Call Me Hopeless, But Not Romantic.

I forced myself into more sleep and managed to stay in bed the rest of the day. When the morning finally arrived to say I was well rested was an understatement.

I hopped in the shower and got ready for the day before heading out to pick Macy up. I was actually running early so I stopped and picked up some hot chocolate for her.

I was becoming Tom...

"Hey lil bird." I said as she got in my car.

"Hi."

I chuckled and handed her the cup and she gave me a confused look.

"I got up early."

"Wow...well, thank you."

I nodded as we began our drive to the school.

"Do you feel like you're my parent or something?" She asked and I glanced over at her confused, "what? No...should I?"

"Well, no. I don't know." She said shrugging as I pulled up at the school.

"I don't. I promise." I said looking at her.

She nodded and I leaned into her kissing her cheek, "I'll see yeh tonight? I've missed yeh."

She nodded once more and I gave her a grin, "Have a good day ok?"

"Have fun in the studio."

I nodded with a smile, "I will. Now go before yeh late."

I watched her until she was in the school and then I headed to the studio. I wonder why she asked that. Yes, I do a lot for her, but still. All I know is I needed to change that quickly. I didn't want her to think I felt obligated to do anything for her because that wasn't the case.

Once I got to the studio everyone was sleepily walking in and I couldn't help but laugh because for once it wasn't me.

"why yeh in such a good mood?" Jona asked.

"He got ta see his bird this mornin' before she went ta class." Lee teased.

"Lee, I'll kill yeh."

Oli laughed, "yeh propa mental."

"I'm propa sick of yeh lot."

"Well have a seat mate. Yeh goin' last today."

It wasn't bad having to sit through everything. I mean I enjoyed the techincal part of it. Watching it all come together was amazing and I loved being apart of it.

Around 2 everyone took a break and I couldn't help but text Macy because usually I'd be seeing her right now instead of going into the booth to record.

'I'd rather be seeing you right now. :( I was already too far gone so why not.

I shoved the phone back into my pocket and took my seat behind my drum set. I began banging away and we had to do the same beat a few times before he considered it perfect. To me it was always perfect. My phone kept vibrating in my pocket which I ignored because I assumed it was just Macy responding but after the millionth time I stopped mid drum, "Hold up. Sorrah."

I pulled my phone from my pocket and realized I had 2 missed calls from Tom. I quickly hit redial and placed it to my ear.

"Hey mate what's tha matta?"

"Hey, yeh heard from Macy?"

"What? No. I texted her and I neva got a text back. Why?"

"I haven't heard from her and neitha has Katie."

"Have yeh checked her house?"

"I'm headed there now."

I sighed, "well call meh back ok?"

I hung up placing my phone back in my pocket. Worry now filling my head. I'm sure she was fine. I just couldn't keep my thoughts on drumming after that. I kept screwing up and having to redo everything.

"Look, I need a break." I said throwing my drumsticks down as I pulled my phone from my pocket and walked out into the chilled air. I sighed and called Tom quickly.

"Well?" I asked kind of mad he hadn't called me back yet.

"She won't talk ta meh. She's home but she won't let meh in her room."

"I'm on my way." I said not giving him a chance to speak before I hung up.

"Everyfing ok mate?" Oli asked as he and Le came outside.

I shrugged, "Look, somefins wrong wif Macy and spare meh tha funnah shit. I'm gonna go check on her."

Oli and Lee just nodded in response and I sighed, "I'll be back."

I walked away and went quickly to my car. I didn't know what happened but I already felt guilty. Guilty for not being there to pick her up. Guilty for not checking on her earlier. My mind raced with it all as I drove to her house. Once there I barely turned my car off before I was inside.

"Where is she?" I asked Tom who was sitting on the couch.

"Her room."

I nodded and quickly went up the stairs.

I sighed before knocking lightly, "Macy, sweetie. I'm here. Open tha door please."

She didn't say anything and I relaxed my head on the door, "Baby, let meh know what happened so I can help."

I sighed once more and I finally heard the door unlock causing me to back up quickly.

The door didn't open though so I hesitated before I opened it myself. She was in her bed the cover pulled over her and I walked over to her slowly.

"Mac, what happened, love?" I asked sitting beside her rubbing her back.

I could now hear her crying and I pushed the cover off of her and pulled her into my lap.

"Talk ta meh." I whispered holding on to her tightly as she cried into my shirt.

"I'm not going back." She said through her sobs.

"Goin' where, hun?"

"To school. I hate it. I hate them."

"Don't say that..."

"No. It's true. They hate me and I didn't even do anything, but it doesn't matter, I'm just not going back."

"Macy, look at me."

She sniffled and raised her eyes to mine, "yeh gonna finish school. Yeh not gonna give up like this. yeh hear meh?"

"But you don't understand."

"Yeh right Mac. I don't. Tell meh what happened."

She shook her head and buried her face into my chest.

I sighed, "Macy..." I said running my hand into her hair.

"I'm just over being miserable. I'm sick of it. The only time I'm happy is the weekends and at 7:30 and after 2:30. That's pathetic."

"So yeh not happy at 7?" I joked trying to lighten the mood.

"Well yeah just because I know I get to see you." She mumbled and my heart stopped beating.

"You're probably keeping me sane." She added.

I some how found my voice, "Im sure yeh doin' that yehself."

She leaned up and looked at me. She was so close I stopped breathing and had to force myself to speak, "I'll be here as long as yeh need meh." I whispered bringing my hand to her cheek.

"Why are you so sweet to me?" She asked bringing her hand to mine that was still rested on her cheek.

"Several reasons." I said barely audiable.

"Like..."

"Don't make meh say it."

"Why not? Embarassed?"

I smirked, "no." I whispered kissing her nose as her fingers pulled mine from her face.

I sighed and stared into her blue eyes, "I juss fink yeh reallah sweet, and cute, and I dunno, juss feel tha need ta be there for yeh. Yeh give meh a weird feelin'. That isn't meant how it sounded, a good weird feelin'."

She laughed causing me to chuckle, "stop laughin' at meh."

I ran my thumb over her tear stained cheek and gave her a grin.

"Always meh who gets stuck wif tha cryin' bird." I teased.

She hit my shoulder lightly and I laughed grabbing her side causing her to squeal. I began to tickle her and she fell onto the bed laughing hysterically.

I couldn't help but laugh as I straddled her and tickled her furiously causing tears to fall from her eyes. This time not over sadness.

"What tha hell?" I heard and looked over to see Tom standing in the door way with a grin.

"She was sad. I had ta get her ta laugh." I said shrugging.

He chuckled, "Matt, Oli said come back now or else."

"Yeah? Tell him ta suck it."

He rolled his eyes and walked out of the room.

"You should go back."

"No. My lil bird's sad." I said sticking my bottom lip out at her.

She giggled and I kissed her cheek, "I'm not leavin' til yeh tell meh what happened. Did someone put their hands on yeh cause I swear Macy I'll kill someone. Girl or boy." I said seriously.

"No. I swear."

"Ok, juss tell meh. Please." I said softly brushing her hair lightly.

"It's stupid."

"Nuffin yeh say is stupid and if they made yeh cry I know somethin' serious happened."

She sighed and closed her eyes. I leaned down closer to her placing kisses on her cheek. She didn't respond and I wrapped my arms around her.

"Macy, if yeh don't tell meh what happened how can I help?"

"You don't need to." She whipered.

"I want to. I don't like yeh hurtin', love."

Her eyes met mine and I brought my hand to her cheek.

"Tell meh."

"I felt like I was in that movie A Walk to Remember minus the cancer."

I couldn't help but chuckle, "what part are yeh referrin' to love?"

"Oh the part where they plaster her picture everywhere. Oh except mine wasn't a naked picture, but the words whore written across it didn't make it that much different."

I furrowed my eyebrows together, "what?"

"Yep."

My jaw clinched together, now completely irrate. Who does that?!

"I'll kill them." I grumbled moving off of her and she sighed, "but you're right. Only a few more months."

"Bullshit. Yeh not goin' frew that."

"Well Matt, I hate to tell you this but you can't just go beat up everyone."

I sighed and looked down at her, "well, I don't know what else to do."

She gave me a grin, "nothing. It's not your place."

"I wish yeh'd stop sayin' that."

"Well it's not."

"No, it's no but I want to. I want to do these fings for yeh cause yeh deserve betta."

"Stop worrying about me Matty. I'm fine. Go back to the studio before Oli comes and drags you there."

I sighed, "come wif meh."

She smiled, "No. Why?"

"Cause, I'd juss ratha be able to know yeh ok."

She rolled her eyes, "I'll be fine. I'm going to be right here."

"Ok. Juss, can yeh please answa my texts? Makes me propa worried."

"Ok, ok."

I kissed her forehead before getting off he bed. An unsettled feeling still hung around and I tried to just let it go, but all I could think about was those damn kids.

"If yeh need meh call meh. I mean it. If this eva happens again and yeh don't call meh I'm gonna be propa pissed."

"Ok, ok. Go."

I walked to the living room where Tom was still sitting.

"Somefin has ta be done Tom." I said crossing my arms.

"What happened?"

I went into the whole spill and he just sat there taking it all in. Once I was done he looked as angry as I did.

"What the fuck?!"

I nodded and he ran his hand through his hair, "what do we do?"

"I do'nt know. One of her parents needs ta go to the school and have all those bloody kids suspended or somefin!"

"Yeah right, they are bloody neva here...maybeh I can talk my mom into doin' it."

"Yeah try. I've gotta go back. Juss, keep an eye on her."

He nodded and I left as quickly as I got here.

"Finally!" Jona shouted and I rolled my eyes.

"Is Macy ok?" Oli asked concerned and I shrugged, "no. She's not. Look, juss call Tom so I can finish this song and go home."

He just nodded and I went back to the booth with my mind in shambles.

The next few hours were torture and by 9 I was exhausted physically and mentally. I just wanted to be with Macy.

"Are yeh goin ta see Mac?" Oli asked as we all began to leave.

"Yeah..."

"Yeh reallah care bout her huh?" He asked seriously and I shoved my hands into my jacket pocket, "Yeah, I told yeh I did."

"I fink me mum is gonna go to the school tomorrow. Let her stay home."

I nodded and he patted my shoulder, "lata mate."

Of course I went straight to Macy's were Tom surprisingly still was.

"Has she not left her room?" I asked taking my coat off. He shook his head no and I sighed, "Yeh can leave if yeh want. I'm gonna stay."

"Yeh know Matty, I'm sorrah I give yeh a hard time wif her. I know yeh really care bout her."

"I swear yeh Sykes boys are on the same wave length. Oli just said the same fing."

He laughed, "Well it's true. I'm sorrah. I've juss always been protected ova her. She's only eva had meh and Oli."

I nodded, "I know."

I walked slowly to Macy's room thinking over Tom's words. If he noticed that I cared about her then I was in denial myself about exactly how much. I knew I liked her, but lately she was all that consumed my head. I worried about her more than I did about anyone else and I constantly wondered how she was doing. No matter what I did I couldn't stop. I tried. I honestly did.

There was just no letting it go now, I was too far gone.