Dear Insanity

My Darling Alexandria-Renee,
If you are reading this then you will have no doubt found my body, I pray it was not you who found me. There is no doubt in my mind that your life will be a little easier without the burden of me to hold you back. You have suffered so much to no fault of your own and for that I do sincerely apologise. Nothing saddened me more than to see such a traumatic wisdom in your beautiful young eyes which have been tainted by my illness. Both you and I know that my supposed miraculous recovery was merely a repression of my demons. I cannot thank you enough for all the times you sat by my side whilst I fought to control the taunting whispers in my twisted mind. I find it strange that one so young would push past the deep fear and embarrassment to look after me after all the mental and physical trauma that I have caused you. I cannot fathom great enough words to explain how much you have helped me in these past years. I must admit I find it ironic how my last few moments are spent relatively sane the voices have abandoned me temporarily, but I can see grand-mère and your great-grand mère beckoning me forward with smiles, I pray this family curse ends with me. Just know this my darling daughter that despite my lack of sanity throughout your life, I have always loved you and will continue to do so in death, je vous aime mes petite merveille.
Eternally Yours,
Mama

The twenty one year old beauty Alexandria-Renee looked away from her mother’ three year old suicide note with blurry, tear-filled eyes to the hospital letter lay before her and then to the loaded gun that lay next to it.
“It is with the greatest sadness Miss Du-Vaughn that I report you are showing the earlier signs of, Schizophrenia”