I'll Let You Live.

I ended up hanging out with Matty at the tent while Tom went to take pictures and Oli was of course still asleep.

He groaned as some girl in a too short skirt walked by. I gave him an odd look and he sighed, "I haven't had sex in weeks. Yeh don't undastand what that does ta a lad like meh."

I couldn't help but laugh and he spoke, "not everyone is lucky like Oli."

"He's not getting any."

"Oh? Since when? 4 days ago? Boo hoo."

I laughed, "Matty, I'm sure it won't be that hard to find someone willing."

"Harda than yeh fink." He mumbled.

"Heyyy. What yeh plans for tonigh'?" He asked leaning over to me with a smirk.

"Oh hell no!"

"Why?! I'll, I dunno, pay yeh?"

"I'm not a hooker!"

"Of course not! Fine. No money. Juss a friend helpin' out a friend. A secret of some sort."

"No!"

"Come onnnn Lexi! Pleaseee." He begged falling to his knees in front of where I was sitting.

"I mean, I've seen yeh naked before!"

"Because you don't know how to knock!"

"Yeh don't know how ta lock tha door!"

I glared at him and he placed his hands on my knees, "so like, what's it gonna take?"

"I'm not sleeping with you! That is so awkward!"

"No it's not! It's juss sex! I'm not askin' for a fuckin' date or a cuddle aftawards. Just sex! Once!...well if it's good...maybe twice..." he said smirking.

"Matthew!!"

"What tha fuck is goin' on?" Oli asked and we both looked over at him as he stared at Matt with a curious look.

"He's trying to rape me." I said holding my hand out to him so he'd help me.

He chuckled and pulled me from the chair.

"Matt..." he said giving him a glare as he pulled me to his chest.

"What?! I juss asked if she'd sleep wif meh! Jeez."

I couldn't help but laugh and even Oli chuckled, "oh and what did she say?"

"Clearly no! she apparently only sleeps wif yeh."

I knew my cheek were red and I was thankful no one could see my face.

"That's my girl." Oli whispered to me as he wrapped both his arms around me.

"Ugh!" Matty said walking away clearly frustrated in more ways than one.

"Poor Matty." I said looking up at Oli and he laughed, "he'll be fine."

"Maybe I should just sleep with him and help him out."

Of course I wouldn't dare but getting a reaction from Oli was what made it worth mentioning.

Oli's face grew serious, "No. Actuallah, fuck no."

I rolled my eyes as I pulled away from him and he swiftly grabbed my hand causing me to look at him.

"Yeh not gonna sleep wif him. Right?" He asked a concerned look lighting his face.

Well at least he cared on some level.

"Of course not!"

"I didn't fink so...I juss, wanted to make sure."

"Why?"

He shrugged and dropped my hand causing me to sigh.

"Where's Tom?" I asked.

"Why yeh always do that?" He asked and I gave him a confused look, "do what?"

"When somefin that makes yeh uncomfortable gets brought up yeh can't get away from me fast enough."

"It was just a question..." I said crossing my arms defensively.

"Yeah. To avoid what was said."

"You avoid everything we talk about so what's the difference?" I asked and he let out a deep breath.

"Look. Can we just not talk about anyfing today? Can we juss pretend ta be those insane 16 year old kids we were? I juss so badly wanna walk around wif yeh and laugh and do silly fings and forget bout everyfing. Sort of like yestaday..."

I stared at him for a moment before agreeing. I mean, I think I needed that as well.

He gave me a smile and grabbed my hand.

"What yeh wanna do my love?" He asked happily as we walked around.

"This was your idea!"

"Yeah, but I don't reallah fink it's wise ta do tha fings we did then."

I laughed, "oh so now you're mature?"

"By no means! I juss fink it'd be a bit different now if we got arrested."

I giggled, "true."

We ended up just goofing around until their show and then on the way to the hotel.

"Maybeh they have a pool! Why's it so bloody hot here?!" Oli asked loudly from beside me.

"Well see there's this thing called a climate and..."

"Oh? And what? Don't give meh yeh smart arse remarks." He said with a grin as he reached over and tickled my side.

I laughed and he smiled, "any fing else?"

"Too bad it's not storming so you'd get struck by lightening."

He laughed along with Matty who was on the other side of me on his phone.

"Oh? Yeh'd like that wouldn't yeh?" He asked with an amused grin on his face.

I nodded and he leaned closer, "yeh'd be sad. Don't lie. I mean, a world wifout meh would be not so good don't yeh fink?"

I laughed, "Not everyone dies from getting struck by lightening!"

"Most do and I'm so skinny I probably would!"

"Well, true."

"So yeh'd be sad wifout meh, yeah?"

"Yeah after a while i'd probably be like if only Oli was here to annoy."

He rolled his eyes, "Oh please. Yeh love meh. Yeh'd be more sad than Matty probably."

Well, probably.

"I dunno mate. I love yeh a lot." Matty said with a wink and i busted out laughing.

"Well least someone would care!" He stated as we arrived at the hotel.

"Come on yeh bloke." Oli said hitting Matt's head causing him to groan in pain.

"Oli. That wasn't nice."

"Oh? I'm tryin' ta beh more like yeh love." He said smacking my butt as I went to go grab my bag.

I swatted at his hand and he chuckled.

"Carry this." I said handing him my bag.

"Why don't yeh get yeh boyfriend ta do this?"

"One, i don't have a boyfriend and two, you can." I said patting his cheek and he mumbled something as he grabbed his own bag and I followed him out.

"Don't complain. It is a bit cloudy. Might storm." I teased.

"Ha ha." He said giving me a look.

"Gonna go swimmin' wif meh?" He asked with a grin.

"Nope. Didn't bring a swim suit."

"So? Not like yeh haven't skinny dipped wif meh. And if we're 16 for the day well, than it's nuffin." He said nudging me and I rolled my eyes as we were given key cards for our rooms.

We waited on the guys and I gave them their keys including Tom.

"Where yeh been all day?" He asked tugging on my hand.

"With Oli where have you been?"

He grinned, "Oh yeh know, takin' pictures."

"No. Really?! Are you a photographer?" I joked.

"Yeah, some might say."

I giggled and a laugh escaped his lips as he pulled me to him, "how bout sleepin' wif meh again tonight? I liked it."

I nodded and he kissed my forehead, "good. I've got some work ta do though but yeh can come wheneva prefably a bit lata cause if yeh there I'll be distracted cause yeh so prettah." He whispered pressing his lips to my cheek as I felt myself blush.

He gave me a grin, "I'll see yeh in a bit yeah?"

I nodded and he gave my arm a light squeeze before leaving me standing there.

"Please tell meh that line did not juss work on yeh?" I heard and looked over to see Oli.

I glared at him and he stepped closer, "I'll be distracted cause yeh so prettah." He mimiked and I rolled my eyes, "unlike you he doesn't say lines to girls. I'm pretty certain of that."

He shrugged, "Maybe not...or he's an excellent lia'." He added with a smirk as he walked to the elevator.

"I mean, I fink yeh prettah too. Gonna sleep wif meh?" He joked and I rolled my eyes, "shut up Oliver."

"Oh yeh mean business. Yeh used my full name." He said with a grin as we stepped into the elevator with a couple that had to be in their 40's.

"I'm juss messin' wif yeh love." He added leaning over and kissing my cheek, "I'm sure he means it. I do." He whispered as I watched the numbers change at the top of the elevator trying to keep my breathing at a normal rate.

Once we reached our floor I quickly got off and Oliver followed behind me casually.

"How come your room is always by mine?" I asked unlocking my door.

"Ironic huh?" He said with a smirk and I rolled my eyes as I held the door open for him.

"Yeah very ironic. Who always makes the reservations?"

"Matty."

"Oh well, all my questions just got answered!"

"Why yeh say that?"

"I have my reasons."

"Mhm. Yeah I bet yeh do." He said dropping our bags and quickly grabbing my hands.

"Come on."

"Where?"

"The pool."

"I'm sure it's closed."

He shrugged with a grin and pulled me to the door.

"Oli..." I whined and he chuckled, "Lexi, where's my girl wif adventure?"

"She died."

"Oh? Did she get struck by lightening?" He asked causing me to start laughing.

He chuckled as we got back into the elevator.

"Maybe."

"Well if she didn't live I won't."

I laughed and shoved him lightly.

Once we snuck into the pool area which was already closed Oli began taking his shirt off.

I crossed my arms and watched him as he placed it on a chair and proceeded with his shoes and pants.

He dived in and once he up with a splash he brushed his hair back and gave me a grin, "come on love."

"Nahhh."

"It's not cold. Get yeh arse in here before I make yeh."

"Oli."

"Alexis! Get in tha fuckin wata!"

I glared at him and he sighed as he swam to the edge, "Baby, Get in tha wata." He said in a sweet tone, water dripping off his face as he relaxed his hands onto the concrete.

I sighed and kicked off my sandals causing a grin to hit his lips.

"Shut up." I mumbled as I took off my shorts and shirt, leaving my under garments on of course.

"Gonna jump in?" He teased.

"No." I mumbled sitting on the edge sticking my feet into the water.

He grabbed my leg and I glared at him causing him to laugh.

"Lexi...get in right now."

"You're being mean today!" I said pushing off from the end into the water.

"Gotta be when it comes ta yeh!"

I splashed him and he gave a shocked expression, "reallah?"

I shrugged and he swam ova ta meh and grabbed my leg pulling me under.

I glared at him as I came up and he smiled, "now we're even."

I rolled my eyes and he brushed my hair from my face.

"Today's been fun." He said softly his fingers running over my shoulder.

"Yeahh not so bad."

He gave me a grin before leaning in and kissing my forehead.

"Forgot how much fun you were." I joked and he gasped, "what?!"

I laughed as I splashed him and swam to the shallow part.

"Let's go it's cold." I said once he reached me.

"Fine. Jeez. Yeh get so old. I don't like it one bit." He teased as he got out of the pool.

"Sorry I don't want to get kicked out of a hotel!"

"Live a little love." He said as he pulled his clothes back on.

"I got in didn't I?" I asked as I got dressed.

"Yeah cause I made yeh." He said grabbing my hand as we walked back inside.

"Did not."

"Did so." He said and I cuddled into his side as we stood in the elevator. Cold air and water do not mix.

He kissed my nose as he held me to him and I tried not to over think it all.

"Do yeh gotta stay wif Tom?" He asked as we grabbed dried clothes from our bags.

I looked up at him curiously, "why?"

He shrugged, "juss want yeh ta stay wif meh."

"Well he said not until later so I can really."

He nodded and I went into the bathroom to change. Once I came out Oli was already sitting on the bed in just shorts and his hair was still a bit wet. He looked up at me and I sat beside him.

"You know Oli, I would be sad if you got struck by lightening."

He laughed, "I know." He said still laughing as he pulled me further onto the bed.

He kissed my cheek and wrapped his arms around me.

"What yeh finkin bout?" He whispered.

"Nothing."

"Yeh cold?" He asked pulling the blanket over us.

"Yeah!"

He chuckled and I snuggled against him.

"Tell Tom ta suck it and yeh wanna stay here wif meh."

I laughed, "why do you want me to?"

"I like sleepin' wif yeh." He stated and I realized he was actually getting better at answering questions.

"Well, what if yeh accidently fell asleep?" He asked.

"That's mean."

"Is not. Yeh sleepy aren't yeh?" He asked rubbing my arm.

"Well yeah." I whispered. I mean, between us walking all day and then swimming I was exhausted.

"So sleep." He whispered nussling his face into my hair.

"Oli..."

"What? Don't yeh wanna juss cuddle wif meh instead?"

Well of course I did...

"I'll keep yeh warm." He mumbled kissing my neck.

"And I dunno, I fink yeh like cuddlin' wif meh instead."

I shrugged as his hand brushed mine.

"Yeah. So stay." He said kissing my neck once more. I bit my lip trying not to have a heart attack.

"Fine." I mumbled causing him to chuckle.

I turned to face him and he kissed my nose.

"Why yeh like cuddlin' wif meh?" He asked softly his hand brushing my hair.

I shrugged as I buried my face into his shirt.

"Tell meh." He whispered.

"I don't."

"Lia'."

"I just, feel safe with you is all. It's just comfortable with you." I mumbled.

"Yeh should. I'd protect yeh ta no end." He whispered.

"I know. Why aren't we together?" I asked bluntly and he bit his lip.

"Cause, we juss, I juss, I mean..." he finally fumbled and I pressed my hand to his mouth, "Oliver..."

He sighed and I removed my hand.

"I'm no good for yeh Lex. Yeh deserve betta."

"That's ridiculous."

"It's how I feel."

"Who is better?"

"Tom."

"Why?" I challenged.

"He juss is."

I sighed, "Oliver, do you have feelings for me?"

He seemed to hesitate at my words and he finally spoke softly, "Lexi, if I didn't I wouldn't put my self through half tha fings I do for yeh."

"So yes?"

"Yes, Alexis. Yes." He whispered as he closed his eyes. I couldn't believe the words that left his mouth. It made my heart almost leap from my chest.

He finally opened his eyes and spoke again, "do yeh have feelins for meh?"

I nodded and he pulled me to him, his forehead touching mine.

"So...I feel for yeh, yeh feel for meh and yet..."

"Yet here we are." I finished for him. He breathed in deeply as he closed his eyes.

"I want this to mean somefin Lexi. I'm juss..."

"Scared."

He said nothing and I placed my hand on his cheek.

"Why? It's just me."

"See, if I screw up when we're together I could lose yeh foreva. Where as now if I screwed up yeh'd be hurt but we aren't togetha so yeh couldn't leave meh."

"What do you plan to screw up Oliver?"

He shrugged, "I dunno. I just know I will."

"Like that you'd cheat?"

"Course not. I'd neva do that to yeh." He said seriously.

"Ok! Then what?"

"I juss, I don't want to fuck it up ok? I'd ratha not have yeh and have yeh like I do now than have yeh and lose yeh."

"You're not going to lose me."

"Yeh don't know that!"

"Yes I do Oli."

"Yeh don't..." he mumbled.

"Well, I can't keep doing this with you." I said seriously.

"Do what?"

"Act like this when it's not going anywhere." I said pulling from him and his eyebrows furrowed together.

"Why not?" He asked seriously.

I let out a laugh, "becase Oli. It's not fair. I mean so we aren't together but we act like it? So what if you go sleep with someone else I can't get mad?"

"Come on Alexis. Yeh know damn well I would neva do that"

"Do I? Apparently you think you would." I said climbing out of his bed.

He sighed and ran his hands into his hair.

"I'm going to go."

"To where? Tom's?" He spat out and I shrugged, "at least he knows he wants to date me."

"Lexi everyone wants ta bloody date yeh! Josh would date yeh, Tom would date yeh, even bloody Matty would date yeh! But I bet they don't feel what I feel for yeh!" He said standing up from the bed.

"Who knows because no one knows what you feel!"

He glared at me and I crossed my arms not giving up.

"Well, I feel a lot for yeh." He finally said and I rolled my eyes, "Great. Well, I'm going to go."

"Alexis! What do yeh want meh ta say?!" He said loudly.

"I don't know Oli. If you don't know, well I don't."

"Yes yeh do...and I can't say what yeh want meh to..." he said with a sigh.

I shrugged with a grin, "then it doesn't matter. Stay if you want." I said grabbing the hoodie from my bag before leaving the room as tears filled my eyes.

I couldn't help it. I couldn't help but want to cry. So he had feelings for me but he didn't love me?

Why did he have to make everything complicated?