You're Finally Legal

"Baby come on please. . I just want to . . your ooh ahhh god!!!" moaned, Kenneth. He grabbed my waist pulling me closer to him. I was tickling him and quite frankly I was winning. "Shit come on!!"

I started laughing, he grabbed my hands and pinned me over to the ground while I panted trying to catch my lost breathe. God this was funny. Kenneth happen to be my best friend and I really loved him. Oh yeah btw get your minds out of the gutters! We weren't doing anything sexual!

"You deserve that! I told you not to keep calling me Kitty boo boo!" I taunted, poking him with my leg. He laughed in response and hugged me close.

"I cant help it the look on your face is priceless." he chirped.

I shook my head in disapproval but he just smirked at me. I pushed him off me, brushing off my clothing to remove any dirt off my shirt. I took hold of my bag, throwing it over my shoulder.

"Where you going?" he asked, tilting his head to the side.

"You sir have band practice and I sir have classes." I replied, smarty just to piss him off.

That was mine and his relationship, not what I had in mind but it will have to do. He growled at me before taking hold of my waist pulling me into him. I sighed softly to my self as he brought his lips down to mine.

"Don't play games. . . I want you now. . " he whispered softly, kissing down to my neck softly. "Kidding!!"

He left go of me before ushering my out of the door mumbling I am going to be late or something. I shook my head, why did he have to do that. I get you want to be friends well excuse me then don't kiss me! I growled softly to my self before running down to my car. I was pissed how he could just brush his lips against mine and make me all disoriented. He was confusing, what he wanted. He was dragging me along to because he was confusing me. My emotions were already flustered and he was not helping. I didn't have time to think about this it was time I went to class. I shook my head before driving off to class.

~English Class~

Hurry. . Run. . .What are you doing?! The young woman groaned in response to her inner voice demanding an answer. She was moving quickly as she could. She also knew very well she wouldn't be able to out run him for much longer. He was hot on her trail. The scent from the sweat body, exposing her position rather quickly. How was she suppose to know that he would come tonight?

"You cant run from me forever. . give in now." whispered, a gentle but stern voice through the wind. "Give in. I will get you in the end."

That is what you think, thought the young woman to her self. She grabbed the perfume from her bag before rubbing it onto the tree. She fastened her arms around the long rope dangling from the tree branch. She swung her self across dim lit forest. Escaping him was impossible but distracting him not so much. The perfume would confuse him only for mere minutes. Before he was able to find the difference she had to find shelter.

"I didn't think you would be that stupid, bad kitty." sang, the gentle voice through the young woman's head. "I will get you yet my dear."

She safety landed on one of the tree branches. She climbed into the abandon tree house. It was built by her brothers whom use to play in this dark empty forest to escape everything. She tugged out the melt cross hidden under one of the loose boards. She had been adventures enough to wander out here. She discovered it, planning for the future she placed a few items she could use in time of need into the tree house.

As she went to grab the knife from the small craven she has built her self, her body was pulled backwards. She struggled in the man grip trying to break her self free. Her long black hair stuck to her pale white skin. Her eyes reflected the color of the moon. The silver orbs starring into the dark lust red orbs. She could see the agony kept beneath them.

"Got you." he grinned, leaning down pressing his lips against her lips. To her dismay she found her self responding to his movements. "Don't you ever run from me or I will hunt you down worse than this."

"Thank you Miss Gardener for reading that self imposed essay of yours." scuffed Mr. Jones. "You may be seated."

I laughed, I guess he didn't like my essay . . oh well. I plopped open my notebook as someone else went up to present their essay. I needed to vent out some anger . . pain, memories out. Kidding I just wanted to work on the newest story I had began to write.

Sometimes in my ours lives we tend to forget what certain things feel like. We forget how that first kiss felt or that first heart break. Its never easy to close your eyes and image a different world than what was. I think I have walked down that path so many times now that I forgot where the line is. Through out my life I have always wonder what it would be like to live a carefree life just away from everything. . . Needless to say that is bound never to happen. I dearly from the bottom of my heart wish that someone some where could understand the pain to my empty heart. I agree I haven't done much to deserve it. Also I agree that there is nothing I have been through that someone else hasn't been through worse. I want to accept the fact that things change. People change minds. Time waits for no one. Things will never be the same but I should learn to accept that but the question is why can I not accept the fact he isn't coming back? Do I really love him that much? Questions are endless but maybe the answers aren't impossible to find. Maybe I am just looking for them in the wrong places.

I want to find my own way to cope with it but the truth is my heart hurts so much that even words alone cant express out how much my heart hurts when he isn't around. Fair enough to also say it was impossible for us to end up together since the day we met. Why? Simple because in all due respect I don't think I am suited to love anyone. I clearly lack all emotions to be someone important to anyone. Love is unreasonable in my eyes. Even so I hopelessly fell in love with him. Close our eyes and just fall. Ha what a stupid ass joke. Completely unaware of how stupid I have been these past 15 months. There is a inner secret that no one seems to see. There is something in my life that I wish it wasn't missing.

There is so much anger inside of my because I cant fucking figure out what I am doing My heart hurts my mind cant wrap its self around the fact that he isn't coming back! There isn't a day I cant go without wondering why am what did I do to deserve this? Why did you just get up and get out of my life? Was it because you didn't wanna be my life anymore? Or was it because you had someone else? Simple questions I don't suppose you can answer them can? You just ran away from me. When I only wanted to help you after your mother passed away. I know that things haven't been easy on you but that doesn't mean you have to run away from my every time something scary comes along. In all honesty I miss your my every, " I love you." I miss your every whisper . . . Ha don't listen to me talk about my shit I don't even think its worth it. I don't think I was thought it . . Who knows what I was thinking. . . Fuck.

Little by little every day Im starting to forget what his pain feels like. My heart breaks. I break. God knows.

"Miss Gardener!!!" shouted Mr.Jones. Shit was all I could think. "Please pay attention!"

I just shrugged my shoulders and went back to whatever I was doing. Once class ended I quickly ran out, rushing to my car. I quickly chucked my bag into the back seat before driving off. I wanted to go see Kenneth . . . or maybe I should make him suffer a little.

~1 Week later~

Text messages:

Kenneth:- Where are you?

Reply to me

Call Me back

God damn it answer me!

I came to see you at your house you weren't there

What happened to movie night

HELLO

Answer WOMAN!

Fuck Fuck Fuck!

Come on talk to me!

NOWWWWW TALK TO ME!

GOD DAMN IT I !!!!

I LOVE YOu. . . . Please talk to me . . I miss you . .

Allie: What? . . .

Kenneth: I love you. .

Allie: Your my friend of course you love me .

Kenneth: open your door

Allie: wtf your here?

Kenneth: open the door. .

I went over to the door and flung it open to see him standing there his hair a mess, his shirt half undone and his eyes wary tired almost. I shook my head before stepping aside to let him into my house. He stepped in and closed the door behind him. Kenneth grabbed my hands and pushed up against the door, taking my legs and wrapping them around his waist. I automatically applied my self to him.

"Don't ever leave me like that again." He growled, he was pissed off I could hear it in his voice. "Don't please."

I just nodded my head. It took him long enough to realize how I feel about him. I guess he missed all the signs. Maybe you don't know what you have until you loose it. He pressed his lips into mine roughly I moaned in response to him. I couldn't help but kiss him back. Kenneth pulled me closer to him and I couldn't help but press my body up against his.

"Happy birthday, my love." He whispered, softly against my lips. "I love you."

I smiled at him and kissed him on the lips. It felt good having his lips against mine. It felt amazing to have someone you loved for so long finally realize how you feel about them

Happy sweet birthday to me.