Wish You Were Here

I was woken up the following moring by the sun's rays peaking through my slighty
uncovered windows, punching me in the face. I groaned and pulled the sheets over my head when suddenly I hear someone chuckle. I slowly popped my head out and saw Zack sitting there smiling down at me.
"Morning beautiful."
He leaned down and pecked me on the lips. Right when he did that, I remembered
everything from the previous night. Zack and I...
"Hey Claire, I gotta head back to the hotel and shower since all my shit is still there. I'll be back to take you out to eat, if that's ok with you that is."
I hesitantly nodded. "Uh yea, that's fine. Take my car if you want."
He nodded and kissed my forehead before getting out of bed and finding his clothes that were scattered throughout my room. Once he was dressed, Zack pecked me on the lips again.
"I'll be back soon, I love you."
And with that said, Zack left. I soon heard my car roaring outside and then take off down the street. I sat there quietly on my bed wrapped up tightly in my sheets. I ran my hand through my hair and sighed. I got out of bed and held onto the sheets so they wouldn't fall off my body. I picked up the remaining clothes
and threw them into the hamper. While I was in my closet, I took the time to
pick out an outfit so I could hit the shower. A pair of somewhat torn black
skinny jeans, white tank top, and a white and blue striped sweater were included
in my out fit of choice along with undergarments.
I made my way to my bathroom and closed the door behind me. I turned on the
water and waited quietly to warm up to my preferred temperature. Once it was
right, I removed the sheets and stepped in and let the water run down my entire
body, hoping to wash away every thought of last night. I truly hated myself for
sleeping with Zack when i clearly knew that in the back of my head, Jonathan was
all I could think about. I felt like the most god awful person in the entire
world. It hit me that what I did was no different from Alex did to me. There was
no way in hell I would be able to show my face to Jonathan without bursting into
tears.
After a good few minutes, I stepped out of the shower and began to get dressed.
Soon after being completely dressed, along with hair and makeuo being done as
well, I headed downstairs to the wash room with all my bed sheets in hand. I
wanted zero memory of what had happened but somehow I knew that was a mission
impossible. Once I threw the sheets into the washer and started the machine, I
headed towards the kitchen to get something to drink. On my way there, I was
scared shitless by Axel.
"Jeebus Christ Ax, give a bit of a warning next time before you give a person a
damn heart attack."
He chuckled. "Sorry Sevie."
I sighed. "It's okay."
"Whoa, are YOU okay? If not, you sounded more than okay last night."
I looked up at him and blushed. "Wait, you heard?"
"Let's just say that these walls aren't exactly soundproof." He smiled.
I groaned and covered my face. "Oh gosh, so everyone knows?
Axel placed his hand on my sloulder. "Nope, just me. Don't worry though, I won't
say anything."
Suddenly, I wrapped my arms around Axel's built torso and began crying in his
shirt.
"Hey whoa, what's wrong? Don't tell me Merrick hurt you."
I shook my head in his shirt and looked up at him. "Last night, it was a
mistake."
"A mistake, why? Did something happen?"
I looked down at my feet. "I saw Jonathan..." I soon felt tears slide down my
cheeks before looking up at him again. "Axel, I want Jonathan back...I love him
but what I did makes me no better than Alex..."
Axel sighed and pulled me into a tight hug. "Don't you dare compare yourself to
that prick. You're nothing like him. Now please stop crying, you know I hate seeing you like this. As for Jonathan, if you love him so much why did you sleep with Zack?"
"I-i don't know, I guess I wanted to forget but completely failed at it. I can't get over Jonathan no matter how hard I try."
I heard him sigh again. He pulled away from me and gently took my face into his hands, making me look straight at him. "Is that really what your heart wants, to be with Cook?"
I nodded. "Yea..."
"Then you have to tell Zack the truth and end whatever you guys have going on. Question is, are you prepared to lose not only Zack's friendship but possibly him all together?"
I stood there in complete silence. I'll have to lose Zack...forever?