The New Girl

"Remember to call." Jared ordered, allowing me to nod before he engulfed me in a hug.

"I'm gonna miss you." I said as I wrapped my arms tightly around him.

"We're gonna miss you more." He said with a chuckle before he released me. I tried my best not to cry. I smiled weakly before shuffling over to Garrett.

"I'm gonna miss you Nickelsen." I said with a teary laugh. Garrett laughed and pulled me into a hug.

"Come back and visit us soon." He said in a whisper. I nodded before I let go to hug Pat.

"I don't want you to go." Pat said with a pout, looking and sounding like a child. I chuckled quietly before I gave him a hug.

"I'll miss you Patty Cakes." I said with a grin knowing he hated it when I called him that. I pulled away from Pat, ignoring his scowl and shuffled across to Kenny. He stared at me intently.

"I'm gonna miss you most." I said quietly as I wrapped my arms around him tightly. He chuckled and hugged me. Finally Kenny and I let go of each other but I stayed close. He grabbed my shoulders and kissed my forehead.

"Take care Katie." He said before he walked away to join the rest of the guys. I said goodbye to Nick and gave him a hug. I said goodbye to his band members who I still didn't know. When it came to saying goodbye to Halvo I was crying buckets.

"Katie, stop! I don't know how to handle hormonal women!" He pleaded making me laugh. I wiped away my tears and stared up at him. "Gonna miss you buddy." He said giving me an awkward, friendly shoulder punch.

"Give me a hug you asshole!" I ordered with a wide smile. Halvo grinned and opened his arms. I threw my arms around him and sniffed his cologne one last time. The last person I had to say goodbye to was John.

I took a small step towards him and sucked in a deep breath. I looked up at his face whilst he stared down at his shoes. He scratched the back of his neck nervously, not taking his eyes off of his shoes.

"I-I guess this is goodbye." He said quietly. I nodded unable to say a word to him. He finally looked at me and stuck his hand out for me to shake. I looking into his eyes and laughed before I pushed his hand away and hugged him. "I love you." He whispered.

"I love you too." I whispered as a tear fell down my face. When I pulled away John held on for a little longer. "Don't make this harder." I said quietly as I stepped back from him. He nodded and shuffled his feet about. "Goodbye John." I said unevenly.

"Bye Katie." He said, his voice cracking slightly. I plastered a fake smile on and waved goodbye to all of the boys huddled in a group towards the exit area. I sniffed away the tears as I walked back over to Joel.

He smiled at me weakly and we began to walk towards the gate where we'd take our next flight. I looked back momentarily to find John staring at me. I quickly looked back in front of me as we continued to walk.

Joel and I sat in the leather seats as we waited to board the plane. I stayed silent, replaying the last few moments with my best friends. I was having second thoughts about the whole thing. I wanted to turn around and follow Halvo and my friends.

I wanted to go on tour with them, I wanted to go back home to Arizona after.I wanted to take John back, I wanted to marry him and for us to live happily ever after. But, life isn't a fairy tale. And none of that was going to happen. My doubts were soon interrupted by the stewardess at the airport informing us that we could board.

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"So, you and John were engaged?!" Sean asked stunned as we sat in our seats. I nodded with a yawn. I unwillingly got the window seat and Joel sat next to me once again. I expected Sean to shut up whilst we tried to sleep, but no. He was chattering away and listening to his music loudly after we'd finally asked him to shut up.

I'd taken the opportunity when we were at the airport to put my hair up in a pony tail and change into the spare clothes I packed into by backpack.

I rested my head back against the seat and tried to sleep. I started to fall asleep until Sean decided to start singing along to his song. I kicked the back of his seat and he stopped. I finally fell asleep with Joel's arm around my shoulder and my head on his shoulder whilst his head rested on mine.

I didn't think of him as Joel, he looked too much like John. I thought of him as John.