I Need You

I felt Raine press a kiss to my lips and I know he ran out after that. I wanted to run to him, to hold him, to tell him it would be okay. But my body felt so heavy... Blackness consumed my sight and mind. I couldn't move, and I couldn't see anything. But I could hear everything. The tears my mom cried, the foot steps in the hall, the voice, and most of all Raine's scream. My mom sucked in a breathe and her foot steps pounded the hallway.

Leave the door open! I prayed, that way I could hear what happened.

"Doctors!" She screamed. "Someone help!" My heart crashed in my chest. What Raine hurt? What happened?

But I didn't need to ask, I already knew... His depression had kicked in and it's all down hill from there. But this time I can't comfort him. I can't touch his face, I can't hold him tight and convince him he's not worthless. I can't do anything.

All because I didn't watch, I could have seen that truck coming. The memory flashed in front of my eyes like a movie.

Zeke, how could you? I trusted you for all these years, and you say that one thing that will break me. My heart shattered and I couldn't force the picture of Zeke and Raine standing happily at the alter. No worries, no troubles, and no me. I felt my heart break. I pushed the tears back and reached for a CD above my head. Instead a note fell into my lap. It was from Raine. he must have put it there when we got our cars. I don't listen to music that often, and he probably thought that was the perfect spot.

That probably why he had seemed so down that day. Not necessarily depressed, just not as happy as usual. I unfolded it with one hand and began reading it.



I smiled at the note and closed it before my dears made all the words run. I'm so stupid! How could I think he'd ever leave me? Why did I do this? I have to go back! I looked up and was about to find some where to turn but I was blinded by headlights.

I had drifted in the other lane by accident while I read his note. And there's no way I could stop in time. But I still tried. I slammed on the brakes and jerked my wheel to the right, trying to avoid the collision,but I didn't.

"I love you Raine." I said as more tears fell from my eyes. "Forever. I'm so sorry it had to end like this." I felt the impact as the semi rammed into to my car. Next thing I knew my legs were pinned under the wreckage and I had a pounding head ache. I saw my phone laying on the ground a few inches from my face and picked it up.

I had to say goodbye to him. I had to hear his voice just one more time. No matter what I think or want to believe, hail can't live without rain.


Raine's POV

Once I woke up a few hours later I found I had been lain in a the bed next to Hale's. He looked just like he was sleeping, or that he was dead. But I heard the beeping of the heart monitor and I was reassured. My depression had caused me to think things that weren't real. It happens sometimes... But not since my parents died.

"Mom?" I croaked. I saw here sitting in the chair across from us.

"Sweet heart! You're alright, you had me worried." She ran up and hugged me.

"Did I hurt anything?" I asked.

"No, but you gave it your best shot. You almost gave yourself a concussion!" She hugged me tight again.

"Can I sing to him?" I asked tentatively. We didn't have any books so I had to improvise.

"Of course. I'm sure he'll appreciate it." She smiled at me. I crawled out of the bed and sat in the chair next to Hale's. I put all my emotions into the song, all the love, the sadness, everything.



My voice broke at the very end as tears started free falling from my eyes and I was powerless to stop them. I clutched his hand to my chest and started bawling.

"I've never seen anything like that." The doctor said, sounding amused.

"What?" I sniffled, my cheeks were a glow I hadn't realized so many people were in the room. Luca was there with Rory attached to his side, the secretary, a litter of nurses, the doctor, and in the very back, there was Zeke. I refused to acknowledge him, though.

"Whenever you talk for an extended period of time, or sing, like you just did, his heart speeds up." The doctor started at the monitor.

"What to you mean?" I asked.

"Just say something, maybe something really sweet. You can whisper if you like." the doctor said. "And then listen to the machine's beeps."

I nodded. I leaned close to Hale's ear and whispered. "I love you Hale. So much, it kills me to see you like this. I miss you so much. Your smile, your voice, your laugh. If only I could see it all again." I was sure to listen to the beeps this time and it was true. His heart rate sped up at the sound of my voice.

"He can hear you!" The doctor rejoiced. "He can't show himself but that's proof enough!" I smiled lately and grabbed his hand.

"I'll never leave you."I whispered again. I felt his waxy fingers twitch slightly, but that was it. I wanted hope that it was him and he was waking up. But it was probably just a twitch...