and continued to look down at the floor. 
"that's why I came here John." 
He slammed his hands against the wall. "DONT FUCKING LIE TO ME MASON!" now I was getting pissed off. I pushed him off of me and walked away, well started to at least. 
"you wanna know the real reason I came back? I came back because I wanted to see if there was anything left between us. And I found out their was. I actually thought about leaving Luke on my way down here. I wanted to be with you again and maybe start a family again. You were my everything John and I know I'm your everything as well. But now that I finally seen your true colors, I'm down with your ass. I'm going back to new York and hopefully marrying Luke and starting a family with him. He would be a better husband and father than you ever were." I know that I had told John that many times and I simply knew it pissed him off. I was about to walk off but indeed to do one more thing before I left. I walked back over to John and slapped him across the face. 
"I hope you enjoy your miserable, useless life." and with that I walked away. I didn't know how I was going to get back home but I really didn't care about that now. All I could think about was the mess I had gotten myself into.
"Mason you screw everything up." Oh great, I was now talking to myself again. 
I walked back into the diner and went into the bathroom. I was literally on the brink of tears. Why couldn't I do anything right anymore? I ruined my relationship with John and now my engagement to Luke was more than likely over. 
"Mason?" I looked into the mirror and saw Jenny standing behind me. "Honey, are you okay?" I gave her a small but it soon faded into tears. She rushed over to me and engulfed me in a hug. "Oh Mason, honey everything will be fine." 
"I... I mes-messed everything up s-s-so bad." I could barely talk through my tears, it was horrible.
"Mason, please calm down. You didn't do anything wrong, you were just following your heart. And there is absolutely nothing wrong with that." Jenny's words were slowly calming me down and the tears stopped flowing. 
"I love your son so much; he's practically my world. But, Im also so in love with Luke. I don't know what to do Jenny."
"Mason, I love you like one of my own children. I would tell my 3 boys to follow their hearts and that's exactly what I'm going to tell you. Follow your heart to the one you want. It's your choice and nobody else's." I knew she was right and I knew what I had to do. 

It was so nice to back in New York City. After spending long days in Arizona, being back was a relief. After my talk with Jenny, I went back to my parents house and gathered all my clothes. Nobody was home at the time, so that gave me a quick getaway. I was thinking about stopping by John's house, but that would just end up turning into a bad situation. 
I walked into my apartment building and rode the lift all the way up to the my floor.
I stepped off the elevator and made my way to the door. I took my key and placed it in the lock. Much to my surprise, it was already unlocked. I slowly opened the wooden structure and saw Luke sitting on the couch. He was staring out the window and I could tell he was pissed. Lillian must have told him what was going on. 
"Hey." He didn't even look at me, just simple shook his head in a disappointed way. "Listen, I'm rea-." He placed his hand up, motioning for me to be quiet. 
"Just save it Macy. I heard about everything that happened. How could you do this to me? I trusted you so much and now I don't know anymore. I thought we had a no secret policy? What the fuck happened to that?" Luke hardly ever cussed. "Im glad I didn't go to Arizona with my mother or else something would have happened. So please explain to me who John is?" I placed my stuff on the couch and walked over to him. 
"John is my ex-husband but he's not really my ex yet." 
"What do you mean he's not your ex yet. My God Macy, why did you lie to me like this. I feel like I don't even know you anymore." he walked away from me and grabbed his coat off the counter.
"I couldn't wait to marry you and settle down, now I'm not sure if I even want go see you again. Goodbye Macy." And with that, he walked out if my apartment. 
I couldn't believe I had messed things up this bad. I had everything going for me and now it's officially over.