Status: Second Frerard, be patient with me. I'm trying to write this well.
You're Never Gonna Fit In Much, Kid.
8
Gerard's POV
Frank stopped crying and got really quiet. Why is he confused? God, maybe it was something I did. Maybe he regrets kissing me. Ugh.
"Um.. Frankie, do you want to sleep with me?"
He stared at me.
"We'll just be sleeping, I swear."
He nodded.
I held his hand and walked him to my room, he stared at the walls. I can't believe he's seeing my room. I look like a nerd with all my comic book drawings.
"I like your drawings."
I smiled, "Thanks. You can um, change into a pair of my pyjamas.. I'm guessing you brought none."
He nodded, "Yeah, thanks."
"I'll go change in the washroom.." I grabbed two pairs of pyjama bottoms and gave Frank the smallest. I smiled at him and left.
I opened the bathroom door, turned back around and closed it behind me. I looked in the mirror.
Maybe Frank just wants to be friends.
I shook my head, quit thinking. You're going to bed soon anyway.
It's only like, 9:30. That's pretty early.. Not that I'm not tired. I was awake early to get ready for the date.
I took off my pants and slid on the pyjama bottoms.
I opened the door and walked back over to my room where Frank was already laying down.
"Are you okay?"
He kept quiet.
"You know, Frank. I was confused when I was your age too. It gets better."
He rolled over and looked at me.
"Does it really?"
I remained silent and thought.
"When you learn how to cope with life, yes. It gets better."
"How do you cope?"
"I drink a whole lot."
I could see tears forming in his eyes.
"My dad used to drink. Why do you do it?"
"Is that why you're confused?"
He shook his head and let a tear roll down his cheek, "I'm confused because I realized that eventually, I could love you. And that scares me. It scares me more now that I know you're an alcoholic. You didn't answer my question, Gerard.. Why?"
I almost felt like crying too, "Frank.. I'm sorry."
He nodded and rolled back the other way. "Goodnight."
I smiled to myself, "G'night Frankie."
I could hear Frank crying to himself, and honestly.. I felt fucking horrible.
Frank stopped crying and got really quiet. Why is he confused? God, maybe it was something I did. Maybe he regrets kissing me. Ugh.
"Um.. Frankie, do you want to sleep with me?"
He stared at me.
"We'll just be sleeping, I swear."
He nodded.
I held his hand and walked him to my room, he stared at the walls. I can't believe he's seeing my room. I look like a nerd with all my comic book drawings.
"I like your drawings."
I smiled, "Thanks. You can um, change into a pair of my pyjamas.. I'm guessing you brought none."
He nodded, "Yeah, thanks."
"I'll go change in the washroom.." I grabbed two pairs of pyjama bottoms and gave Frank the smallest. I smiled at him and left.
I opened the bathroom door, turned back around and closed it behind me. I looked in the mirror.
Maybe Frank just wants to be friends.
I shook my head, quit thinking. You're going to bed soon anyway.
It's only like, 9:30. That's pretty early.. Not that I'm not tired. I was awake early to get ready for the date.
I took off my pants and slid on the pyjama bottoms.
I opened the door and walked back over to my room where Frank was already laying down.
"Are you okay?"
He kept quiet.
"You know, Frank. I was confused when I was your age too. It gets better."
He rolled over and looked at me.
"Does it really?"
I remained silent and thought.
"When you learn how to cope with life, yes. It gets better."
"How do you cope?"
"I drink a whole lot."
I could see tears forming in his eyes.
"My dad used to drink. Why do you do it?"
"Is that why you're confused?"
He shook his head and let a tear roll down his cheek, "I'm confused because I realized that eventually, I could love you. And that scares me. It scares me more now that I know you're an alcoholic. You didn't answer my question, Gerard.. Why?"
I almost felt like crying too, "Frank.. I'm sorry."
He nodded and rolled back the other way. "Goodnight."
I smiled to myself, "G'night Frankie."
I could hear Frank crying to himself, and honestly.. I felt fucking horrible.
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