Shiver

Someone had left the fridge open. I think they did it on purpose. And even with the screaming voice inside my head telling me no.

I grabbed an apple.

I took it up to my room and ate one bite.

Two bites.

Three bites.

I continued until the whole apple was gone and when I went in the bathroom to look at myself. I looked healthier. My skin was glowing slightly. My stomach a little thicker. My lips were even still wet.

It sickened me.

So doing the only thing I could think of I leaned over the toilet and stuck my fingers down my throat. It hurt so bad and my eyes were tearing. At that moment I decided that this couldn’t happen again. There was no use in eating if I was just going to throw it all up.

So I just wouldn’t eat.