Let's Get Carried Away.

I had been home a week and I felt like I was going insane. Since being home Quinn took me to the doctor to check up on the baby. It turned out I was a week further along then I thought. I sat on my bed staring a picture of me and John hugging. I couldn’t lie I missed us. I couldn’t help but be a little mad at Kennedy for all this. I was trying my hardest not to be mad at him though.
I got off my bed and walked into the kitchen to find Quinn making herself a bowl of cereal. Ever since I came home Quinn told me she would sleep over every night till John came home.
“Hey sleepy head,” She said when she saw me.
“I was awake I just wasn’t ready to face the world,” I walked over to the fridge and pulled out the carton of orange juice.
“How are feeling today?” She asked me this same question every single morning. Some morning I didn’t give her the nicest answers. I sat down at the table trying to think of what to say.
“Better I mean John is coming home in six days.” I said feeling slightly nervous about the fact it was going to the first time seeing John since I left. I was still unsure if he was angry at me, or if he even wanted to see me again.
“Are you going to go to the hometown show?” She asked me sitting down at the kitchen table across from me.
I had thought many times if I should go to the hometown show or not. I wanted to go to support the guys, but at the same time I didn’t know if John wanted me there or not. “I still don’t know.”
“Well I think you should go. I’m going because Garrett asked me too.”
“I assumed you would go for your boyfriend.” She got the biggest smile on her face just by me saying boyfriend. Ever since her and Garrett started dating she seemed to get a huge smile on he face just at the mention of his name or the word boyfriend.
“It’s nice to finally have a boyfriend who isn’t a jerk.” She smiled.
“I’m glad you finally have a boyfriend I approve of.”
“Well if it’s any plus I approve of your husband.” Quinn said laughing.
“You know no matter how many times I think about it I’m still in shock that I’m married to John. I mean I’m completely in love with and everything. It’s just we literally went from being best friends to married over night. I didn’t even know he liked me like that until I woke up the following morning naked in bed with him.” I said looking at the kitchen table.
“It’s not like you both weren’t in love with each other before that. I mean you both have said that you liked each other, but you both never wanted to ruin your friendship.” She was speaking the truth. Quinn always had a way of knowing what was up.
“Yeah you’re right.”
“So what are your plans for today?” She said standing up and walking over to the sink and putting her bowl in the sink.
“I think I’m going to stay home and watch movie, like every other day.”
“Well I’m going to join you.” She smiled.

There were four days left of the tour and I was ready to be home. We were driving from San Francisco to LA. I tried my hardest to sleep as much as possible but it just didn’t happen. Whenever I was asleep only dreamt of Lennox. I felt like the shittiest person alive for sending her home. I couldn’t believe that I got in a fight with my pregnant wife and sent her home. I sat in my bunk staring at my phone wondering if I should text Lennox. I was worried about her and the baby but I wasn’t sure if I should text her. I wasn’t sure if she wanted me to text her.
I couldn’t wrap my head around the fact that her and Kennedy had kissed. I didn’t care that Kennedy was drunk, it still pissed me off anyway I looked at it. For the rest of the bands sake I acted like nothing was wrong around Kennedy. I didn’t want the band to suffer because I was pissed off at Kennedy. I could tell he felt uneasy every time he was around me.
“Hey John we’re at the venue.” Garrett said walking up to my bunk.
“Okay.” I said crawling out of my bunk.
I walked into the back longue and slid on my skinny jeans and pulled on an oversized white t-shirt. I went into the bathroom and brushed my teeth. I walked into the front longue and grabbed my sunglasses. I put on my backpack and walked outside. I smiled at the line and said; “howdy” I couldn’t help but notice that everyone had huge smiles on their faces.
We walked inside and went to the green room. All the guys but Kennedy decided to go get lunch. He sat on the couch looking at his laptop.
“Have you talked to Lennox?” I asked breaking the silence that was starting to become awkward.
“Yeah I have talked to her; I call and check in on her every so often.” He said looking up from his laptop for a moment. “Have you talked to Lennox?”
“No I haven’t.”
“So you haven’t even checked in on her?” He asked almost annoyed.
“I have talked to Quinn and asked her how she is doing. I’ve also had Halvo check on her.”
“John I know you are super pissed at me and everything, even if you are trying to act like nothing is wrong, but you need to step up and get over being mad at Lennox and call her.” I knew he was right but I couldn’t bring myself to call her.
“Did you know that she is a week further along then you guys thought?” My stomach twisted at the thought of Kennedy knowing more about my pregnant wife then I did.
“No Quinn didn’t tell me that. She only lets me know she is doing okay.”
“John man the fuck up and call her.” He pretty much shouted. He shut his laptop and stood up. I couldn’t believe it when he just walked out of the room.
I sat there in silence for a minute taking in everything that had just happened. Kennedy was right I need to call Lennox and talk to her.
I pulled out my phone and dialed Lennox’s familiar number. I felt like I held my breath forever while I waited for her to answer the phone. When she finally answered neither of us said anything for about a minute. We both just listened to each others breathing.
“Lennox?”
“Yeah John.” She said sounding like she was about to cry.
“Are you okay?” It was all I could think to say. She had me at a loss for words.
“I’ve been better.”
“How’s the baby.” I felt like we were just making small talk because neither of us knew what to say to each other.
“The baby is good. They asked me if I wanted to find out the sex of the baby at the next appointment.” The fact that we were able to find out what we were having at the next doctors appointment made me want to cry. It all hit me almost at once that I was going to be a father.
“Are you going to find out?” I wanted to know but I wasn’t sure if she did.
“I’ll find out if you want to, but if you want to wait I’ll wait.” I could almost hear the smile in her voice as she talked about the baby.
“I would like to find out.” I said as a tear slid down my cheek.
“Okay we’ll find out.”
“Lennox I miss you.” I said standing up and started pacing the green room.
“I miss you too John.”
“Lennox you don’t have to but I would love for you to be at the hometown show.”
“I’ll go if you want me to.”
“I really want you there.”
“I’ll be there. What is my ticket going to be under, also how am I going to hide the fact I’m pregnant. I’m starting show quite a bit.”
“It will be under Lennox O’Callaghan and just wear an oversized shirt unless you want everyone to know.” I said smiling. This was the first time since Lennox left that I had a real smile on my face.
“Okay I’ll wear a big shirt. John I love you.”
“I love you too Lennox.”