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From Day One

Mixed Emotions

1 Month Later

“Baby just stay in bed for a little bit longer.” His raspy voice called out to me as I was out of the bed stretching. I turned over to him and gave him a look.

“I've been in bed with you all morning and I need to get ready for the day.” I said as I leaned down and gave him one more kiss. I picked up my shorts and a shirt I found on the ground. I went to the kitchen to put on the pot of coffee. As I was walking back to the room I heard him stiring out of bed.

“Whats going on today?”

“Babe, we've been through this a million times, John and the band are coming to the mall for a show and they wanted me to be there.” The month finally past and I was able to see John again. We had been texting and call each other through out the weeks. But for the most part it was all friendly. We really had become really good friends and that's what I was looking for, a good friend. It was hard sometimes, we both were so busy that we might not be able to talk to each other. Through out the week we would play phone tag, he'd call me but would get my voice mail and I'd call him and I would get his voice mail and that would happen back and for til one of us finally picked up.

“I can think of something better we can do.” He gave me a grin and wiggled his eye brows up and down and patted the bed next to him. I let out a laugh and shook my head.

“We do that all the time, I need some fresh air. And a couple hours away from each other might be good.” I started to walk away when I felt a pillow hit me against my back. I stopped in my tracks and turned around to look at him. I put my hands on my hips and shook my head.

“You shouldn't have done that, you don't know who your messing with.” I said in a challenging voice.

“Oh yeah? You think your touch little princess?” He said right back. Right after that I ran towards him and jumped on him on the bed. I straddled my legs over his hips and pinned his arms to the bed. He was much stronger than me and flipped us over so he was straddling me now.

“Your so sexy when you like this.” He leaned down to give me a kiss and that's how it was for about 10 minutes. Me and Jeremy had been together for a few weeks now. My mother was right, he did take me out to a nice restaurant and then a walk in the park and he asked me to be his girlfriend again. I accepted and we had been together ever since. He has his own apartment so that's where I am most of my time, if I'm not at the coffee shop.

With one last kiss Jeremy got off of me and let me get ready. But that didn't mean he kept coming up with excuses for me not to go and to be with him for the day. But nothing could stop me from seeing John, I wanted to see him again. Now that we were better friends we wouldn't be so awkward and have nothing to talk about. I was actually pretty excited to see him and the other boys. I hadn't exactly met the boys yet, I just need about them so this was exciting.

As I drove over there had put my iPod on and was listening to The Maine, I know it was a little cliche but I didn't mind, Johns voice was amazing and their sound was amazing also. As I was starting to pass the mall to the entrance I saw that it was busier than ever. It looked like Christmas time it was so busy. It took me a while to find a parking but when I finally did I took my phone out to call John.

“Hey.” He said in an excited voice. I heard all the other boys talking in the background. “Where are you?”

“I'm in my car in the parking lot, you?”

“Were in some office in the mall. If you come on up go past the food court, there's a hallway to the left go down there and there's an office and I'll let you in.”

“Okay and I'll text you when I’m by, see you soon.” He said a goodbye and we both ended the phone call. I got out of the car and looked at myself in the reflection of the window.

I started to walk into the mall and that’s when I saw all the fan girls. They all were wearing The Maine's merch. Some of them were custom designed, with Johns face on them saying 'I Love You'. All the girls were waiting around this small stage that was put up from them to perform on. I kept on walking passed the food court and went down the hallway John was talking about. I pulled out my phone and quickly texted him telling him I was here. As I waited for him to come out I fixed my hair and put on some lip gloss.

I heard his voice getting closer to the door and my heart started to beat faster. As the door was opening, his head popped out and his smile grew and so did mine. We both grabbed each other into a hug and held each other. We pulled away and we kind of just stood there in a weird silence.

“How are you?” He quickly asked me.

“I'm great. How was the drive?”

“It was long of course. I drove most of the time so I'm pretty beat right now. Here come let me introduce you to everyone.” I smiled and nodded my head and followed him into the room, he came from. We went into this small room with a table in the middle of it and a few of the boys were sitting around it and there were a few up around another table eating donuts and other little breakfast foods that were out for them.

“Guys,” John said to everyone and they all quiet down. “This is my friend Rosie.” He gestured to me and looked at me and I looked up at him and smiled and then back to the other boys. I waved to them and gave them a big bright smile.

“Hey.”

“Oh the coffee shop girl.” Said a boy sitting in a chair, he had the reddish hair and a nose ring, if I remembered correctly he was Garrett.

“Garrett right?” I asked.

“Yeah, you got.”

“And that’s Jared, Pat, and Kennedy.”

“Yeah I met Kennedy.” He gave me a little wave and nodded his head.

“And this is out tour manager Max but we all call him Moose so call him whatever you'd like.” Max or Moose came over and I shook his hand.

“Nice to meet you.” I said. And he said it back to me.

“Oh and this is our merch guy Peter.”

“Hey.” Peter said across the room. I lifted my hand up and did a little wave.

“So this is your family.” I said to John.

“Yeah it is, you gotta love them.”

I smiled at that. This was Johns life right in a small little room. He talked about this boys all the time when we talked. He cared for them and would do anything for them and I could see that.

We talked for a little bit long until some lady with a headset on and a clipboard came in telling them they had 5 minutes til they had to go on stage. I watched them get hyped up, they did this weird chant thing that made me laugh pretty hard. We all walked out to the open area but still undercover so no one would come up to see us. John said I could stand on the side of the stage and I accepted. I didn't want to be in the crowd where all those little girls who would be going crazy were.

The security guards led us to the stage where that same lady introduced the guys and they all ran onto the stage. John was the last one to go and I gave him one last good luck hug before he went on. John ran to the microphone and introduced themselves and where they were from. They only played a small set but the fans seemed to really enjoy it. The all ran off stage and came out and I told them how good they played.

John came over to me and gave me a huge sweaty hug which I screamed about. It was crazy how they only played a few songs but yet he was a sweating mess. We walked back to the same office that I met up with them. They all clapped and were all pumped about the show they just had.

“You guys did great, really.” I said to all of them. They all yelled out a 'thanks', and went back to their conversations. John came over to me and had a huge smile on his face.

“Are you guys like this after every show?” I jokingly said.

He looked around at all the boys and the crew members and started to nodded his head. “Yeah pretty much. You get this adrenaline rush and you can't help to be happy.”

I just smiled and nodded my head. I couldn't help but to feel that same feeling they all felt after every show. I could sense the energy and the hype.

“So we have the rest of the day and then we leave tomorrow morning, so I was wondering if you were free the rest of the day and could hang out with me. We could go get a bite to eat or something?” He seemed to nervous to ask me to hang out with him, I thought it was pretty cute.

“Uh yeah that would be fun. I'll show you around Dallas.” We both smiled at each other and kind of got quiet.

“Okay then, let me get my stuff together and back at the van and I’ll meet you back here in a few.”

“Alright.” I smiled and watched him look at me and then go and get ready. He picked up a backpack and stuffed come random items in there and then he left the room and as the door was closing you could here the fans screaming. All the boys laughed and they all agreed to go out there also and be with the fans. I sat in the room by myself thinking about the show and how good John looked up there on stage. My mind wandered into all these different thoughts that I couldn't help but to think about.

“Rosie?” I snapped out of my thoughts and looked behind me at John. I looked up at him with a cautious look. “Are you ready to go?” I started to smile and nod my head. I picked up my purse and scooted out of the chair. He warned me about the fans that might still be out there and to just keep walking. I didn't think there would be that many more fans out there but there were and like he said I was nice and just kept walking. There were a few times were the fans were really pushy and insisted that John should take a photo. He was to good to his fans, he stopped when they really seemed to want a photo. It got annoying but I just stood there and smiled. There were a few times when they asked if I was Johns girlfriend and I simply laughed said no.

We finally got to my car and just sat there for a moment. I wasn't sure what he wanted to do or what I should do. It was a little awkward but he finally spoke up.

“So,” He turned to face and and I did the same. “What do you want to do?” I looked around and shrugged my shoulders.

“I'm not sure. Are you hungry? There's a few restaurants down the road we can go and check out.”

“That sounds good.” I started the car up and drove off. John leaned forwarded to turn on my music and I instantly became red when Girls Do What They Want came on. He looked at me and just laughed.

“Really? You were listening to us before you came here?” He said as he laughed

“Oh shut up, you should be flattered.”

“Oh I am, I just think its funny.”

I quickly looked at him and then back at the road and I couldn't help but to smile.

The rest of the ride was like that. We would make a small joke and laugh. We decided on eating at a Chili’s. We got a table right away and ordered our drinks. As the waiter left John looked at me and gave me a weird look. It made me feel weird and I started to blush.

“What? Why are you looking at me like that?” I asked cautiously.

He slowly shook his head and kept the same look on his face. “Its nothing. I'm just glad I got to see you and be with you here now.”

“Me to. I'm having fun.” I gave him a big smile and looked down at my menu but I still felt his eyes on me. I looked up again and saw his eyes and quickly looked back down. I didn't know what was going on and I didn't know how to act.

I felt my phone vibrate so I took it out and saw a text message from Jeremy and it made me smile. I texted him back and put my phone back and saw that John was looking at me but didn't seem as happy.

“Sorry about that.”

“It's fine. Who was it?” My heart dropped and I was scared to answer. I hadn't really told him about Jeremy and I. He knew that I dated him before and he knew about the break up but I didn't tell him that me and him were back together.

“Oh um it was actually Jeremy, do you remember him?” He instantly started to nod his head and he didn't seem happy about it.

“I thought you were done with him.” He said, I could hear the hint of jealousy in his voice.

“Yeah well things changed and were kind of together now.” I felt bad telling him about it now.

“Your kind of together with him? It's okay if you are, just tell me.” I wasn't sure where this was going. I didn't know why he was getting so upset.

“Yeah were together, why are you so mad?”

“I'm not, I'm just worried for you. He seems like a scum bag and you shouldn't be with him.”

“Oh because you really know who should be with me? We hardly know each other.” After saying that I saw the hurt in his face and I felt it to. I didn't mean to say that, it just kind of came out.

“Rosie, please. If we didn't each other we wouldn't be here right now. I like you and I don't want to see you get hurt.” I was taken back to hear what he just said. I was a little speechless. It didn't seem like he even knew what he said.

“You what?” I said in a soft voice. My heart my beating so fast and I didn't know what to do.

“I just mean, were uh were friends and I um care for you, I don't want to see you get hurt.” he got all nervous and it was cute.

“Well I'll be fine, you don't have to worry. Jeremy has changed and he wont hurt me.” I felt like I was lying to John, sure Jeremy has in ways changed but he was still Jeremy and he would always be the same.

“Why didn't you tell me about getting back with him? We've been talking nonstop for the past month, you didn't feel like bring him up? When did you guys even start dating?”

I didn't want to talk about this. It was starting to make me mad and I wanted to just leave and go home and be with Jeremy.

“We've been dating for like a month now.” I said in a low voice, I felt bad not bring him up but it was my business.

John didn't say anything. I could feel his anger and it worried me. Our waitress came back and took our orders and we both said what we wanted and then the silence came. That's how it was for the rest of the lunch. We ate our food and when we were done I drove him back to the mall for him to meet up with the band and crew. He opened up his door but he didn't get out just yet. He just stared forward and had an angry look on his face. He looked over at me and by the time I knew what was happening I was pulling away and wiping my mouth.

“John, what are you doing? I can't do this.”

“I'm sorry, but you should be with me, that's who you should be with, not Jeremy.” He got out of the car and shut the door a little harder than usual and just walked away. I was left sitting in my car, I was stunned. I brought my fingers up to my lips and lightly felt my lips. I couldn't believe he had just kissed me.

“Hey baby.”

“I love you so much, you know that right?” I said quickly.

“Is everything okay Rose? Your worrying me.”

“Yeah everything is fine, I'll be home in a little while.” I hung up the phone and drove back to reality and to where I should be. Whatever was between me and John wasn't real and it would never be real.
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So heres the thing, i got a job and i seriously work so much and if i'm not working then i want to chill and sleep. but this story and my other story are on my mind and i feel so bad that i'm not updating. its been like a month since i've updated and thats crazy. so sorry. i'm not going to say i'm going to change this and update more because i might not. but yeah. i'm sorry.

i dont like this chapter i wanted it to go a different way and be more cute but i'm still happy with how it turned out.

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please send me some comments and i hope people will still read this. i haven't abandoned this story at all.

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