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I am meeting with my dad soon. In two weeks to be exact. I am absolutely freaking out. I hate what did but I need my dad. Every little girl needs thier dad right? Well my dad and I weren't exactely on speaking terms for nearly 5 maybe 4 years. So now that my 19th birth day is coming he decided to call me. I want to talk to him about everything that happened. After all my peers say eventually I should to be completely recovered. But I don't know, how can you forgive someone who abused you mentally, physically, and mentallly and allowed others to abuse you as well. But I did thanx to the grace of God, however I still need him to see what he refused to believe. Am i right in this situation? I keep second guessing myself and I am getting so stressed my hair is falling out in chunks.