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Love Is Love No Matter the Conditions

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

Sorry about the random place I left it the other night, I get really illiterate when I'm tired and I don't have time to write during the day so I instead stay up till two most nights writing for you guys. Also lots of Michelle bitching in this one, some fans go nuts over it so I'm warning you now. Plus I took so long updating because I didn't like the last chapter much and I wanted to make this one extra long and good.
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We watched tv until eight am and Jason and Matt B gave me a ribcrushing hug then left to go get dressed, I turned Syn around and quickly kissed him before rumaging through my bag for underwear and clothes. I chose some black skinny jeans, a black vest shop and a grey zip-up hoodie and stayed barefoot, brushed my hair and teeth and then picked up the make-up bag and went back into the living part of the bus. Syn already had the straighners on and was still sitting in just the sweatpants he'd slept in. I sat next to him and started doing my make-up, settling for some liquid eyeliner then lining the bottom of my eyes with some good old black kohl and finishing with a coat of mascara, it took me about five minutes and most of the guys were ready and dressed but Syn was still sitting there shirtless. I put the bag on my lap and poked him in the side, he turned quickly and looked at me questioningly.

"Now who's being the lazy one?" I smirked at him and he grinned back.

"You know you're loving it really." I smiled at him again and put an arm around his waist trying to shove him up. He poked his tounge out at me and finally got up and went to get dressed. I stood up to straighten my hair and when I was nearly done I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist.

"What are we all doing today then?" I asked trying to finish the back of my hair but it was really hard when Syn was standing almost directly behind me. Matt answered,

"We're kinda stuck here today." I groaned a little and Syn leant down to whisper in my ear,

"I'm sure we could think of something entertaining." I smirked at him and said,

"Nu uh, I want my romantic candle lit dinner with music or have you forgotten already?" He smiled and said,

"Nope."

"Good, now let go so I can finish doing my hair." He smiled at me but let go and went to sit on 'my' corner of the sofa and settled watching the tv. I quickly finished my hair and went to sit with him, he had one leg up on the sofa and one on the floor so I sat in-between them and leaned back against his chest and he put his arms around me. I picked up my phone and decided to check Facebook, as I waited for it to load Matt came back, put his phone down and went to the bottom of the bus and started loading up COD. When I got on Facebook I had two hundred friend requests, three hundred messages and fifty odd notifications from friends posting on my wall. I groaned and threw my head back and Syn chuckled a little and began stroking my hair to calm me down. I quickly scanned through the friend requests and as I suspected they were all Avenged fans and people I didn't know so I declined them all, I felt a little bad but I wasn't gonna have them asking me about Syn all the time. The messages were all along the same lines of, 'Omg!! You're Synyster Gates girlfriend!! OMG Add me please? I love you' and a stupid amount of kisses. I ticked the box to select all of them and clicked the 'mark as read' box and sighed again because I felt really bad now. He must have been looking at my phone because he said,

"Don't worry about it."

"I feel so bad." I said leaning further into his chest, he leant his head on mine and laced our fingers together and I put my phone down, I'll read the others later I thought. I could hear Matt shouting at someone on the game and turned to kiss Syn before getting up and venturing down the other end of the bus. I stood by the door watching Matt play, I'd tried to learn once before but the boys quickly got frustrated with me blowing things up all the time. With out even looking up he said,

"Do you play?"

"Nope." Now he paused the game and turned to look at me with a look of shock on his face,

"Really? How have the guys not got you into it?" I shrugged and said,

"I just generally kill everything and cause major destruction. Then they get angry and we end up shouting at each other." He smirked and said,

"Well I'm gonna teach you how to play properly." He gestured towards the seat across from him and handed me a controller, then he spent ten minutes explaing how to play and gave me a demonstration on the game, then he finally said,

"Right, I'm gonna put the game on properly. Don't kill everything." He smirked at me again and put the game on, as I knew I was really bad. I had good aim but just shot everything that moved. After ages of me killing Matt and him saying,

"Stop shooting me!!" I finally said,

"See? People always end up shouting at me!!" I put the controller down and Matt looked at me all pouty and said,

"Sorry sweetheart." I smiled at him and quickly hugged him and said,

"It's alright, this is why I don't play though." I then went back down the other part of the bus and Syn had disappeared. I looked at Zacky who looked at Johnny quickly before looking back to me.

"Wheres he gone?" He looked quickly at Johnny again before saying,

"He's outside, on the phone to Michelle." I just nodded and layed down on my corner and watched the tv with them, I could hear him shouting but couldn't make out what he was saying. I couldn't help keeping my eyes on the stairs by the door waiting for him to come back in. Zack noticed me watching the door and moved so he was sitting next to me and rubbed my shoulder trying to calm me down because I was beginning to get really stressed out and fidgity now. He was out there for about half an hour when he came back in he just stood by the top of the stairs with his head in his hands. Zack punched Johnny and Arin lightly and went to join Matt and they quickly followed him. Syn just stood there in his white v-neck and ripped jeans holding his head looking down, I slowly got up and walked over to him. He just stayed still so I took his hands away from his face and he slowly looked at my face and I could see his eyes tearing up, he pulled his hands away and wrapped his arms around my neck and leant his cheek on the top of my head. I put one arm around his waist and my other hand just below his neck and leant my head on his chest just below his neck, he was breathing really fast at first but then slowed down to really deep breaths.

"I'm sorry." I turned my head to the side and said,

"Sweetheart, you've got nothing to be sorry for." He sighed and said,

"I have. I promised you I'd look after you and be all strong for you and here I am being a massive fucking girl."

"You're not being a girl, a girl would have had a massive hissy fit and I don't want you to be all strong all the time. You've got to let other people look after you sometimes." He sighed again and took his hands away from my neck and put them either side of my face. He locked his gaze on me for a few minutes and gently kissed my lips. Then I took one of his hands and pulled him towards the sofa, I sat down first and he leant his head on my shoulder and I put both his hands on my thigh. He sighed again before saying,

"I never really loved her, Matt told me that she'd told Val she liked me and because they were together it would have been pretty shitty of me to ignore her. So we got together after one night of serious drinking and it was just easier to have her there rather than break up with her and cause all kinds of hell with Matt."

"Matt wouldn't have been annoyed with you. I've only known him a short while and I can tell he would have been fine with it because you two are like brothers." He sat up and turned to the side so he could lay his head down on my lap.

"Still, he loves Val so much and I didn't want him to get caught up in it. Michelle never loved me anyway, she loved my money. I really think she only got with me because she was jealous of Val dating a rockstar, even if we weren't huge back then."

"I'm gonna be honest with you Bri, that's what all the fans think. Everyone thinks she's a goldigger." He smirked a little and said,

"Well they have it spot on. She's so self-centered she wouldn't even move the wedding day." I just kept a comforting face on the outside but on the inside I was so shocked, I'd heard rumours about that but I've always tried not to listen to them but he just confirmed it. He just carried on talking, I was gonna let him because clearly he was so upset he just needed to vent about it.

"When Jimmy passed I was basically a zombie, I used to sit in my house looking at his picture and she'd be there fussing around the place trying to organise flowers and shit. She pretty much had to push me out the house to go to that god-damn bachelor party, all we did was cry. I didn't even want to get married in Mexico, I was missing Jimmy so much." Now his eyes were all teary and one slid down his face and I used my thumb to wipe it away. He gently grabbed my hand and kissed my fingers once before lacing his fingers with mine and putting it on his stomach.

"I still miss him so much." His tears were flowing now and I tried to wipe most of them away with one hand and he sat up and pulled me closer so he had one arm over my shoulder and I was leaning into his chest. I turned to face him and kissed him gently and when I pulled away one of his tears had got on my cheek, he just smiled and used one thumb to brush it away.

"I miss him too, I know I didn't know him aswell as you. I never even met him but I've always felt close to him." He smiled again and kept his hand on my shoulder, I leant my head back onto his chest and he started stroking my hair and the side of my face with the other. We stayed there for ages, both deep in thought. I have no clue to what he was thinking about but I was thinking about him, he really must love me to be so open about Jimmy. After a while he said,

"Thank you Luc." Then moved his hand down to my arm and hugged me, I put my hands on top of his arms and squeezed them, sort of hugging him.

"You're welcome Bri, I'm always going to be here for you."

"I love you so much." I smiled and said,

"I love you too." He kept his arm on my shoulder and put the other across my stomach on my waist and I layed mine over that one, after a while the guys came back down and looked at us and smiled.

"Dude, we're here if you need us too." Zack said punching him lightly in the shoulder and I knew he was smiling and he said,

"Thanks man." Matt, Johnny and Arin walked in behind and gave a smile that said 'me too'. They all settled down and Matt got out a pack of cards and they all started playing some form of poker and I was smiling to myself. They really were like brothers, it wasn't just a facade. We watched them play and occasionally either Johnny or Arin would try and cheat but someone would notice and punch the offender. This went on for a while and then Larry came back and said,

"If you want, you can go soundcheck now. You've got a meet and greet in three hours." I looked up and the clock said it was only 10:13am. I was just now hearing fans outside the bus, clearly they saw Larry come in and thought we were coming out.

"Yeah ok, we'll be out soon. Sounds like some fans want autographs and shit first." Syn said, Larry smiled at us and went back outside, as soon as he opened the door the fans went nuts and I could hear him shouting 'Their coming out soon!' Matt looked at us all and said,

"Come on then, sounds like there's some fans we've got to speak to before soundcheck." He packed up the cards and Arin went to grab a jacket, I turned to look at Syn who was already looking at me, kissed him lightly and sat up about to get up and find some shoes but as soon as my bum left the seat he grabbed my hips and pulled me back down next to him keeping his hands tight. I pouted a little and said,

"Syn, I need shoes." He smirked and kissed me again before letting go and I quickly got up incase he tried it again but he too stood up to get shoes. I went to my bag and rummaged through looking for my red converse and socks, the socks took ages to find but I quickly pulled them on and sat back down on the sofa to lace up my shoes. It took us all ten minutes to get ready and Matt went first, opening the door to a crowd of screams and yells. Zacky and Johnny went next and once again I froze up hearing them and stood still, Syn put a hand on my lower back pushing me gently forward until I walked down the stairs. There weren't so many as London but they were very loud, I just went and stood next to Matt until Syn and Arin came down and I went to stand behind Syn. He turned round and smiled at me but then turned back and carried on signing arms and posters. After a while people started getting their camera's out and asking for one with the whole band so I took each camera and took the photo's. This took about twenty minutes, Syn came over to me and laced our fingers together and we all started walking into the arena. I turned and waved to the crowd before the door was closed and we found the dressing room. Matt went out and left us there but quickly came back with beers and pepsi for me. As he put them in the fridge Jason came in and said,

"I've set up the drums, you guys ready?" They all got up and followed him out the room. I went with them and Syn said,

"What you gonna do while we play?" I looked around and said,

"I'm gonna go sit in the seat I was in when I saw Paramore. Then i'm gonna wander." He smiled and kissed my cheek softly before going to get his guitar. I watched them go on stage and play for five minutes but then I went down into the standing and wandered around before finding the part they called the 'forum' it's basically a huge room full of seats and chairs and food stands. You have to wait there before a show starts, it was empty when I got there but it's amazing when it's full. It'd been nearly exactly a year since i'd been there but I found my way to my seat like it was last night, I looked up at the rows and turned around watching the guys play and walk around the stage.I climbed up to row Y and went over to seat 217. I sat down and looked around, it was so much different now it was empty, when I was here last the arena was sold out, I settled down and watched the guys play for nearly two hours then walked back to meet them as they finished. Despite the huge walk back I was side-stage before they finished and Syn came over to me as he walked off,

"I did wave to you but you were in la-la land." I smiled a little and said,

"I had one of the best nights of my life in that seat so I was reminiscing it." He smiled lovingly at me and put an arm over my shoulder after taking his guitar off and handing it to Matt B. We all went back into the dressing room and the guys spread out on the sofa's and he sat down on a arm seat and took my hips and pulled me down so I was sitting on his lap, he kept his hands on my hips, I leant back, he leant his head on the side of my arm and we started talking about shows. I told them about the night I saw Paramore in this building and they were genuinly interested. That's what I love about them, they are always so interested in what someone else has to say, after my speil they sat back and Matt said,

"Wow, so that was a good show then?" I glared at him quickly and he returned it with a huge cheesy grin.

"It was an amazing show."

"Well, we're playing a show in Nashville so maybe you'll get the chance to meet them." I gasped and they all chuckled at me.

"Don't chuckle at me, you guys and them pretty much saved my life so yeah I'm seriously excited about even the prospect of meeting them." They all smiled and Larry came in and said,

"Time for meet and greet guys." We all got up and followed him to a room that for some reason only had a table and a snooker table in it. He said,

"They'll be about five minutes guys alright." They nodded and he went out, I assume to get the people, I jumped up and sat on the edge of the snooker table watching the guys scrabble around for sharpies and waited for the small crowd of fans to come in.