My Tattooed Angel
Halo
The last day before we go back on tour. Brian's out with Zacky, who knows what they're doing. I walk over to the calendar to put another X on one of the squares. Wow, is it really March 27? I haven't been paying too much attention to the fact that I haven't had my period in two months. Could I be pregnant? Brian would be so happy if I was, he's always wanted to start a family. I better head to the store, to get a test. I must know for sure before Brian comes home. I doubt we have one laying around, but better to look. I walk into the bathroom and open the closet. Strangely enough we have one...was Brian planning for this? I take the test out...in the next few minutes my life could change.
Fifteen Minutes Later
I stare at the test, I'm waiting for the results. Suddenly a pink plus comes up on the screen...what does that mean? I look at the instructions, a pick plus means...I'm pregnant. I smile and run into the hall way.
"Joey I'm pregnant." I say.
"Eat it?" Joey asks.
"Not exactly." I say.
I would call Brian now, but I want to see his expression. I him home so badly. All day I wait for the sound of Brian's motorcycle...but it never comes. I'm starting to get worried, it's dark out. Who am I kidding, he's probably fine. It's now 11:00PM...where is he. I gonna call Zacky, Brian's probably with him.
"Hello?" Zacky asks.
"Hey, is Brian with you?" I ask.
"He left my house two hours ago, why?" Zacky asks.
"What do you think? He's not here, and I'm worried." I say.
"I'm sure he's fine." Zacky says.
"I hope so...wait a minute I have another call." I say.
"It's alright, I have to go anyways." Zacky says.
Zacky hangs up and I'm directed to the other call. I hope and pray that it's Brian.
"Hello?" I ask.
"Sorry to call this late, but your husband Brian Haner has been charged with DWI. He's now at our facility's..." A womans voice says on the other end.
I should have recognized the number. It's Orange County's jail. Without thinking I hand up the phone. I have to get down there. I don't care how much Bail is, I'll pay it. In an hour I arrive at the prison.
"Hi...I'm here for Brian Haner. How much do I have to pay to get him out of here." I say.
"I'm sorry, but he doesn't have bail. He's here for five months for DWI." The women says.
"Five months?" I ask.
"Can I at least talk to him?" I ask.
"I'm sorry, visiting day was yesterday." She says.
"Please, what I need to say can't wait." I say.
"Well...alright, come this way." She says.
"Thank you." I say.
The women leads me down the row's of cells. I wasn't expecting to talk to him this way. The women leads me to a row.
"Go two cells down...you have fifteen minutes." She says.I walk down the isle. Brian's sitting on a bench next to the bars.
"I thought you promised me you would never end up in a place like this." I say.
"Katie...I screwed up." Brian says putting his head in his hands.
"It's Ok, we all make mistakes." I say kneeling down.
"I guess." Brian says.
"Well, if it makes you feel better...your gonna be a dad." I say.
"Really?" Brian looks up at me smiling.
"Yeah." I say.
"Wow...and I'm going to miss more then half the pregnancy." Brian says.
"Don't be so hard on yourself." I say.
"You have a minute." The women that lead me though the prison says.
"I have to go." I say.
"I love you." I say kissing my two fingers and touching them to Brian's lips.
"I love you too." Brian says looking at me with sad eyes.
I return to the bus stop. I don't were I'm going to go...maybe the stable. I take the bus again. It's really creepy to walk up the driveway in the dark. I walk though the opening of the barn and walk to Chances stall.
"Chance." I whisper.
Chance opens his eyes and walks to the bar. He looks confused. I slip under the bar and sit down in the corner. Chance lays down and puts his head on my lap. It finally hits me, I'm pregnant and Brian's in Jail. I start to cry. Chance looks up at me, almost to ask what's wrong.
"I'm pregnant boy, but that's not what I'm crying about. Brian's gonna be away for a long time, and I probably wont even get to see him." I say.
Talking about it just makes me cry more, I just can't help myself. Chance keeps me company , but nothings going to help. I cry myself to sleep with Chance's head in my lap.
Fifteen Minutes Later
I stare at the test, I'm waiting for the results. Suddenly a pink plus comes up on the screen...what does that mean? I look at the instructions, a pick plus means...I'm pregnant. I smile and run into the hall way.
"Joey I'm pregnant." I say.
"Eat it?" Joey asks.
"Not exactly." I say.
I would call Brian now, but I want to see his expression. I him home so badly. All day I wait for the sound of Brian's motorcycle...but it never comes. I'm starting to get worried, it's dark out. Who am I kidding, he's probably fine. It's now 11:00PM...where is he. I gonna call Zacky, Brian's probably with him.
"Hello?" Zacky asks.
"Hey, is Brian with you?" I ask.
"He left my house two hours ago, why?" Zacky asks.
"What do you think? He's not here, and I'm worried." I say.
"I'm sure he's fine." Zacky says.
"I hope so...wait a minute I have another call." I say.
"It's alright, I have to go anyways." Zacky says.
Zacky hangs up and I'm directed to the other call. I hope and pray that it's Brian.
"Hello?" I ask.
"Sorry to call this late, but your husband Brian Haner has been charged with DWI. He's now at our facility's..." A womans voice says on the other end.
I should have recognized the number. It's Orange County's jail. Without thinking I hand up the phone. I have to get down there. I don't care how much Bail is, I'll pay it. In an hour I arrive at the prison.
"Hi...I'm here for Brian Haner. How much do I have to pay to get him out of here." I say.
"I'm sorry, but he doesn't have bail. He's here for five months for DWI." The women says.
"Five months?" I ask.
"Can I at least talk to him?" I ask.
"I'm sorry, visiting day was yesterday." She says.
"Please, what I need to say can't wait." I say.
"Well...alright, come this way." She says.
"Thank you." I say.
The women leads me down the row's of cells. I wasn't expecting to talk to him this way. The women leads me to a row.
"Go two cells down...you have fifteen minutes." She says.I walk down the isle. Brian's sitting on a bench next to the bars.
"I thought you promised me you would never end up in a place like this." I say.
"Katie...I screwed up." Brian says putting his head in his hands.
"It's Ok, we all make mistakes." I say kneeling down.
"I guess." Brian says.
"Well, if it makes you feel better...your gonna be a dad." I say.
"Really?" Brian looks up at me smiling.
"Yeah." I say.
"Wow...and I'm going to miss more then half the pregnancy." Brian says.
"Don't be so hard on yourself." I say.
"You have a minute." The women that lead me though the prison says.
"I have to go." I say.
"I love you." I say kissing my two fingers and touching them to Brian's lips.
"I love you too." Brian says looking at me with sad eyes.
I return to the bus stop. I don't were I'm going to go...maybe the stable. I take the bus again. It's really creepy to walk up the driveway in the dark. I walk though the opening of the barn and walk to Chances stall.
"Chance." I whisper.
Chance opens his eyes and walks to the bar. He looks confused. I slip under the bar and sit down in the corner. Chance lays down and puts his head on my lap. It finally hits me, I'm pregnant and Brian's in Jail. I start to cry. Chance looks up at me, almost to ask what's wrong.
"I'm pregnant boy, but that's not what I'm crying about. Brian's gonna be away for a long time, and I probably wont even get to see him." I say.
Talking about it just makes me cry more, I just can't help myself. Chance keeps me company , but nothings going to help. I cry myself to sleep with Chance's head in my lap.