Save your heart.

Dakota showed some special passes to the security guys and they let us go backstage. We walked up some stairs and I guessed Dakota had been there before since she knew where everything was.

"You can sit right there." She said pointing to a coach in a room. "I'll go tell the other guys we're here" I nodded as she left. So I walked towards the coach and made myself comfortable. I didn't know how long we'd be there for, so it was kind of awkward. Luckily, Dakota came back sooner than I expected.

"I thought you wouldn't want to be in a room with people you don't know."

"You thought good. Maybe if my personal issues were sorted out, I would."

"Next time, then."

'I hope' I thought to myself.

We remained in silence for quite a long time, but I liked it. Dakota was like my sister, my closest friend, my best friend.

"So, you want Garrett and I to marry each other then?" She laughed a little.

"I'd love it. Can't wait for the day." I laughed, too.

"Can you imagine?" She chuckled.

"Yeah, I can, and let me tel you, you both look fantastic in my mind." I made her laugh again.

"I really think he's my true love." She said when she calmed down.

Suddenly, we heard some voices.

"There he is!" She stood up immediately, excited.

"Do you want some clean panties?" I ironically said.

"You're really gross sometimes." She said, chuckling.

"I'm sorry. I really am." I chuckled, too, nervous.

"I'll be back in a second."

"Alright."

Dakota ran out of the room and I heard her and Garrett reunite. Well, to be exact, I heard their steps and Dakota's excitement noises.

It was after a while that someone knocked on the door. I knew it was John. He opened the door and slowly walked in. He closed the door and stayed at a distance.

"Hi." He said.

"Hello."

It looked like he was going to stand there, so I offered him to sit down.

"Please, sit down, I don't have herpes or anything contagious." By the time I ended my sentence, I regretted it. I was being so rude.

"That was kinda rude." John said calmly as he took a seat.

"Sorry." I really was.

After a while, he talked again.

"You're wearing the necklace I gifted you."

I moved my hand to where the necklace was. "Yeah. I haven't took it off."

He smiled. And when I saw him smile, I closed my eyes. I wanted to cry. I don't know why, I just wanted.

"The concert was great." I said after a while.

"Thanks. I saw you in the crowd." I shyly smiled.

Our conversation was so cold. Who would have thought we were a couple not very long ago.

We remained silent for some more minutes.

"Look, Jessie...I'm so sorry-"

"I know..."

"I was drunk and-"

"I know, but I should have let you explain back then."

"Maybe. But it was all my fault. If I didn't kiss that chick Elena we wouldn't be like this right now and-"

"But I should have answered your calls. It was not all your fault, John."

We were looking face to face now. Closer than before.

"There was not a day on tour that I didn't think of you."

"I've been thinking of you every day, too..."

We stopped talking when I said that.

"I just can't believe what you did." I said after some time. "You crashed into my life and became the biggest part of it. Imagine how I felt when I saw you kissing that girl." I felt tears coming down my cheeks. "It's been really hard, and I haven't been able to get over you, because I can't, I really can't. I love you John. I love you and always did. I love you today, and I'll love you tomorrow. I felt my heart breaking into a million little pieces that night. And I know we haven't even been together for a year, but I get really attached to the people I love. And at the time, I couldn't imagine my life without you. Nowadays, I still can't. It's like life's the ocean and you're my float. Even if I didn't respond to your calls during the first couple of weeks, it felt good to think that you cared. Then, I thought you had forgotten me, until today. The moment I saw you, it was like my life made sense again. A part of me was jumping of happiness, because you really brought joy to my life. And then you sang those songs, and-" I started sobbing a little "I couldn't handle it anymore John. I remembered the day you showed me your songs, and the first day we were alone in the park, and the day we danced for the first time to I Wouldn't Mind...I don't really don't know what more to say other that I still think that song sums up my feeling for you." John handed me a tissue. "Thanks."

"I'm sorry Jessie...it hasn't been the best time of my life either." He put his hand under my chin, lifted my head up a little and then wiped some tears off with his thumb. "Singing the two songs every night was painful. Because I knew you were hurt, and that it was my fault, and I didn't know what to do. I was on tour! And believe me, it hasn't been the best tour for me. Yes, I've seen wonderful places in South America and heard fantastic people sing our songs, but I knew nothing about you. Once in a while Garrett told me something Dakota told him about you, and it seemed like you were doing well. You weren't answering my calls, and what I heard about you was not bad. I thought I was screwed, I thought you were moving on."

We were just sitting in the sofa in silence, now.

"I've missed you." John said.

"I've missed you, too." I said, slowly moving closer to him and resting my head on his shoulder. Oh, how I missed his smell. He stretched his arm and wrapped it around my shoulders.